needs to be fed and you're going to know about that when i want to fly. anymore so the difference between the principle and in detail what you see and i think forward is to have a vote where you project the package that mrs may is negotiated against. and it said quite clearly on that piece of propaganda that was pushed through my door and everybody else's door join the referendum cost of nine million pounds only pushing the case to remain this is a once in a lifetime vote the government will support it the leaders at the time said they would support it because they lost the bad news is you've got to get together and try and make the deal work people don't want a second referendum in my view and people like tony blair and alastair campbell his henchmen saying we should have a second referendum the more the support would drop. your bank thank you very much and that's back on the news and reporting from was a veteran journalist the member of parliament. ninety five years of the day of the

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vesting. broadening increasing the size of the national park so that you can to steven mold to every. mile him oh as it was in one thousand go to recon carries. also trained sniper. we did a lot of. weird stuff two thousand and four to two thousand and six and then we're back to iraq you know seven for the surge and then a came back. you know a. nineteen ninety eight when i try to commit suicide or their thoughts were stream lee prevalent my mind. here how tall.

i'm six to three inches shorter than i am. i was six foot five i was the biggest one in the room i could reach in the top shelf i had to reach of almost nine foot. and then to go where i couldn't. walk couldn't do my martial arts like i was able to do was extremely depressing. you were trying to kill yourself hi-fi did i shot myself in the nick right here and i had to go into the air the side experience like i said just brilliant light came around me and this arm laid on my shoulder so there was a thing's going to be all right here kids will be ok and. you know and then bam out of the same back to my body you know hurt like here you are.

there are scenes in i quit drinking. the military family respite center that started with miss kim she saw this house. sitting empty and was in foreclosure and misc bought it and i'll buy or sell and turn it over to not forgotten outreach to be used for the military families as a place of respite. burial. f.-k. baby girl. i wear that i can i want to take that. move it over there one there. and that's it. they were all the way back there and this is open for. i served in the u.s. army and the military intelligence division i think three times total i've been

homeless yeah so three times after i got out of the service i've been homeless. here's. the world doesn't exactly offer our military families are surviving families a place of where they can just kind of fall apart and it's open and if they need to lay out in the yard and cry that they can and i thought. of the world doesn't offer it's here so everything about it well we're creating here is hopefully a sense of sanctuary. a sense of acceptance that's the goal. of a. lot of people believe that this area house county. and then like the mountain specifically. and now i have special healing and spiritual

energy. to be told that the dalai lama has commented on it but this is like a special place in the world for that. and. the last year i was in the military i worked as casualty assistance we saw hundred eighty seven deaths a year so. i was very involved with the funerals. i took that job very seriously and honored to be able to do it in iraq. yes in iraq. there's a casualty assistance and what they do is notify the family they help with all the paperwork getting everything situated. transfer of the body. i shouldn't say it that way. sorry i.

every soldier every every one of them matter sold and and. sometimes you disconnect yourself from the job and call it call them a body because it's too hard to think of them as. people but. sorry they're not just a body. absolutely. i remember. every single one of them. i actually kept a notebook. of all of their funerals. i don't show anybody that. but sorry. and i'm sorry i don't really feel comfortable talking about what do. i have i struggle with nightmares about them.

it's something that had me on my mind it hard for me to hear. i'm going to need a reason really really really then he said i struggle with this carefully associated with that and then. i got out of the military and five i got married to my husband who stayed in the military. he was deployed to iraq in seven. and he was killed. and. i was able to hold it together pretty well until his death. and then. you appear. and. that's when everything kind of. exploded. so. how did you feel like. good morning could you talk to them for

a while sure. sure sure thank you i like you best. you see not all wounds are visual you know i didn't he. when i came back from iraq. i was like i couldn't really. going inside to stores and all that. doesn't it get like. career field again and not have to leave and. go whole just the whole. really want to do anything that would even work on my car. and. all i used to do this was drink. and then little by little i just. said to myself well i want to be drinking and

drinking enough i want to end up just killing myself by drinking. saulo. i just said fauji i'm not going to want to stop drinking and all that. when that's when i kind of like sort of taking take one dollar. and still. say it's going. on here it. doesn't save in this one i got my hundred percent. hundred percent disability. and what is it related like this hundred percent is a pianist. and saeed he. said panic attacks and

you know. some things i on a first came i used to always get up they couldn't sleep and i always get all printed be walking around looking out the window all my wife would tell me what are you doing the girl can't sleep on her commute looking out the windows at women snooki and all to see. one one night and i got up and i will curl up and i told her he get up get up it's cool it's cool she like you ok in the normal school she like or you going to go to school we got to go to the bunkers or not i was like. you know like you tell me the next more e-mails like boy i go. on and on the other. one percent and they're going to rolled out of that on the forums.

is that what he's doing. back my wife woke me up last night. telling everybody get down or a good name have you know you're going to. lead us through the seas and you did. say and you have played back oh there was a little plan oh i have. had it with the enough slave. yet it. is a monster told. that it.

was in my car is a third of the chevy. camaro it looks like a spaceship. and it's amazing. and this is all through ninety six in june this is a called a condo ram and it has two carburetors. this is from a tank or something you know. why are you doing it while you're working on cars we're working on a car since all that thirteen years old. these are the q in practice for you and yes because my mind is always some of these one to work on my cars it's not like when i came back from iraq i was like i didn't have no interest in them or the media but little by little i started getting now. better idea you know back

again into it and saying no we're going to keep up my he calls would he's a pretty we're doing here in the sort of prose that is silly. or golf or right on here people always go can't. we like to we are all the cool it's a nice car or can i take a picture over. there just like makes you feel cool like you did something make you do something and people appreciated. the.

