first. officer. told him to get up off the ground the officer began to pet him down. and then place on the sounds of kind of fighting into the grown man like wrestling essentially the officer who he. drew his own. individual twisted away from the officer pulling the baton out of his crib. the obvious or did they kind of lunge for the weapon once missed and then when it happened on tree swung as i was just hands didn't hit him i never saw any contact between the two and any kind of went back to where they were so the officers back here there try again fifteen feet apart at this point and that's when the officer pulled out his gun and he did it on three. when the whole make its manufacture consent to step into public wealth. when the

ruling classes protect themselves. with the financial merry go round this doesn't mean the one percent tell me. it's not going all middle of the road signal. going round mean real knew. what. was thank god i was the line was the thing at odd thing i. think.

thanks. my m.o.'s it was an eighteen delta recon calories. also trained sniper. we did a lot of. weird stuff two thousand and four to two thousand and six and then we're back to iraq you know seven for the surge. came back. you know a. nineteen ninety eight when i try to press so aside their thoughts were stream way prevalent my mind. you're how tall. i'm just sixty two you're three inches shorter than i am. i was six foot

five i was the biggest one in the room i could reach in the top shelf i had to reach of almost my foot. and then to go where i couldn't. walk couldn't do my martial arts like i was able to do was extremely depressing. you were trying to kill yourself hi-fi did i shot myself from the near right here. i had to go into the air the side experience like i said just brilliant light came around me and this arm laid on my shoulder and so there was things going be all right here kids will be ok and. you know and then bam back to my body and her like. ever since then i quit drinking. the military family respite center that started when the miss kim she saw all this house hasi end sitting empty

and was in foreclosure and misc bought it and i'll buy or sell and turn it over to not forgotten outreach to be used for the military families as a place of rest but. i'm sorry you. can't be because. i way that i can i want to take that. move it over there one there. and that's it. i will always back there and this is open for. i served in the u.s. army and the military intelligence division and i think three times. total i've been homeless. so three times after i got out of the service i've been homeless.

the world doesn't exactly offer our military families are surviving families a place of where they can just kind of fall apart and that's ok and if they need to lay out in the yard and cry. they can and i thought were hell the world doesn't offer it's but i can see how everything about it what we're creating here is hopefully a sense of sanctuary. a sense of acceptance that's the goal. of. a lot of people believe that this area house county. and then why specifically need to have special healing and spiritual energy. i've been told that the dalai lama has commented on it but this is a special place in the world for that. the last

year i was in the military i worked as casualty assistance we saw hundred eighty seven deaths that year so. i was very involved with the funerals. i took that job very seriously and honored to be able to do it. yes. there's. a casualty assistance and what they do is notify the family they help with all the paperwork getting everything situated. transfer of the body. i shouldn't say it that way. sorry i. every soldier every every one of them matter sold much and and. sometimes you disconnect yourself from the job and call

it call them a body because it's too hard to think of them as. people but. sorry they're not just a body. yeah. i remember. every single one of them. i actually kept a notebook. of all of their funerals. i don't show anybody that. but sorry sidetracked. and i'm sorry i don't really feel comfortable talking about what happened specifically. i have i struggle with nightmares about them and. it's something that heavy on my mind hard for me to hear. on the news and really really. that i struggle with is definitely associated with

that and then. i got out of the military and. i got married to my husband who stayed in the military. he was deployed to iraq in seven and he was killed in iraq. and. i was able to hold it together pretty well until his death. and then. you appear. and. that's when everything kind of. exploded. so. how did it feel like. good morning could you talk to them for a while sure. sure sure thank you i like the best. that. we see not all we. are

a visual you know i didn't he. when i came back from iraq. i was like i couldn't really. going inside two stores and. decided get. weird and not have to leave and. go whole. just through the whole. eighteen year really want to do anything that would be near and work on my car. and. all you see do is was drink. drinking three of the. needle by needle i just said to myself well i want to be drinking and drinking enough i want to end up just killing myself by drinking. salt. i just said fauji i'm not going to want to stop drinking and all that. when that's when i kind of like sarah taking

