they put themselves on a lot. to get accepted or rejected. so if you want to be president. or something want to be upset. what's it like to be for us this is what the 43 a boy did people get. interested holes in the waters of. this ship. when i came out from this sale i really could not even shield heppy ever and sometimes even people were joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very probably difficult for a normal person to get a spin on the stand you live with that all your life i want to punt to that we will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming you know from the wars in then knowledge finally they need to mend you know for the how

do you call it depression we didn't have to tell. the beatings were all the time gone. and. they would take off you know where you are but never your wedding and sometimes i would you know do it to diffident way. to go sometimes to the dead. in very good hour auschwitz you are living. every moment. with fear. it was a really like leaving in hell. that i went to a terrible to begin i want to well be dangerous says woman was leading is also the door from that.

doris the beating was. making some braids in each break had to be tested to be fixed on the knob because this was going to wrap the bombs. you see. gentlemen. so one day. the main assessment from our streets. and he started. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me. he was wearing heavy boots. in yours bidding me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below

the. blog was gone home gushing from all over i really don't know how i made did this is was my morris beating. and the girls couldn't believe that. people don't know when they look at you and they're really insights left you it's left a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there.

and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talking about. it . but. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first a war she would be a grandma and how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in real moser's love and i missed it. you know it's hard

for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and they were designee mother what disease you can imagine and they're too warm and what can you tell it in a used to say well they put this number because you're very good at last found me go find your mama and that's it enclosed. as older i got in i looked bad. and indeed between the lines. that they really held it.

so this is something i'd completely forgotten about it's an anthology of poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called sonia at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia at $32.00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry a 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she

cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. kid ringback. how did he how do you know are you you are never here you are. here well no your hair looks good. yes now what is going on. i mean to read to you jeremy nation open up your

own sick fancy air and pronounce of the day you know it says do sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions. or contact me. it was really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it dated. about now well this is what i was saying to me sarah they saw me at what's happening now i have to change to. keep larry are sort of. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my eyes how i survived. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my

mind. when i. used to tell me no member when i know you are down. you know good moredock. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. big talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we have

gone bet awards and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you. in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. i'll start our lives. every day with a life that. was . a mature prison. and i was not a humble person. process. a

lot of my life not really. contributing much. carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i'm just going to be a prison guy. is for turning your back. so you never know who you're going to be is going to change your line. would shape or form you're going to come here. by me will see what i mean for me. i am all to yourself. and

i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more meetings that means that a little more than 8 there. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be alright

that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and. reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i. and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the have to miscreate i have to bring them together.

just need. to keep the salon or smear the focus on domestic use that. what. you see is just because. most with nobody. really believe. you're. not. insane yet in that. the little. just one magic bullet you could actually come up with something to top with his baby bond talking about ways we get access to capital and capitalism couples

important so we could actually have programs that actually help folks who want to do that but when you give everybody a $1000.00 i'm a poor person i'm going to consume that and if you're rich you're going to invest that equity the wealth the spirit is going to grow because you're not using your money to do it can so you're literally buy more crazy things and then my landlord knowing that i got a $1000.00 and you just go raise my rent so then you get your inflation going on in there. maybe you can know it was really like to be in hell. because he would never believe it once again due to as. one day that i was walking in to fields on a date and can't come said it from the come out to the s.s.

. we're spreading this as a fairy tale eyes are and i can tell you based spreading those you know with us so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could i'm a tortilla it couldn't bore completely and this was very difficult to me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. pity parties. to exterminate through race. maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and the now i can make it i can make it out. so you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server she told a number are. there when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this

understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look over you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you. experience is everything. i me you takes people who've been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean is some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think they will get better for. and when you say oh. you look at her as you see. things are good for her now them i give you the courage to say you know. i'm not going do what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i. i came to the conclusion myself there

are so low there seem forgiveness what i see in people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who passed about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. too poor to loath in your heart. you become like a different person i see the parole board in the 6 months or so. hopefully i'll be . contributing something. every time some of that are out. i hope that all of

you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place even like i say still now the war stay all that dimension to you. there's. a way thank you so wonderful there you go as you do to us not only me but one of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out of here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. there is no way. you make out. when i get out on the farm so you know. this and hopefully

be blessed wow. heard this. story. because i believe that bob did a course where 33 years and never. heard of it at all is what your mother both of their story of your life are born who were killed means is no more the bride was there. there's no regard to feel. she's still alive to offer higher. or even the syrian military. personal. place where you come back into the day. of your life or to your notes you know. if i might make it to. you know the strong things don't come. with us you

can be very small for the extreme for all. seen. in the winter of 1944 my mom was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills in debt. and this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. there relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel

privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. i wish that he. had enough. when he will. if. you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very said it was a had they. assumed

it to. people could hear the prisoners could hear him feel that vibrating they did hear tanks coming closer and closer they knew this was a liberation. so of course they were starving. kids area where my mother was working. there were still a couple of guards around in the cars for trying to stop them as. the bullets came in right here and send them into my house and it came through. clothes from my lungs. and then girls with this from the same wallet where.

i was the most. serious. the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. so this was a terrible experience just to see david you. made it.

she said 5 years. off the spill. describing. it in. literally. any era when it's up. and. coming they're telling their friends about. it. that's my money.

so you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make a change. and i thought that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just talking. so my name is caroline kennedy. is a city and i just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story at least changed my life and completely changed my outlook on

what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of us now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future.

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