angry as a group i mean they're always except he but as a group they get angry they might even lock you up for wanting to come off your psychiatric drugs they do get paid tax i mean they do get paid per kid per household whatever so you know i don't know how it works that. it's a system so so who can pay for it so the poor the disadvantaged. foster children medicaid pays for it that's a governmental agency that pays for medications for people who can't children people who can't afford it. older and people who. are sixty five and older medicare pays for it. military people try care pays for it so you prisoners our tax dollars pay for it. if

there is an avenue for a flow of income flow of money to pay for the medication that swear there will be people prescribe these drugs in a massive way and they make so much money from it that they are then able to use that as part of campaigns with legislators and with insurance companies to see to it they get even more prescriptions done it's. quite an operation. we were pregnant with our fifth child when this happened and he couldn't hold our

meal for him because his hands are moving so much trying to live this way. you know it was she said my kids. and i don't play on a daily basis my kids left me to ask me to play with them when. so many times i have to. i have to say can't play with you and it hurts just. as a follow that really hurts. just can't believe. i just can't live my life is taking this turn is not how i ever expected my life would be i was have plans in my head for the kind of husband and father i'd be and. and it's just i feel like it that's all been taken from it's all been stolen from me.

for having my right to thirty years and. had three strokes where they were back and actually going to rest on but they're about five. it's a two thousand and three hours throw with the senate boyd regional and wake up every morning at breakfast with my dad and all the so you know can't really ask for much more than just have fun. livin the dream. through. this for girls or eight year young horses that.

i think or else. this one just a year living. this one here is pregnant. she just arrived from spain not too long ago. they're always ready. to. do in the things every day that are kind of repetitive but important like washing the dishes and you know taking the care of the horses is like that it takes a lot of dedication and you have to really sell self motivate yourself to get up early in the mornin you know do what needs to be because it's a lot of heavy work and moving around and ride him exercise and you know health care but they just returned home odds i mean they just give their heart so completely to you and i just get so much satisfaction out of it.

ok go ahead out the big chop step is a little tall so you go head first yeah. bedroom . but. i realize my seizures she could preach it grew take my seizures so i got a certified is my my service dog and she travel with me everywhere for like five years. and she would see how me she would alert me before i would have a seizure and i had time to get was someone sit down you know be somewhere safe and so she's pretty amazing here but she's upset now because for every year she doesn't have a job it was always more never last they told me my act of the shia was agitated depression that my my depression was turning into bipolar as they said was quite

common all just needs more meds new meds. are. all due to the fact that i was raped as a child and never dealt with it it was always pushed back and when my parents first put me on drugs it was so they were so relieved to see she's a problem you know we don't have to do anything it's not our fault you know she's crazy and all that. so i finally got so fed up i decided myself that i would get off well i found that wasn't quite so easy.

sometimes we were desperate sometimes we just fell in despair because. we had the feeling that maybe she would never feel like human again or felt the drugs i mean she was still developing her brain was still developing when chewed through her first psychotropic drugs when she was a teenager and re didn't know if it would be possible for her to ever leave without them so it was really hard to find a specialist who would help to move in the door. action but really find some information real learnt about tapering real learned about the correct way of getting off the drugs and basically it's in same way as needing any kind of drug or smoking or alcohol the same idea. and so i basically live my life drugged out i thought to do anything i it was either

to cheat down to this to that and those drugs are sold horribly addicting. when i try to get off them myself it was an experience that i can relate to anybody you have to go slowly it's really important if you've been on a psychiatric drug specially multiple drugs for months or years you have to come up slowly have written a book about it it's called psychiatric drug withdrawal so i found peter bergen's and withdrawal from psychiatric medications and i followed it to eighty i took all my seven medications just shaved off a little piece of one every day and it took me over a year and i finally got off of everything. this is from star wars.

this is a to move in this is. from the world. in a take so i take both of these three times a day so it's seven and a half milligrams. by shaving it down i've gotten down to about. half a mil a gram. in. maybe five five months. so it's a very very long slow process. and he's on with john and this is only one medication i have. i have. i have. other medications to. get off of.

some of the documents we have is like why is this important like withdraw some drugs or once you get on them it's very difficult to get off because they change the architecture of the brain when the drugs taken away people think that their depression is returning when actually they're going through withdrawal just like you are like withdrawing from cocaine or group withdrawing from heroin it's withdraw and. for. these companies it was a big deal to not. some of these companies to not have the withdrawal be a feature in the labeling. what politicians do you suppose. they put themselves on the line to get accepted or