taekwondo all. and still. here it is going. on here that. doesn't save in this one i got my hundred percent. hundred percent disability. and what is it related like this hundred percent is a pianist. and zuhdi the. panic attacks and. sometimes i on a first came i used to always get up i couldn't sleep and i always get all promote be walking around looking out the window all my wife would tell me i'm already

doing a good can't sleep on her commute looking out the windows at women looking all to see. one one night and i got up and i will curl up and i told her he get up get up it's cold it's cool chilly are you ok in all its goals you are going to to go. school we got to go to the bunkers are not like. you know like you tell me the next morning e-mails i call ya go wrong on august third of. one percent and they're going to rolled out of that on to the forums. is that what do you do. back my wife woke me up last night. telling everybody to get down there were a good name never did it i. read to you and you

did. say do you have play back no there was no plan at all i have. had it with the would not say it. just. yet it. is a monster told. that it. was in my car is a third of the chevy. camaro it looks like a spaceship. and it's amazing. this is all

through ninety six in june but this is a called a con no ram and it has two carburetors. it is from a tank or something you know. why are you doing it while you're working on cars. working on cars and don't let your teen years old. is it a human practice where you add in the because my mind is always. one to work on my cars it's not like for when i came back from iraq i was like i didn't have noise and no more nothin but little by little i started getting better at it you know back again into it and seemed normal i gotta keep up my he calls and what is it for you or the doing here in the shop with garbage bag a six a leg pry eat or something like that when i go for a ride on

a people always go can. they like the way low there of using cool cause it's a nice car can it take a picture of it. and they're just like makes you feel way cool like you did something to make you do something and people appreciate it. if like there's someone else living inside of me or controlling my body. the byproduct of that drug is the cause like severe depression. because it literally meet him into a zombie it's crazy. you know we don't have to do anything it's not our fault you know shoes crazy and all that. took

years traumatic takes long time to get rid of. something seemed wrong but old roles just don't hold. any new world that is yet to shape out these days becomes educated and in games from an equals betrayal. when so many find themselves worlds apart we choose to look for common ground.

this is my favorite part about the farm project and zack shelley doing. what they feel when you plant something else that they're. both off to where. it's cooked texting. and so it's just like don't think to me. like that. i mean. to ground yourself. a lot of us. feel that we were. misled misguided. even though. we join. you know to serve

our community. in this is like a real way. to give people a sense of purpose and to be grounded. well for me i feel like it's a way of cleansing the karma you know that i. and now. focusing my energies into. building communities and helping other beings. instead of destroying them. taking their freedom away. tries to be sustainable in all aspects of our operation we use solar energy. our septic systems for grey water so there were water in the fields and everything

we use well water here on the property. recycle eighty three things. last the first time i've seen the inside. it does look. like. i would just go through years ago thanks to some funding from from nothing got out reach with the denver and took about a four day course on autopilot and i came back. and installed a system in my greenhouse this is it i have but it's basically a pilot project we're not forgotten it's a training tool itself and we get people interested if they're interested in and then and it's also used well we use it to try to get funding if we can find people that are interested and want to back up

a larger project and you get the job of it there and we can also teach other veterans this displace is it my house but it's open to any of the veterans that want to come here take a look help out learn whatever they want to do. very sweet. you know it is a spiritual component to all this it's not religious it's it's trying to get these guys to. the veterans to to figure out who they are you know. most of us go to war when we were very young and a lot of us had problems before we ever went to war.

