theatre is so big that's why i want to be a part of it but when i 1st went on stage i thought very scared my heart was pounding the 1st time i performed on the variance the stage. it was. ok everyone has devoted. her her her her. her. her. initial a lot of names on the less than 10 list great you know again shorter for instance

if they put on less or 3 columns of names you'll see about 10 people at last left and that by the end it's. like that sometimes it hurts when you really want to like we have bigger girls who are never chosen for any parts and they usually get upset when the lists are put out they think i hope i'll be there but they aren't the thing is they're not very good candidates to begin with. to go. there's a lot of you still alive billie none of us here ok. training here is a very stressful experience exams and rehearsals are a never ending process evaluations are stressful as well the child is nervous because she doesn't know if a performance is good enough to be accepted. if she is turned down her self-esteem

suffers you have to be very strong mentally and physically to face up to the challenge if you're turned down you don't need to give up on everything. to. stop the norm there are many up and coming dancers in the theater. everybody is given the opportunity to dance. but sometimes some of them have plenty of work. for some people like me there were periods where i had nothing to do until recently. thank you luckily i'm much busier this season.

after her singing and performing some of the parts i'm completely exhausted nobody envious me because they know it's hard. to see that you're almost ready to die. when you leave the corps develop to do so you feel very lonely because some of your

friends have turned away from me but that's the sort of situation that i experienced during the 1st year of my 4th season but now everybody has come around the thought thomas i don said after all. move a little closer to it should be no distance between you take a step towards her and make sure her chest faces this way right up to her. delicately. very often oksana finds herself at the center of some gossip to work with but here but this is only natural because when she suddenly appears in

a solo part after dancing in the corridor ballet for a long time with nobody well everybody starts whispering about her. i think all those rumors are started by many other dancers wanting to take her place. but. the guys are far easier to deal with the general they are better at agreeing on things and just clearing the air. of reason dunces a single minded people think they devote their lives to one cause to work and to. their audience should only see the results of their labor up there on the stage illuminated by the spotlight story which sometimes they'll spend months or maybe years training just to be able to dance a beautiful variation that lasts maybe a couple of minutes. at the end of the day the ballet dancer is totally played out

so much so that he looks more dead than alive and it's no wonder people say that if a ballet dancer doesn't feel pain when he gets up to use. it means he's more or less dead. good goods you want to do a one second you're obviously standing way too close far far too close she's doing the cuckoo and you'll ever hear of course you can catch a here but she ends up over there. my boyfriend is a silo. so you could say we spend all of our time together but there's no rivalry we stimulate each other to improve our performance what they say stuff like why did you let it go and then he says why did you dive into a stretch i can't. bring all this criticism to one another does help us.

i think it upsets him when i do it now he's going to take away. your brain is always about work it never takes a rest we argue a lot because we do need to relax to forget all about our work and switch to other activities but that never happens for instance i might have to dance a new ballets while there's nothing for me to do.

i find it hard to dance on this stage it's true that i always get nervous dancing on other stages because i feel responsible for what i'm doing. but this stage squeezes a good deal of moral and physical strength out of me i don't know why perhaps there's something in its history traditions or the audience that makes performing here is so difficult. distance was. good evening ladies and gentlemen tonight's performance will begin in 20 minutes.

because what you see on stage looks gloriously beautiful and everything seems as it should be but i know it's the result of very hard work and if someone were to ask me whether i'd like to go through all of that again with the knowledge i have now i'd think twice before answering the question. of life. the. tensions between the masses and clauses have existed ever since modern states came into being but often serve as a driver of political change with russian civil society growing larger and louder

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3 of us share a room christina and i come from different cities and the other girls from st petersburg we usually get up at 730 some of us like to get up early or classes begin at 920 sometimes we have 78 or even 9 lessons lasting until 5 30 pm. sometimes we have rehearsals after that then we do our homework so some of us come here to strach others to play the piano.

bench the devil at the store when i was at home i used to have about half an hour to watch t.v. or simply relax but not now i haven't watched t.v. for more than a month maybe even 2 and a half. i rented a room with a co chairing the 1st year. huge during the 1st season i was lucky to get a room all to myself even though you can get 2 people in. 2 people live together in a room like this which. drove the stay away from the still metry. some buildings in some petersburg. and unpleasant energy and i think this is one such building. probably a pretty old after i came to perth to try to enter ballet school as 3 girls out of 80 word misheard. i was the only one situated to finish that school.

