i think i feel guilty. and it's very probably due to cool for a normal person to go to spain understand you live with that all your life i want to punt and we live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming you know from the wars in then they need to you know for the how do you call it depression when we didn't have. the big things were all the time. and. they would take off you know your butt of your wedding and sometimes i would you know do it to defend to a big toe sometimes to dead. in very good hour auschwitz your living. every moment.

it was really like giving in. and i went to a terrible. i want to. be dangerous says woman was reading is also the door from. doris to beating was. making some break. to break it to be tested if it's strong enough because this was going to read the bombs. you see. determine. how one day. the main assessment. started.

he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. he was beating me pretties boots he was wearing heavy boots. and yours beating me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all bloody blood was gone gushing from all over i really don't know how i mean this is was my worst beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and the really left you it's left the scar a better. you never knew when it will hit you

and still i was managing what is inside to me. now when the wish for anybody to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talking about. that . you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first a war she would be a grandma and how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just

like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in the real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were designee mother what disease you can imagine and they're too warm and what can you tell him. you know used to say well they put this number because you're very good at last found me so find your mama and that's it enclosed.

as older i got in i looked back. and indeed between the lines. that they really held it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about it's an anthology of poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a phone published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia at $32.00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fests i climb the

cherry tree for her this year. and carry a 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she yells at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband own for an overseas sings the song her dead. kid. ringback who you know are you you are not her you are i am.

no your hair looks great. looking. let it snow what is going on. do you gentlemen nation know. the end of the day you know it said do you say there are madam please allow this letter is there i was form no oh you leave your installation. if you have any. do you mean to contact me. it was really shocking point to me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it. but now what this is what i was saying to myself. what's happening now

i have to change gears to what i keep larry. horrible things that i cannot believe in myself sometimes when i close my eyes how is your wires. you know i tell you well. it's always in my mind. when when i. remember whenever you. look down. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even counting you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took a it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take the hate from their hearts and respect you for

speaking with me but i was very very wrong. and this is very difficult. to talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see will go on. and hate to still growing. more than i would. so you go warning you but. in a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. no i was 17 with a life that. was

. a mature prison. and i was not a humble person. again . i mean i spent a lot of my life not really. contributing much other than. carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just thought you know i'm going to be a prison guy. is for sure in your. songs as you never know who you're going to be is going to change your life. would shape or form they're going to come here.

mining will see what i do for me. i am to yourself. and i mean for in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within and. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more needs that means a little more than a year. it drops to 8. percent.

there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within their very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of. the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if we just believe things are going to be alright that. it's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i. and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the

prisoners and the optimists creed i have to bring them together. well it's finally begun the impeachment of donald j. trump the president and his supporters say the process is nothing more than a political witch the democrats in the liberal corporate media say trump is a national security threat and must be removed but in the end it would seem democracy itself is being impeached. the minute the news in miami. was made to about the day time about what members of us anytime that were innocent as a bomb was a moron about. what when in the morning

the fulfillment of. the scene that i'm going to get but i'm before put a card on the for him but i. did not by now i'm by the imam obama. america's build a prison called the wall and it's the prison is the right and runs the prison and the cost of building that prison is 0 because it's all based on everyone in the world is still willing to accept dollars trade in dollars clear through the new york fed and worship the us dollar wherever you go you'll find a.t.m.'s in countries where as the local currency and dollars right dollar is god no matter what religion you say you are around the world the fact is you pray to the us dollar every day.

american no oh shit its was really like to be in the mail. goes he would never. believe it wasn't a human can do to have as. one day that i was working in the fields one date and can't come said with. the ashes we're spreading the ashes as a fairy tale eyes are and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their soul i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldn't be sure completely and this was a very difficult to me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. pity parties.

to exterminate through race. maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by her making me a mole now i can make it i can make it out. of a member of. this numbers on my server she told him no more. when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person your. experience is everything. only takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean

there's some people who go on do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think things will get better for. and when you say oh. but you look at her as you see. things are good for her them i give you the. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't know. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so rude there seems forgiveness what i see in people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who passed about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i know this has to come from a higher place for

a lot different place but forgiveness should be picked. to put to loath in your heart. you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so. hopefully i'll be. you know try me something. every time that's what i had around. i hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to displace even like i say still now the war stay all that dimension to you. there's. a way thank you so wonderful there you go as you do to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of

being here makes me want. to get out of here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. seriously. if you make out. that you when i get out on the farm saw you know what is there an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be blessed while i've. heard this. story. because i believe he's dead bob in course we're 30 years and nothing can be compared with it at all is what your mother both of their stammer by it would kill me in just a moment the pride was near. there's no regard to feel. she's

still alive to offer higher. or even a serious. place where you come back into the day. where you are keeping your notes you know that. if i might make it. through all the strong things don't come. with us you can be very small where the extremes. in the winter of 1944 was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the notorious

for going bills in debt. and this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves. in their families and so i feel an obligation. and it's an obligation that. had to do. and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged to know. that i can do this you know i mean to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. i wish that he. had enough. when he was.

if. you and i are speaking on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very set it was a happy day. to . people could hear the prisoners could hear the vibrating hear. coming closer and closer they knew this was liberation. of course they were starving.

for my mother was working. there were still a couple of guards around in their cars trying to stop them as. the bullets came right. hear that sentiment down from my house when it came to that as a close. and then 2 as it girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. at the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. so this was a terrible experience just to see did you. after much

trauma. made it. she survived years in a general event tests. that did the spoke. of writing.

it is. literally. an era when it's all so. and the past summer is. coming they're telling their friends about. it. so you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make it she. said i thought that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just.

so my name is caroline kennedy. is a city and i just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story lead changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had

an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. you know world's big partners through law and conspiracy it's time to wake up to dig deeper to hit the stories that made stream media refuses to tell more than ever we need to be smart we need to stop slamming the door. and shouting past each other it's time for critical thinking it's time to fight for the middle for the

truth the time is now we're watching closely watching the hawks. on a space flight you literally leave all your problems behind you fly high and above everyone and everything and then you see any and all borderlines on earth disappear you see that up planet is not as we're taught in schools with different countries marked in different colors separate from one another you see that our planet earth is just another albeit bigger international space station on a mission in the vastness of space just like the i assess. descriptions sound even for the owners so how to choose this pet food industry is telling us what to feed our pets really more based on what they want to sell us necessarily good for the pet turns out that food may not be the best people belief

we have animals that have you know diabetes in arthritis they have auto immune disorders allergies we are actually creating these problems it's a huge epidemic of problems all of them i believe can be linked to very simple problem of diet and some dog owners so heartbreaking stories. about their pets streets the larger corporations are not very interested in proving or disproving the value of their food because they're already making a good $1000000000.00 on it and there's no reason to do that research. i. i.

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