you are living. every moment. with fear. it was really like living in ohio. and i went to a terrible too big i want to. be doing because says woman was leading is also strong the 2 front teeth knocked out. doors to beating cause. we were making some break we need to break had to be tested to be fixed on them because this was going to read the bombs . you see. the gentleman. one day. the main assessment from our streets. and he

started to. break. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me. he was wearing heavy boots. and yours bidding me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below the. blog was gong gushing from all over i really don't know how i make good stitches was my morris beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and the really incites left you it's left a scar a bet it dips. mean. you never knew when it will hit you

and still i was managing what is inside to me. you know no wish for anybody to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this if i'm talking about. it . that. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first the

war she would be going to. how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in the real mother's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there are some things that i i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they so might not and they would ask me mamma what is the you can imagine and they're too warm and what can you tell it. you know used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your

mama and that's it enclosed. i was older i got. and i looked back. and it is between the lines. that they really felt it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about it's an anthology of poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a phone published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you . i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the

cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she owns at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about the. this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband all for an overseas sings the song. we were.

you know you are now here you are. now your hair looks great. and looking great. now what is going on. i mean to read it to you jeremy nation open up your. pronounce the day you know it says do or say or or madam please allow this letter to sarah. form. of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions to contact me. it was really shocking point to me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it

down to. about now what this is what i was saying to me said they saw me at what's happening now i have to change gears to. keep larry. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close. eye ways to wage. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when i used to. then remember whenever you are dollar. moredock you. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people

will literally take the hate from their hearts and respect you for a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. big talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we have gone back. and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you. in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. i'll start our lives. every day with

a life that. was . a mature prison. and i was not a humble person. process. out of my life not really. contributing much other than. carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just you know with me a present i. feel. really is for sure. you never know who you're going to be is going to change your life.

would shape or form you're going to come here. and. my name will see what i do for all. i am all to yourself. and i mean in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you are 10 between 16 more meetings at me and said little more than a there. it drops to 8 percent.

there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with it every night and through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if we just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimist creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i

. and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the up to miscreate i have to bring them together. each simulating civilization would be able to run using a tiny fraction of its resources. hundreds of thousands millions of runs through all of human history almost all. beings with our kinds of experiences with them to simulated ones rather than none simulated ones conditional in that arguably should think we're probably one of the simulated ones.

so sure and i was initially subject to b.s. from investors. i say these amount of credit for the forward who tried to improve their nature monopolies. never to try to. do this because of global was going to have to close to this needs of the day you know why would you. have looked like a bunch of movies in this part of the family and you're fighting. over there to have. a little left coast approach out of astrophysics much of it isn't the sound.

there you go no i was really like to be in hell. because he would never believe that what a human can do to have as. one day that i was working in to fields one date and can't come said with. the ashes we're spreading the ashes as a fairy to light and i can tell you based spreading those you know with their soul i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldn't completely and this was a very difficult to me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. pity parties. to exterminate through race. maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by her making me

a mole now i can make it i can make it out. she gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server she told him no wrong. when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look all over you know what is your religion but as a person what a person your. experience is everything. only takes people who've been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean if some people who go on do crazy. things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think things will get better for. him when you say oh.

if you look at her as you see. things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to conclusion myself there are so low there seems forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be picked is. to put to loath in your heart try to help you become like

a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so. hopefully i'll be. you know contributed something. every time it's not around. i hope it's all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place even like i say it's still not the war stay all that dimension to you and. there's . a way thank you so difficult because you do to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out. so i persued you coming here thank you i really really.

make out. that. when i get out on the 5 i'm sorry you know. so i had an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be bless. her experience. straight up because i believe he's dead bob in course very 32 years and nothing. compared to that at all is watching your mother both her airstream i would it would kill me in just a moment the bride was here. this week i could. see a lot over by. the

end seriously so you. were standing. there. they. weren't sure how you are getting your message all that. is i'm. sure no strong things don't come. with us you can be very small. streams. in the winter of 1944 was forced on the desk my friend auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking

about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation. and it's an obligation that. had to do you know and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me. it means to me there and i wish that my father. and i wish that he. had enough. when he was. if. you and i are speaking

on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very. it was a happy day. to . people because here the prisoners get here. vibrating here. coming closer and closer the liberation. of course they were starving. it's. more like that it was for. there were. guards that were. trying to stop the. shooting.

the bullets came. from my house and it came through that. close. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. and at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blocked will start coming and i knew. this was a terrible experience just to see to do that. but i made it.

she survived years in an. office pool. thriving. then there is.

literally peace in there when the sun sun. and the past summer's. coming they're telling their friends about. let's move. so you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make it she. felt that it was important that actually density thing instead of just talking.

so my name is caroline kennedy. to say be. just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story lead changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has the power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school i had none. and so maybe coming to your school in impact on other people.

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