it was you know provision on my bike when i wanted it. or not. but i. just i go hide oh i lost his boss because you know that then you just got an idea which was you know going to answer any. question but that's honest i don't mean that has been. so i says you know part of if you're not. you're not just i mean my point is i'm already but i've spent the better of me just a lot of the media and the i mean the lord. has been up as well i must admit that he feels i just don't get off on getting with us but. they speed though. i'm one of those but i was just this but i just. i want my bed and we've got

a bomb i just got that already has a question in the thought of getting up there calling with you you're going to mean to carry out my thought aloud bow to me just gotta go you. perfect there's someone else living inside of me like controlling my body. the byproduct of that drug is the cause like severe depression. because it will need him into a zombie it's crazy. you know we don't have to do anything it's not our fault you know says claims he and all that. the fears carnatic takes a long time to get rid of. this

is my favorite part about the fun project he's actually doing. what they feel when you plan something has a date. cycle stuff to where you could text. them so that it's like don't think for two minutes. like that. i mean any plans. to ground you so. a lot of us. feel that we were. misled misguided.

even though. we joined. you know to serve our community. in this is like a real way. to give people a sense of purpose and to be grounded. well for me i feel like it's a way of cleansing the karma you know that i. and now. focusing my energies into. building communities and helping other beings instead of destroying them. taking their freedom away. now forgotten outreach tries to be sustainable in all aspects of our all we use

solar energy. our septic systems for grey water so there were water in the fields and everything we use well water here on the property. recycle avery thing. asked the first time i've seen the inside. in. school it does look. like. i would just go to two years ago thanks to so some funding from nothing got an outreach with the denver and took about a four day course on autopilot and i came back and installed a system in my greenhouse this is that i have but it's basically a pilot project we're not forgotten it's

a training tool it's something to get people interested if they're interested in and then and it's also used will be use it to try to get funding if we can find people that are interested and want to back up a larger project and you get the job of it there and we can also teach other veterans this place is it my house but it's open to any of the veterans that want to come here take a look help out learn whatever they want to do. very sweet. you know it is a spiritual component to all this it's not religious it's it's trying to get these guys to. the veterans to to figure out who they are you know most of us go to war when we were very young and a lot of us had problems before we ever went to war.

by the time i was thirty one years old or thirty four years old right and. what a lot of that is going to. amy. what is it going to alcoholics anonymous. boy do you drink much of the video has mississippi alcoholics don't drink to get drunk alcoholics drink to feel normal. that's why alcoholics that's way drug addicts do what they do. you actually encourage drink when you're in the near the cars to drink when you know three. well they create a commission off your squads in airmen's clubs and officers clubs and it's it's a social lubricant and in people. especially there were income but there is they

get out there and they become alcoholics well. so you understand what self medicating is. so self medicating you may not go out of marijuana or was cocaine methamphetamines anything that's altering trying to get us out of that bad mindset using the chemical that would be self medicating and that's what made it turns do and. now i think that if you asked. over eighty percent self medicated or getting out of the service over eighty percent of veterans a self medicated kept one where you were in one way or the other. i'm clean of the. i'll call. for. this is my second month. did you not but my whole life

was either heroin or alcohol. and that was it. and then you know and then once you get on marilyn then it becomes ah and then i'll call is. just. bad. anymore is far more easily available anywhere anyway my brother in the grocery story i have it out on. the new kid gas station it's not my right to get it anywhere. packaged or in the world but you know when you come to places like this where you have people that were in the military i'll still call the course because i'm just and you better well and can't say that they understand you better if you're already coming from the l.

you can tell your story you can see you tell your story can't tell your story like this in church or in the plaza or any place else. by the way why no one would be seen to you know the from out of here like your church is for religion. this is a whole different story. drug addiction alcohol addiction is a whole different story. you know you got it everyone. you know you got to as they say you have to put just make your own recovery you sit around and feel sorry for yourself. no one is going to help you know so even if you go to. interview and like get all the pills and then complain well you know they have they have to house when i don't know how good it is you know that that's

that's a dicey game as far as i'm concerned you never know how good the counselor is and you know what the counselors experienced either. psychiatry sutil the lot of a lot of drunks by telling them that they don't need to do the. do this and that but this is the council's got a drinking problem of course it's not. to tell you that you need to stop yours. this is ground zero because beauty is do you a dancer has be d.s.d. which he probably does and most most people who are in the healing professions are in there to cure their own own diseases to start with. we're going to hear. you're chasing their own demons. but that's just something you learned over the years. oh you going to. j.v. meet reason we. devise going to bore you don't worry don't cover to

get it right. mostly it is not all nervous and jittery like there was. not a year for a good start so. i have a service cat more. but yeah yeah also like if i mom and i want him having nightmares yeah he'll stop me. all night he said so much i just look in my face. oh so kids you see you p.t.s.d. he's a p.t.s.d. service dog guess what does it mean well what it means is it's taken fourteen pills three times a day i have him to relax me and comfort me. and soothe me when i mean irritated instead of being comatose with. it's job yeah animal shelters. really. in

a good thing. they had some people say you know you should look for a different job you don't get paid enough. but the more i work there and the more i realize it's not the money you know these dogs your beans like us but. someone needs to take care of it. should. anything else go this way since i'm. not making. it too. early when you're wrong really coming. it's definitely more therapeutic then like meeting with some nurse practitioner that wants to like hawks six medications at you after ten minutes of knowing. her let's go.

to. the longer one insert your courage so you learn to be patient you also share your love where. they need your all. they need something or a social animal there in your path if you know they need to continually need to be with other dogs or with people they need just like people need. to interact with other. intelligent beings. join me every closely on the all excitement and i'll be speaking to guest of the world of politics sport this list i'm showbusiness i'll see that.

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