by the time i was thirty one years old thirty four years old made it up with a lot of that's going a. what is it going to alcoholics anonymous. boy do you drink that much of the time to go this mississippi alcoholics don't drink to get drunk alcoholics drink to feel normal. that's why alcoholics that's way drug addicts do what they do. you actually encourage drink when you're in the new cars to drink when you know three. well they create not commissioned officers clubs in airmen's clubs and officers clubs and it's it's a social lubricant and in people. especially there were income but there is they get out there and they become a couple weeks well yeah. so you understand what self medicating is.

so self medicating you may not go out of marijuana era was cocaine methamphetamines anything this altering trying to get us out of that bad mindset using a chemical that would be self medicating and it's was made of it there is do and. now i think that if you asked. over eighty percent self medicated or getting out of the service over eighty percent of asians a self medicated kept one where you were in one way or the other. i'm clean of the. i'll call. for. this is my second month. good luck but my whole life was either a heroin or all. that was it. and then you know

and then once you get off marilyn then it becomes off. and them. is. just as bad. anymore it's far more easily available anywhere anyway in the other in the grocery story i have it out. there he could gas station it's not my right to get it anywhere dr in pakistan or in the pool but you know when you come to places like this where you have people that were in the military i'll still to call them because me just and you better well and can say that they understand you better if you're worried i mean the you can tell your story you can you tell your story can't tell your story like this in church or in the plaza or anyplace else. by the way why no one

would be seen to you know the some out of like your church is for religion. this is a whole different story. drug addiction alcohol addiction is a whole different story. you know you got to get everyone. together as they say you have to put just your own recovery you sit around and feel sorry for yourself. no one's going to look you know so even if you go to your interview and like get all the appeals. and then complain well you know they have they have townsell and i don't know how good it is you know that that's that's a dicey game as far as i'm concerned because you never know how good the counselor is and you know what the counselors experienced either counselors psychiatry

sutil the lot a lot of grunts by telling them that they don't need to do that he. do this and that but this is the council's got a drinking problem of course is not going. to tell you that you need to stop yours . counselor because bts do you gas or has b.d.s. d. which he probably does and most most people who are in the healing professions are in there to cure their own own diseases to start with. some kind of. you chasing their own demons. but that's just something you learned over the years. are you going to. j.v. meet reason we. devise a little more you know if you don't cover to get it right. he's not all nervous and jittery like. he's got a year for a good start so. i have

a service more. i mean he'll kind of only all so much i just look in my face. so kids you see. he's a p.t.s.d. service dog what does it mean well what it means is it's taken fourteen pills three times a day i have him to relax me and comfort me. and soothe me when i mean irritated and being comatose with. its job. really. and a good thing. i had some people say you know you should look for a different job you don't get paid enough there. but the more i work there the more i realize it's not the money you know these these dogs they are beings

like us but. someone needs to take care of it. it should be. applied to anything else let's go this way since i'm. not a maker if it is too. early when you're wrong we come over. it's definitely more therapeutic then like meeting with some nurse practitioner or they want to like hot six medications at you after ten minutes of knowing. her honey let's go. to some. other one in such a hurry to get you so you learn to be patient you also share your love where. they need the. wall. when they need something or their own

social awareness or their very own path they you know they want you to tell anyone what they need to be with other dogs or with people they need just like people need . to interact with other. intelligence means. you know. you know provision of my by going to what we. owe. your for your hideaway lost his boss because. we. don't have any.

choices you know you're not. you know just i mean. i mean we're going to go with. this one up as well i must. get rid of. those was the. one of the. this where this part of this. yes it will be. with you. as your health care executive or bank your costly getting a gift from a fellow governor millions hundreds of millions trillions of dollars if you're not part of that cobol you are the one paying for it yes and that's why there's a lot of social unrest that's the best movement in france and around the world is

the global insurrection against banker occupation is coming to america and twenty nineteen in your torch and let's party on t.v. because it's all about rebel. officers begins. on the sounds of. which is the way for us to. see did they couldn't. once missed and then what happened on three swung. didn't hit him i never saw any contact with. any kind went back to where they were back here there again fifteen feet apart at this point.

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