see that. when i came out from this hell i really could not even shield heppy ever and sometimes even people were joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very difficult for a normal person to get a spin understand you live with that all your life i want to ponder that we will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming you know from the wars in then knowledge finally they need to mend you know for the how do you call it depression when we didn't have to tell.

the beatings were all the time we go on. and. they would take off you know your butt of your wearing and sometimes i would you know do it to a different way. to or sometimes to dead. in a very good hour auschwitz your living. every moment. with . it was a really like giving in hell. that went to a terrible too big. to. be dangerous as women was getting is all strong that don't front. doors to beating was. we were making some breaks in each

break had to be tested if it's strong enough because this was going to grab the bombs. you see. the german. one day. the main assessment from our streets. started to test those but. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me pretty his boots he was wearing heavy boots. in yours bidding me up from top to bottom. lens a left i was all below the. block was gone home and gushing from all over i really

don't know how i make this as was my morris beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and the really incites left you it's left a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know wait wait. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and the sophist i'm talking about.

that's right. but. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first award she would be going to. how happy she would be and then leading me in what a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in the real moser's love and i missed it. you know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept

a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were days me mother what disease you can imagine and they're too warm and what can you tell it. and i used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your mamma and that's it enclosed. as older i got. and i looked back. and reading between the lines. that they really held it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the

poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you . i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little

son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. kid. you know you are now here you are. now your hair looks. nothing. else now what is going on. i mean to read it to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce it a you know it says dear sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as

formal notice of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions feel free to contact me. it was really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it dented. about now well this is what i was saying to me sarah they saw me at what's happening now i have to. keep larry was sort of. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close and. i ways arranged. you know i tell you one thing to the. it's always in my mind. when i. used to tell me no member when only you darling. no camorra down.

how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is very. good to talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're going back towards the hate to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you but.

in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. i'll start an ally for. us every day with a life of. ours . in which sure. i was not a humble person. a lot of my life not really. contributing much.

yeah carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just you know i'm going to be a prison guy. is for sure in your. songs you never know who you're going to be is going to change your life. would shape or form you're going to come here. i mean will see what i mean for me. i am all to yourself. and i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within and. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of

all of the men and women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said a little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and. reading a newspaper about the closing of

a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall so we'll see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i can and i thought to myself. and the optimist create the prisoners and the optimist creed i have to bring them together. as a nation for beach. for the for. the

trip of. nature mom up. there to try to. do this because of global what was going to have to eat so that you know what i would. do is give us a couple to play the bicycle to school to float. in your. book about. the love. of schmaltz because. the world is driven by dreamers shaped by the person with.

the jerry thinks. we dare to ask. america no it was really like to be in hell. because you would never believe it wasn't a human can do to as. one day that i was working in the fields one date and can't come said with a problem the come out the ashes will are spreading the ashes i was a fairy tale eyes are and i can't tell you may spreading those you know with their soul i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldn't completely and this was very difficult to me till today i still live with

this save me a kick in the. can this is your opinion parties. to exterminate through race. this is maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by her making me a mole now i can make it i can make it out. she got a number of. these numbers on my server she told a number are. they want to see. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding. it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. an experience is everything. to me it takes people who have been

through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean as some people who go on do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think the days will get better from. and when you say oh. and you look at her as you see. things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so rude there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say

that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. to put do love in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and. hopefully i'll be . you know contribute something. every time it's not around. i hope it's all of you in time. well being freed but enough to don't never to come back to this place even like i say still mad the war stay all that i've mentioned to you and there's. a way thank you so wonderful come here goes do you trust not only me but

a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. make out. that. when i get out on the 5 i'm sol you know was there an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be bless. her experience. straight up because i believe he's dead bob did a course free 32 years and nothing to be compared with it at all is watching your mother both of yesteryear like it would kill me just how much the bride was in

here. this will be hard to feel. she's a lot tougher by. the. way and seriously so you. were serious. there coming into the day. while you are getting your message know that. if i'm right you will make it do. you know the strong things don't come. with us you can be. very small. dreams.

in the winter 944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation. and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. and i wish that he.

had enough. when he was. you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very. it was a hit the day. did they do that is that it was an instant. case here or is there still a fear with reality vibrating here is coming closer and closer they either

liberation. of course they were starting a relief pitcher. or like that it was for. their words a lot of. cards that were. in the cards for trying to stop the. shooting. the bullets came in. and it came through that. close. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. was the most serious. at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blotto start coming and i knew. this was a terrible experience just to see they have to do that. after so much

trauma. but i made it. easy. she survives hears them all and they can't stand up to me else she said they did often spoke to me to try things blew. a little.

endian at least. a. little bit and a little. at least i am so glad to let. you do it me to. literally. i mean there are limits on all sides. and the past summers behind them coming they're telling their friends about . it. that's my belief. so you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make a change. and

i thought that it was important that i actually density thing instead of just touch me. so my name is caroline kennedy kansas city and just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story lead changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. and that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and it's

a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now even so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. when those truths seem wrong. when old rules just don't hold. any you get to shape out these days comes to educate and in detroit it equals betrayal.

when so many find themselves worlds apart we choose to look for common ground. blushes and thank you to the chico to more from the beach at the home team your he said it's not that it's in detention since that only shooting against. the. beautiful to build it myself included. a is a that i was going to have in the scheme. or. even. given it was through the such is are still to come forth from the.

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