started to test those but. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me pretty as boots he was wearing heavy boots. and yours beating me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below the. blog was gone gushing from all over i really don't know me this is was my. beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and the really insights left you it's left a scar a better. you never knew when it will hit you

and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know wave away. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talking about. it . but. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mum. 1st the

war she would be a grandma and how happy she would be and then leading me what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described the real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were designee mother what disease you can imagine and there are 2 moment what can you tell it. and i used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your

mama and that's it enclosed. as older i got. and i looked back. and reading between the lines. that they really held it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the

cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. kid.

you know you are now here you are. now your hair looks. best now what is going on. i mean to read to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce of the day you know it says dear sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your. cancellation. if you have any questions feel free to contact me. it was really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it

dented. but now well this is what i was saying to me sara they saw me at what's happening now i have to. keep larry was sort of. horrible things that i cannot believe in myself sometimes when a close. i ways arranged. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when i. used to tell me no member when i know you are down. more down you'll be on top. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people

will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for joy as a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. good talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're going back wards and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you but. in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not to know.

how to live. 17 with a life of. ours . in a mature prison. i was not a humble person. you. process. a lot of my life not really. contributing much other than. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just. be a prison guy. is for sure. you never know who you're going to be is going to change your life.

would shape or form you're going to come here. and. find me more and see where i'm free. i am to yourself and i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent.

there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern. the optimist creed we finish with every night and through every group we finish with we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be alright that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center. there and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists created and when i come in every

morning that's the 1st thing that i care and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the optimist creed i have to bring them together. each simulating civilization will be able to write using a tiny fraction of its resources. hundreds of thousands millions of runs through all of human history almost all. beings with our kinds of experiences we're going to simulate that once rather the minute it wants a conditional that arguably should think we're full of it one of the simulated ones .

blushes and thank you to the cheek a daughter who was on the beach he cut a hole close to each seam your he said it's not that it's indeed some chances but always shifting against. you to. be useful to build in a circle you get it there you go a little bit over. the mountain have been. given a spot to do the search go down the t. come. summed up. the money i took of the british mr west imo sure but just.

a friendly super cool porsche with all the little tractor and news new york at the sun internet system will ensure us with a cheat a quick look you feel and i missed these full bore for the program or not and i do it was made before push my will officially for us so foolish are going to kill us no. systems. yes. trade and investment to become magic spells to conjure economic development. most

people think about trade they think about goods and services being exchanged between countries at the end fast chopped or a trade agreement is about something very different but what when investment leads to toxic manufacturing that destroys secret sites all ruins the environment. that means if local communities that are being poisoned if they object if they do anything that the company feels is interrupting their profits they can do so now multinationals are taking on the whole nations philip morris is trying to use i.s.t.'s to stop oracle by implementing. tobacco regulations aimed at cutting domestic smoking rates a french company sued egypt because egypt received minimum wage democratic choice of a trump corporate law joining us as we try to find out what authority. the

. american know was really like to be inhaled. because he would never believe it what a human can do to have as. one day that i was working in to fields one day and here comes the rock with the problem the government already had the ashes were spreading the ashes i was a fertilizer and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their soul i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldn't bore completely and this was a very difficult on me until today i still live with this. kick in.

and this is your opinion parties in. the exterminate through race. this is mainly that injury was when he was beating me up in byron making me a mole now i can make it i can make it out. seger i remember. these numbers on my server they told an hour or. 2 when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody why do we have to come to this understanding it is what you aren't. insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. experience is everything. to me takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean is

some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think things will get better from. and when you say oh. you look at her as you see. things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so many there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say

that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot of different place but forgiveness should be practiced. to put do love in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and. hopefully i'll be . you know contribute something. return some of that around. i hope that all of you in time will be in freedom. but enough it don't never to come back to displace either and like i say still mad the war stayed all that i've mentioned to you and there's. a way thank you so wonderful there you go did you not only me but a lot of these guys in here but you've given me more strength after 32 years of

being here makes me want. to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. make out. when i get out on the farm saw you know was there an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be bless. her experience. straight up because i believe he's dead bob did a course free 32 years and nothing to be compared with it at all this was your mother both of yesteryear right it would kill me just how much the dr was in here. this i don't think i could feel. she's still alive to offer

hi. lisa you. were serious. there coming into the day. while you are getting your message know that. if i'm right you will make it. as you know the strong things don't come. back yes you can be very small. you know when you're 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. this brings

us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp. and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. i wish that he. had enough. when he was.

you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very. it was ahead they. are . did they do that is that it was leased and if. it is here or is there still fear of the railroad vibrating here it is coming closer and closer they either have a ration. of course they were starting to see if it gets to the

area where my mother was or. there were still. guards that were. in the cars trying to stop the. shooting. the bullets came. and it came through that. close. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blocked will start coming. home and i'm dying. so this was a terrible experience just to see they have to do that. after so much

trauma. but i made it. she survived years in the demo and they can't stand up to. me and they did off the spoke to me the strivings believe. little.

endian at least. a. little bit and there it is. at least i am so glad to let. you do it me to. literally and i mean there are limits on all sides. and the last summer's. coming they're telling their friends about. it. that's my mood. so you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make sure. that i thought that it was important that i actually density thing instead of just

talking. so my name is caroline kennedy my own chance to say be. just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and its 1st story lead changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. and that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has the power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school to

have an impact on all of you now even so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. people. everything of collapsing against the bone. so how long will that last probably not a long time because. as we've seen during brain woods or through the plaza toward of the 1980 s. there's going to have to be a global coordinated sit down to rearrange the global 4 x. market rearrange the global currency grid and the dollar is not the thing we're going to have to match against because that runaway balli with the dollar is what's

causing this deflation and that's what's causing the global depression part to. seem wrong. just don't hold. any of these yet to shape out these days comes out to. and indeed equals betrayal. when so many find themselves worlds apart we choose to look for common ground. so she and i as a nation are subject to shopping to get some investors to put on. as a little she's a mug for for you've got bored of the trip jumpers for richer my p.s.p.

i didn't do enough to trade a bitch. i was. upset. it was because of global was going to have to close to the incident you know why would you just give us have the displeasure of us moving the focus of the funding you're fighting with the full force and half. of the west coast approaches and that's 4 to 6 months because in the south.

and you hospital for coronavirus patients is being built on the outskirts of moscow was rushed to implement strict measures to halt the spread of the. checks out the level of panic in russian supermarkets judging by the amount of sweets next to me one thing going to be said with sudden children are definitely not prime making and can be an example to a school. in the u.s. several states announced that they postponed primaries to contain the coronavirus spread with the democratic national committee warning of possible penalties. as coded 19 aggressively spreads across the u.k. and she was racially abused while on her way to work. these.