there's almost become. defensive when you're trying to tell them things like this and they they're only answer is to try more drugs and try more drugs and try more drugs. and it's just scary and it's and it's tiring don't go to your psychiatrist they get offended because they have feet of seeing in this selling a fourth product so they get very angry as a group i mean they're always upset even as a group they get angry they might even lock you up for wanting to come off you psychiatric drugs they do get paid i mean they do get paid per kid per you know household whatever so you know i don't know how it works that. it's a system on self so who can pay for it so the poor the disadvantaged. foster children

medicaid pays for it that's a governmental agency that pays for medications for people who can't children people who can afford it. older and people who. are sixty five and older medicare pays for it. military people try care pays for it so you prisoners our tax dollars pay for it. if there is an avenue for a flow of income flow of money to pay for the medication that swear there will be people prescribe these drugs in a massive way and they make so much money from it that they're then able to use that as part of campaigns with legislators and with insurance companies to see to it they get even more prescriptions done it's. quite an operation.

we were pregnant with our fifth child when this happened and he couldn't hold our meal for him because his hands were moving so my trying to live this way. you know i was she said my kids and they only on a daily basis my kids left me to ask me to play with them and. sometimes i have to. i have to say can't play with you and it hurts just. as a father that really hurts. i just can't believe. i just can't live my

life is taken this turns not how i ever expected my life would be i was have plans in my head for the kind of husband and father i'd be and. and it's just i feel like it that's all been taken from it's all been stolen from me. forever and that's my right to thirty years and. have three strokes where they were back and now if you're going to arrest them but they're about five years. it's a two thousand and three hours throw with the senate boy great just going to wake up every morning at breakfast with my dad and all the so you know can't really ask for much more than just have fun and. just living the dream.

thank. you. these four girls great year young horses the. girl was. just a year living. this one here is pregnant. she just arrived from spain not too long ago. they're always ready. to. do in the things every day that are kind of repetitive but important like washing the dishes and you know taking the care of the horses is like that it takes

a lot of dedication and you have to really sell self motivate yourself to get up early in the mornin you know do it needs to be because it's a lot of heavy work and moving around and ride him exercise and you know health care and but they just return so mobs i mean they just give their hearts so completely to you and i just get so much satisfaction out of it. ok go ahead out the big chop step is a little tall so you go head first yeah i. saw your. bedroom. but. i realized she could detect my seizures she could preach it grew take my seizures so i got a certified as my my service dog and she traveled with me everywhere for like five

years. and she would see how me she would alert me before i would have a seizure and i had time to get was someone to sit down and you know be somewhere safe and so she's pretty amazing here but she's upset now because for every year she doesn't have a job it was always more never less they told me my act of these you know was agitated depression that my my depression was turning into bipolar as they said was quite common all just needs more meds new meds. are. all due to the fact that i was raped as a child and never dealt with it it was always pushed back and when my parents first put me on drugs it was so they were so relieved to see she's a problem you know we don't have to do anything it's not our fault you know she's

crazy and all that. so i finally got so fed up i decided myself that i would get off when i found that wasn't quite so easy. sometimes we were desperate sometimes we just fell in despair because. we had the feeling that maybe she would never feel like human again or felt the drugs i mean she was still developing her brain was still developing when chewed through her first psychotropic drugs when she was a teenager and re didn't know if it would be possible for her to ever leave without them so it was really hard to find a specialist who would help to move in the door. action but really find some

information real learnt about tapering real learned about the correct way of getting off the drugs and basically it's in same way as knitting or any kind of drug or smoking or alcohol the same idea. and so i basically live my life drugged out i fought to do anything i it was either to down to this to that and those drugs are sold horribly addicting. when i try to get off them myself it was an experience that i can relate to anybody you have to go slowly it's really important if you've been on a psychiatric drug specially multiple drugs for months or years you have to come off slowly have written a book about it it's called psychiatric drug withdrawal so i found peter bergen's and withdrawal from psychiatric medications and i followed it to eighty i took all

my seven medications just shaved off a little piece of one every day and it took me over a year and i finally got off of everything. this is from star wars. this is a to move in this is. from the. in a take so i take both of these three times a day so it's seven and a half milligrams. and. by shaving it down i've gotten down to about. half a mil

a gram. in. maybe five five months. so it's a very very long slow process. and he's on with you and this is only one medication i have. i have. i have. two other medications to. get off of. some of the documents we have is like why is this important like withdrawal of some drugs or once you get on them it's very difficult to get off because they change the architecture of the brain when the drugs taken away people think that their depression is returning what actually they're going through withdrawal just like you are like withdrawing from cocaine or group withdrawing from heroin it's withdrawal and. for. these companies it

was a big deal to not. some of these companies to not have the withdrawal be a feature in the labeling. so what we've got to do is identify the threats that we have it's crazy to confront ation let it be an arms race is on offense spearing dramatic development only really i'm going to resist i don't see how that strategy will be successful very critical time to sit down and talk. survival ecstacy just like all the stored simply reading all the surface.