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three were really drawn to shatter on some remorse in the level it wasn't because of drugs. that we were together it was something something deeper but. as with any addiction. street drugs or alcohol addiction or whatever addiction gambling addiction any addiction makes a relationship really hard and it took a huge fall on us so. we couldn't hold it together because oh well because of this. we did last for three years and. every. single day. one way or another because coming up what do we do today to made for the. better to be the side to make the. better to

make her feel like a human again. my bike i kind of. consider to be a. lifesaver in a way. the one thing in him to do i'm comfortable doing outside is getting on my bike and writing it. it helps because on my bike i'm constantly pedaling so i'm always i'm moving all my legs are always moving so it helps i'm sitting but i'm moving. and i enjoy it i can get out and i can move around. normally everything inside my body felt i was going a million miles an hour and i feel i don't have any control over anything in my life nothing but when i get on my bike. i have control of my bike i can you know i

just i feel like i've controlled my life and that's it's a relief for me to have control. something about it definitely helps a lot and i had to go a night because there's not a lot of people outside at night and i can just kind of be more self not to worry about running into people and that's what helps a lot to takes a lot of the worry and stress off. these wild horses you know or. body building down to mexico you know in that kind of like camp and surprisingly. like it even in the back of my muscle is you know i'm proud because i'm sixty watts and most of the women i know that are sixty. you know it's like couch potato seed. today so you'll give the it's. it's it's

you know it's. it's a whole this is a very. i love the way a lot of people. obviously if i wasn't. in the sea and wasn't participating in like the ocean like. well i think i think they never get rid of it you know i think that's the. that's the thing that the parents. and society. and doctors and psychologists and things like . that we don't understand. there are no lifetime studies i mean one of the more recent approvals nifty of a stimulant for so-called a.d.h. he was three weeks long. so then you're going to say give it give it for months or

years or a lifetime and why the studies are only three months long because the drugs don't work they're all neurotoxins so after a few weeks the patients get worse so you can't carry the studies beyond a few weeks this is such a shine. i'm just really in sock that it continues on and on all the research all the long term studies which are people like me there were no long term studies in the beginning when those drugs are approved i'm a long term study i was affected horribly by those drugs they never help me it was all a mistake i should have never been put on drugs i should have been nurtured a little bit by my parents and not told that i'm a reject and i deserve what i got and it was all my fault and i'm just not it you know like everybody else in the family defective when those parents put those kids on the drugs they're teaching those children that there's something wrong with them

down something that's instilled in there and they will likely never get over that they're defective they need a pill to fix them you know everybody every human being on the earth has their own issues and children when they go through trauma like doubt. what do they need understanding somebody to take them a hand in town that wasn't their fault and this is how you get through it you be strong you know you don't just take a pill and just forget about it i mean it's just ridiculous to me it's like laziness on the parents part and not enough concern to look into the facts and see what happened city's kids long term it's not a good outcome it's not a good outcome in any way it never helps how he was low. he was a very happy young young child and when he hit about. four or five he started

to become very rebellious. you know we tried to deal with it the best way that we could. and it just kind of you know it was it was the just the you can't make me do this and you know anything we would say he would be argumentative about it. hugh we spent a lot of time with them as a child my husband and i worked up as it shifts and so one of us was almost always with them. when. they you know just kind of escalated as he got older and when he was about in fourth grade he started having a lot of trouble in school so we started seeing a psychologist and. he would not talk to the doctors you know we try to do family counseling and things like that and he

just he wouldn't he wouldn't talk he has he said that we didn't love him that was what he always told the doctors that was his problem is that we didn't love him that was his perception. that he was not loved and. he never did like open up to the doctors we didn't put him on ritalin for the creating it. for one year and we took him on and that one year he was having a lot of trouble it seemed to help from our perspective. the next year we took him off so he took it for what move probably not even a year maybe eight or nine months he didn't want to fall or rolls. you know he was smoking and drinking and experimenting with drugs and you know he just he didn't have a love for him he didn't get good grades and he was doing drugs and he just he wasn't responsible so we didn't give him a lot of privileges and the other kids got a lot of privileges and that's another thing you're kind of next with him that he

just saw that that wasn't fair that they were always good students and well behaved and. you know like i said stop so what he missed out on and were determined not to go down that same road it was a good education for the other two yeah and i don't know they don't know what. created the issues that we had with him. you know we don't obviously we didn't do something you know there is something missing in his life from us but you know i can't see that i can see what we did. was he was mad at what i just said something i said. setting off just. what worries as you go. where you. are. right i couldn't carry water.

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