so for the sure going to get us feel. good i feel so sorry. when i came out from this hell i really could not even shiel happy ever and sometimes even people were joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very probably difficult for a normal person to crisp and understand you live with that all your life i want to ponder that you will live with it we did not receive help like now when our

boys are coming you know from the wars in then finally they need to mend you know for the how do you call it depression we didn't have to tell. the big things were all a time bomb. and. they would take off you know your but ever your wearing and sometimes i would you know do it to a different way big joe torre sometimes the dead. in very good hour auschwitz you are living. every moment. with fear. it was a really like giving in hell. that went to a terrible toll i want to know one bidding process woman was getting is all strong that don't front that doubt.

doris the beating was. making some break. each great had to be tested to be fixed on the knob because this was going to grab the bombs. you see. gentlemen. so one day. the main assessment from our streets. started. but. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me. it was wearing heavy boots. and yours bidding me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below

the. blog was gone home gushing from all over i really don't know how i make this this was my worst beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and the really incites left you it's left a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there.

and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is. about. it . that. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first a war she would be a grandmother and how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in the real moser's love and i missed it. you know it's hard

for me to know call eve day ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were days when mother what disease you can imagine and they're too moment what can you tell it. and i used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your mama and that's it enclosed. i was older i got. and i looked back. and reading between the lines. that they really held it.

so this is something i'd completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry a 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against

a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is or. little son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. kid. well. 6 you know you are now here you are. now your hair looks.

alone. now what is going on. i mean to read it to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce of the day you know it says dear sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions feel free to contact me. it was really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it dented. about now well this is what i was saying to me sarah they saw me at what's happening now i have to. keep larry was sort of. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my eyes how is

your way. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when i. used to tell me no member when only you darling. you know good moredock. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respect you for the human mean but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. good talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're

going back. and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you but. in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. i'll start an ally for. us every day where the life. was. in a mature prison. and i was not a humble person. process.

a lot of my life not really. contributing much. carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just you know i'm going to be a prison guy. is for sure. you never know who you're going to be is going to change your life. would shape or form you're going to come here. and. my name will see what i mean for me. i am all to yourself. and

i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within and. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said a little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least

a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee. in reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimist creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i . and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the up to miscreate i have to bring them together.

the world is driven by a dream shaped by one person. who . thinks. we dare to ask. every single elapsing against the phone. so how long will it last probably not a long time because. as we've seen during brain woods or through the plaza toward of the 1980 s. there's going to have to be a global coordinated sit down to rearrange the global 4 x. market rearrange the global currency grid and the dollar is not the thing they're

going to have to match against because of that runaway balli when the dollar is what's causing this deflation and that's what's causing the depression part. american know it was really like to be in the. close you would never believe that. a human can do to as. well they that i was walking in to field sunday and can come said with. the ashes we were spreading the ashes was a fertilizer and i can tell you a spreading those you know with this so i could see the little pieces so bones

which even indicate i'm a tortilla it couldn't be completely and this is. very difficult to me until today i still live with this save me i kick in. and this is your opinion parties. to exterminate your group race. maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and the now i can make it i can make it out. so you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server they sold a number are. they when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what

a person you are. experience is everything. to me it takes people who've been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean there's some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think the days will get better for. and when you say oh. you look at her as you see. things are good for her now them i give you the courage to say you know. i'm not going do what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so many there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who

has. about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i put if you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be picked is. to put do love in your heart. you become like a different person i see the parole board in the 6 months or so and. hopefully i'll be. you know contribute something. and. return to that or out. i hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the free don't never to come back to displace either and like i say still mad to war stay all that dimension to you and. there's

. a way thank you so wonderful come here goes due to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. there is no way. you may go. thank you when i get out on the farm saw you know was there an excuse so he can this in and hopefully be bless. her experience. straight up because i believe he's dead bob did a course where he was 32 years and nothing to be compared with it at all this

was your. most of those who are there stream are right it would kill me just more the driving force in here. there's a pretty good. she's still alive to offer. it's. even a serious military. person. truth place where you come back in. the day your. words are in your notes you know. if i might make it to. you know the strong things don't go. with us you can be very small for the dream before.

you know when you're 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and death. and this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged to. and i can do this you know it means to me. and.

it means to me. there and i wish that my father. i wish that he. had enough to enter it sed when he will. if. you and i are speaking on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very set it was a heavy they. assumed it to. reach. people could

hear the prisoners get here and feel the vibrating to hear tanks coming closer and closer they knew this was liberation. so of course they were starting to see. where my mother was working. there were still a couple of guards around in the cars trying to stop them as. the bullets came in right here and it send them into my house and it came through. from. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming.

so this was a terrible experience just to see did you. made it. she survived years. pass and. did the

spill. is rightly. getting. literally. in the air when it's also. coming they're telling their friends about. it. so you know obviously facts a lot of people when she talks to people they say they want to do something about

it and they want to make it she. felt that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just talking. so my name is caroline kennedy. the city. just graduated from my school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to

impact one person has a power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now in so maybe coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. everything of collapsing against the dollar. so how long will it last probably not a long time because. as we've seen during brant woods or through the plaza accord

of the 1980 s. there's going to have to be a global coordinated sit down to rearrange the global 4 x. market rearrange the global currency grid and then the dollar is not the thing we're going to have to match against because that runaway balli when the dollar is what's causing this deflation and that's what's causing the global depression hard to. rush something to the cheek a total more than the beach he cut the hole goes through team you'll be set its chance that's not always shifting against. the utility bills you know he said. you needed. a little bit i was going to

have. to show. respect to the south korean his risto. i'm cool with. that you called the british mr bush time imo sure.

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