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we were really drawn to each other on some more from the level it wasn't because of drugs. that we were together it was something something deeper but. as with any addiction. street drugs or alcohol addiction or whatever addiction gambling addiction any addiction makes a relationship really hard and it took a huge toll on us so. we couldn't hold it together because oh well because of this. we did last for three years and. every single day. one way or another because coming out what do we do today. made the. better to be the side to make the. better to make her feel like a human again. my

bike i kind of. consider to be a. life saver in a way. the one thing in him to do i'm comfortable doing outside is getting on my bike and writing it. it helps because on my bike i'm constantly pedaling so i'm always moving and while my legs are always moving so it helps i'm sitting but i'm moving. and i enjoy it i can get out and i can move around. normally everything inside my body feel weightless going a million miles an hour and i feel i don't have any control over anything in my life nothing but when i get on my bike. i have control of my bike i can you know i

just i feel like i've controlled my life and that's really for me to have control. something about it definitely helps a lot and i like to go a night because there's not a lot of people outside at night and i can just kind of be more self and i have to worry about running into people and that's what helps a lot to takes a lot of the worry and stress off. these wild horses you know or. a little body building down here makes it go you know in that kind of like camp and surprisingly i might be even in the back on my muscles you know i'm proud because i'm sixty watts and most of the women i know that are sixty. you know like couch potato seed and so you look at the it's.

it's it's you know it's. it's a golf this is a very. i love the way a lot of people. obviously if i wasn't. in the city and wasn't participating in like the ocean like. but i think i think they never get rid of it you know i think that's the. that's the thing that the parents. and society. and doctors and psychologists and things like . that we don't understand. there are no lifetime studies i mean one of the more recent approvals nifty of a stimulant for so called a.d.h. he was three weeks long. so then you're going to say give it give it for months or years or a lifetime and why the studies are only three months long because the drugs don't

work they're all neurotoxins so after a few weeks the patients get worse so you can't carry the studies beyond a few weeks this is such a shine. i'm just really in soch that it continues on and on all the research all the long term studies which are people like me there were no long term studies in the beginning when those drugs are approved i'm a long term study i was affected horribly by those drugs they never help me it was all a mistake i should've never been put on drugs i should have been nurtured a little bit by my parents and not told that i have a reject and i deserve what i got and it was all my fault and i'm just not it you know like everybody else in the family defective when those parents put those kids on the drugs they're teaching those children that there's something wrong with dad's something that's instilled in there and they will likely never get over that

they're defective they need a pill to fix them you know everybody every human being on the earth has their own issues and shoulder and when they go through trauma like that out. what do they need understanding is somebody to take in my hands how that wasn't their fault and this is how you get through it you be strong you know you don't just take a pill and just forget about it i mean it's just ridiculous to me it's like laziness on the parents' part and not enough concern to look into the facts and see what happens to these kids long term it's not a good outcome it's not a good outcome in any way it never helps how he was low. he was a very happy young young child and when he hit about four or five he started to become very rebellious. you know we tried to deal with it the best way that we

could. and it just kind of you know it was it was the just the you can't make me do this and you know anything we would say he would be argumentative about it. he we spend a lot of time with them as a child my husband and i worked up as it shifts and so one of us was almost always with them. when. they you know just kind of escalated as he got older and when he was about in fourth grade he started having a lot of trouble in school so we started seeing a psychologist and. he would not talk to the doctors you know we try to do family counseling and things like that and he just he wouldn't he wouldn't talk he has he said that we didn't love him that was

what he always told the doctors that was his problem is that we didn't love him that was his perception. that he was not loved and. he never did like open up to the doctors we didn't put him on ritalin for creating it. for one year and we took him up and that one year he was having a lot of trouble it seemed to help from our perspective. the next year we took him off so he took it for one move probably not even a year maybe eight or nine months he didn't want to fall or rolls. you know he was smoking and drinking and experimenting with drugs and you know he just he didn't have a love for him he didn't get good grades and he was doing drugs and he just he wasn't responsible so we didn't give him a lot of privileges and the other kids got a lot of privileges and that's another thing a kind of mix with him that he just saw that that wasn't fair that they were always good students and well behaved and. you know like i said sob so what he missed out

on and were determined not to go down that same road was a good education for the other two yeah and i don't know they don't know what. created the issues that we had with him. you know we don't obviously we didn't do something you know there is something missing in his life from us but you know i can't see that i can see what we did. was saying he's mad at what i just said something i said. setting off just. what worries you go. where you. are. right i couldn't carry water.

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