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a thing to say. oh it's just right now i really want to dance the kind of twine and that crack i love that i want you. i've dreamed of being a prima ballerina since i was a child i like to dance solo parts of course but i have no problem dancing in the court a valet i don't want other ballerinas to be jealous of me to the point of putting glass in my shoes they did that once to a dancer i want everything to be smooth. in the ring in a dude like yesterday nice towards the bar shoulders away from it grazed your legs far as it will go and stay where you are with shoulder pointing backwards janie your elbow feedback shave to fit backwards. while my free mother bringing her child

to the academy believe she will be an accomplished delayed dancer you've raised your child and gone through all the trouble to hand her over but mark my words at best she's going to dance in the back row of quarter ballet mothers once when they hear that 80 percent of the girls and out of there even though all of them dream of a crown and pink tutu just take off those rose colored spectacles pulls you see how graceful they are when they step but you should know that makes them very miserable because of the pain they suffer from the secretary has have to be made here or. the marion ski theatre is so big that's why i want to be a part of it but when i 1st went on stage i thought very scared. my heart was pounding the 1st time i performed on the variance the stage. was. ok everyone has devoted.

her her her her. her. initial a lot of names on the less than 10 list graduate get shorter for instance if they put on less or 3 columns of names you'll see about 10 people at last laughs and that by the end it's. like that sometimes it hurts when you really want to like we have bigger girls who are never chosen for any parts and they usually get upset when the lists are put out they think i hope i'll be there but they aren't the

thing is they're not very good candidates to begin with. there's a lot you still alive barely none of us here ok. training here is a very stressful experience exams and rehearsals are a never ending process evaluations are stressful as well the child is nervous because she doesn't know if her before woman says good enough to be accepted if she's turned down his self-esteem suffers you have to be very strong mentally and physically to face up to the challenge if you're turned down you don't need to give up. 2

there are many up and coming dancers in the. everybody is given the opportunity to dance. but sometimes some of them have plenty of work. for some people like me there were periods where i had nothing to do until recently . luckily i'm much busier this season.

after her singing and performing some of the parts i'm completely exhausted but nobody envious me because they know it's hard. to see that you're almost ready to die. when you leave the court about to do so you feel very lonely because some of your friends have turned away from me but that's the sort of situation that i experienced during the 1st year of my 4th season. but now everybody has come around to the thought that thomas a lay down said after oh. move

a little closer to her should be no distance between you take a step towards her and make sure had chased faces this way right up to her tutor with you. delicately. you. would almost very often oxana finds herself at the center of some gossip to work with but here but this is only natural because when she suddenly appears in a solo part after dancing in the corridor ballet for a long time with nobody well everybody starts whispering about her. i think all those rumors are started by many other dancers wanting to take her place. but.

the guys are far easier to deal with in general they are better at agreeing on things than that just clearing the air. of reason bellydance is a single minded people think they devote their lives to one cause to work and to serve. their audience should only see the results of their labor up there on the stage illuminated by the spotlight story which sometimes they'll spend months or maybe years training just to be able to dance a beautiful variation that lasts maybe a couple of minutes. at the end of the day the ballet dancer is totally played out so much so that he looks more dead than alive and it's no wonder people say that if a ballet dancer doesn't. feel pain when he gets up. so that means he's more or less dead.

goods goods you want to hold on one second you're obviously standing way too close far far too close she's doing the cuckoo and your issue of course you can catch yeah but she ends up over there. my boyfriend is a soul a ballet dancer so you could say we spend time together but there's no rivalry we stimulate each other to improve our performance what they say stuff like why did you let go of it and then he says why did you dive into a stretch i can't. bring all this criticism to one another does help us. i think it sets him when i. take away. your brain is always about work it never takes a rest we argue a lot because we do need to relax to forget all about our work and switch to other

activities but that never happens for instance i might have to dance a new ballets while there's nothing for me to do. i find it hard to dance on this stage it's true that i always get nervous dancing

on other stages because i feel responsible for what i'm doing nothing to do but this stage squeezes a good deal of moral and physical strength out of me i don't know why perhaps there's something in its history traditions or the audience that makes performing here is so difficult just so much. good. 20 minutes. what you see on stage looks gloriously beautiful and everything seems as it should be but i know it's the result of very hard work and if someone were to ask me whether i'd like to go through all of that again with the knowledge i have now i'd think twice before answering the question. because he.

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thousands of american men and women choose to serve in the country's military and the decision. every song came to a complete. the day that i was raped be instructed you know told to shut up or they'd kill me and i see how it destroyed my life any screamed at me and he made me come in the gram my arm and he write me with his birth ink area if you take into account that women don't report because of the extreme retaliation and it's probably somewhere near about half a 1000000 women have now been sexually assaulted in the us military rape is a very very traumatizing thing tat happen but i've never seen trauma like i've seen from women who are veterans who have suffered military sexual trauma reporting rape is more likely to get the victim punished and be offended i had an almost 10 year career which i was very invested in and i gave that up to report a sex offender who was not even put to justice or put on the registry this is

simply an issue of power and violence male sexual predators for the large part of target whoever is there to prey upon whether that's a man or woman. you know world a big part of the law and conspiracy it's time to wake up to dig deeper to hit the stories that midstream refuses to tell more than ever we need to be smart we need to stop slamming the door. and shouting past each other it's time for critical thinking it's time to fight for the middle for the truth the time is now we're watching closely watching the hawks. 2 or 3 of us share a room christina and i come from different cities and the other girls from st petersburg we usually get up at 730 some of us like to get up early or classes

begin at 920 sometimes we have 78 or even 9 lessons lasting until 5 30 pm. sometimes we have rehearsals after that then we do our homework so some of us come here to strach others to play the piano. bench for them before when i was at home i used to have about half an hour to watch t.v. or simply relax but not now i haven't watched t.v. for more than a month maybe even 2 and a half. i rented a room with a girl during the 1st year. during the 1st season i was lucky to get a room all to myself even though you can get 2 people in.