was a teacher to me saying lose weight it is what it is true that keeping in shape is quite a challenge i try not to eat anything before going to bed but when i come home after a performance i really want to say all i can afford is a glass of yogurt for going to. it is a big problem for us back home you can eat whatever you want but here you have to be thin sometimes it's hard to hold back yassir allowed to eat more or less what you like but only a small portion of the time if you overdo it you have to exercise i know that sugar and up in the thighs and if you become too fat they kick you out. it's hard for putting him out because everybody is eating fruit and chocolates and drinking juice in front of her she isn't allowed to eat those things it's clear that she's still

a kid and wants everything but she's not allowed to. sell what annoys me most of all is that my teacher charles me that i do very well but then she takes home some marks because she says i haven't got the right figure. don't cross your feet and don't drag them like that point your toes are not jumping at old. junk they're. junk. but now the last you managed to push every other time you were going like this you need to go up. talented children are few and far between that's why we have to make the others do things to the best of their ability we want them to be up to the mark so that ballet companies get good dancers after graduation fortunately no style that is overlooked in the academy is

corridors we make the most weight here. lisa. but you're still there she and i have supported diana since she was around $34.00 and. i've trained her throughout the years that she has been here. here shirt regrettably i don't have much opportunity for that now with such a talented student is a great joy for the teacher. kind

of the local human genome really well every year she progress. we have predicted should get to a she is now you know with those no no i really don't think sarah frankly she wasn't doing very well at the time but she had no qualms about it when am i supposed to do she would ask shall i work on the steps ok that's exactly what i'm going to do she just did it and made progress.

if you turned down an offer to done so because you have an injury of some things they. point to make that offer again you end up being blacklisted. now after a strained tendon but i keep on working anyway. because i realize that if i take a break i won't catch a new blue one time i had to own a ligament of course i didn't want the shame of refusing the patents one like anyway i need the injury would still somehow interfere with my dancing regardless. but soon i changed my mind afterwards i can do it i can do it i said and that's why i got laid that were crazy. you know one time oksana was told to prepare 7 numbers in a short period of time before they were totally different routines she were hearst them for 4 or 5 hours a day but then she woke up in the morning and saw that her knee had completely

swollen up. so i took all those painkillers and i still done just. that just sick and oh how excited are you going to show up at tomorrow's rehearsal wasn't it cancelled. please come. ok i will. think what it seems no one wants to go tomorrow i was meant to be the one day off into wakes. and no it isn't. while.

most cos i'm going to have children. family is worse i treasure my stiffle. everybody says that. she says that too because it's not on her mind right now about me but if she has to choose between being a prima ballerina and having a family. but she'll settle for the former. as for me i have the same approach. work will come 1st as long as the outlook is good. i know that if i have a child i won't be able to devote myself completely to the profession i keep trying to convince myself that children can wait but i think about it all the time the

truth my me and. it never occurred to me that what i'm doing might be seen as a desire to build a career you know i have chosen an artistic path of my own my accomplishments are the result of my inner development they give me strength of the perception of life and its purpose i take an earnest view of my development i want to enjoy the process and make sure that this period of my life lasts for as long as it can be i realize that a child would turn my life upside down. ok once desert that voice everyone got sick. and i'm very insecure i used to dream of being a prima ballerina so i would even the appearance solo part that i played with the idea of allowing me to dance a really important role but i had a problem with my knee at the time perhaps it's for the best because otherwise i might have never become a teacher. and the 2nd part of life is no less interesting than the 1st one in

a different way yes but still. shoulder blades 12. comes back up 3 floor and legs trenching up before they head 123. she and for. bob on. that on. that. help me get admitted to the school and become a ballet dancer i earned a reputation because of her the she was the 1st to read something in my eyes that prompted her to look after me she has 4 daughters of her own and i guess you can call me her. oh. yeah i've got 5 nice

grandchildren all i can say about them is that they're simply fantastic. i only had daughters. but now i have 3 grandsons and 2 granddaughters. watching diana on strange or bring her to sing with her took a good deal of my time and then probably more than i could have spent with my daughter lisa but she never complained she probably and to stude what kind of dance adana was. and lisa was following her room found. she gave birth to a child recently. she might dance in mind of pants just to breathe the atmosphere of dance she doesn't aspire for more because she's not a lead ballerina. but dance is doing solo part so prima ballerina is find

it very difficult to write and then to that really is. they want more of the same. didn't you still like a grown up artist performing on the big stage you have a golden crown and a pink tutu you have everything. you can and i am lucky because there are many turn to incapable dances at the main street there is some give up too early and stop short in the development and cement just not given a chance meeting but then sometimes you see at the dances and you think you knew wow i wish i could dance that well.

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