2 people live together in a room like this which. i druther stay away from the still metry. some buildings in some petersburg to emit an unpleasant energy. i think this is one such building. your body after i came to perth to try to enter ballet school 3 girls out of 8 who were admitted. i was the only one. to finish that school. well the teacher shows to me saying lose weight it is. true that keeping in shape is quite a challenge i try not to eat anything before going to bed but when i come home after a performance i really want to do. all i can afford is a glass of yogurt for going to. it is

a big problem for us back home you can eat whatever you want but here you have to be thin sometimes it's hard to hold back yassir allowed to eat more or less what you like but only a small portion of the time if you overdo it you have to exercise i know all of that sugar and up in the thighs and if you become too fat they kick you out. it's hard for putting him out because everybody is eating fruit and chocolates and drinking juice in front of her she isn't allowed to eat those things it's clear that she's still a kid and wants everything but she's not allowed. sally what annoys me most of all is that my teacher charles me that i'm doing very well but then she takes home some marks because she says i haven't got the right figure. don't cross your feet and don't drag them like that point your toes are not jumping at old. junk they're.

junk. that was not the last you managed to push every other time you were going like this you need to go up. talented children are few and far between that's why we have to make the others do things to the best of their ability want them to be up to the mark so that ballet companies get good dances after graduation fortunately no style that is overlooked in the academy's corridors we make the most weight here.

but you're still at the scene and i have supported diana since she was around $34.00 and. i've trained her throughout the years that she has been here. here regrettably i don't have much hope. that unity for that now is such a talented student is a great joy for the team chair. kind of the local human diena really well every year she progress at this point we have predicted should get to a she's now you know with no no i really don't think. frankly she wasn't doing very well at the time but she had no qualms about it when am i

supposed to do she would show i work on the steps ok that's exactly what i'm going to do she just did it and made progress. and to be delisted if you turned down an offer to done so because you have an injury of some things they want to make that offer again because you end up being blacklisted it's just the road. now of the strain tendon but i keep on letting anyway be a little show because i realise that if i take a break i won't catch up on your bill one time i had to make mince of course i

didn't want the shame of refusing the patents one like anyway i need the injury would still somehow interfere with my dancing regardless. but soon i changed my mind afterwards i can do it i can do it i said and that's why i got laid so we're crazy. you know one time a. i was told to prepare 7 numbers in a short period of time before they were totally different routines she rehearsed them for 4 or 5 hours a day but then she woke up in the morning and saw that her knee had completely swollen up.

so i took all those painkillers and i still danced. just sick and i knew oh hi exxon are you going to show up at tomorrow's rehearsal wasn't it cancelled. please come. ok well. what it seems no one wants to go i think tomorrow was meant to be the one day off into wakes. and now it's his and. of course i'm going to have children family is worse i treasure my stiffle. everybody says that she says that because it's not on her mind right now but if she has to choose between being a prima ballerina and having

a family. but she'll settle for the former. as for me i have the same approach. work will come 1st as long as the outlook is good. i know that if i have a child i won't be able to devote myself completely to the profession i keep trying to convince myself that children can wait but i think about it all the time the touch with my me and. it never occurred to me that what i'm doing might be seen as a desire to build a career you know i have chosen an artistic path of my own my accomplishments are the result of my inner development they give me strength other than perception of life and its purpose i take an earnest view of my development i want to enjoy the process and make sure that this period of my life lasts for as long as it can i

realize that a child would turn my life upside down. ok . boys everyone got sick. and i'm very insecure i used to dream of. being a prima ballerina so i would even the appearance solo part was that they played with the idea of allowing me to dance a really important role but i had a problem with my knee at the time perhaps it's for the best because otherwise i might have never become a teacher. and the 2nd part of life is no less interesting than the 1st one in a different way yes but still. the shoulder blades one to the arm comes back up 3 floor and legs stretching out before they head 123. and 4.

bob on. that on. that. help me get admitted to the school and become a ballet dancer i earned a reputation because of her the she was the 1st to read something in my eyes that prompted her to look after me she has 4 daughters of her own and i guess you can call me her 1st. oh. yeah i've got 5 nice grandchildren all i can say about them is that they're simply fantastic. i only had daughters. but now i have 3 grandsons and 2 granddaughters. watching diane on strange or bring her to sing with her took

a good deal of my time and probably more than i could have spent with my daughter lisa but she never complained she'd probably end to stude what kind of done sedan i was. and lisa was following her own fan. she gave birth to a child recently. she might dance in mind of pads just to breathe the atmosphere of dance she doesn't aspire for more because she's not a lead ballerina about the world that you've been blocking the dancers doing sello pad so prima ballerina is find it very difficult to write an end to that can really is. that they want more of the same which has. to do you still like a grown up artist performing on the big stage you have a golden crown and a picture to you once you have everything. in

your condition i am lucky because there are many turn to incapable dances at the main city theatre is a certain some give up too early and stop short in the development and then cement just not given a chance meeting but then the sometimes you see at the dances that us and you think you knew well i wish i could dance that well. with. can.

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