dares thinks. we dare to ask. when i came out from this hell i really could not even feel happy ever and sometime soon people were joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very probably do too cool for a normal person to go to spain understand you live with that all your life i want to punt and you will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming you know from the wars in then they need to you know for the how do you call it depression we didn't have.

the big things were all the time. and. they would take off you know where you are but never your wedding and sometimes i would you know do it to diffident way. too sometimes to dead. in a very good hour auschwitz your living. every moment. which . it was really like leaving. that went to a terrible too big. to. be dangerous as women was leading is also the door from. doris to beating was. making some break. to

break it to be tested to be fixed on them because this was going to read the bombs . you see. them and. so one day. the main assessment from our streets. and be. started. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to as. he was beating me. it was wearing heavy boots. and yours beating me up from top to bottom when they left i was all bloody blog was gone gushing from all over i really don't know me this is was my worst beating.

and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and they're really left you it's left a scar a better. you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. now when the wish for anybody to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talking about. that

. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mother. first she would be going to how happy she would be and then leading me in the what do. do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really

tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they so might not and they would as we must know what is days you can imagine and there are 2 moment which can you tell it. you know used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your mamma and that's it enclosed. as older i got. and i looked back. and it is between the lines. that they really felt it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about it's an anthology of poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having upon published it but

until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she owns at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about the. and that about the little man who is her son little

son. who is her husband all for an overseas sings the song. we want to. know you are now here you are. now your hair looks. and looking great. now what is going on. i mean to read it to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce it a you know it says do sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as form.

of your. installation. if you have any. need to contact me. it was really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it down to. about now well this is what i was saying to me said they saw me at what's happening now i have to. keep larry was to. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close. i ways to arrange. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when. you still. and remember

whenever you are dollar. you look more down. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and respect you for the human mean but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. good talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're going back. and paid to still growing.

more than i ever would. so you go warning you but. in a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. us every day with a life of. ours . in which sure. i was not a humble person. my life not really. contributing much on the.

carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just. me a present guy. is for sure. you never know who you're going to be is going to change your line. would shape or form you're going to come here. and. i mean will see what i mean for all. i am all to yourself. and i mean that in a program and all that kansas presents called reaching out from within. the

national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you are 10 between 16 more meetings at me and said little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night and through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if we just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am

having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimist creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i can and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the up to his creed i have to bring them together.

and i mean i'm on this one entire history month long way to go through a suit because somebody could solve mukti of our. plans in this way got to go out so hard not to think of the mother disappeared this woman the work of the day i was and i don't miss donnithorne if. this is the only thing that we do is music because everybody fights in his room waiting. on. the floor to confirm the fee found this monstrous woody

allen you have called the evil adults who couldn't help. but i think it is this is the fans that is a constant. american know it was really like to be in hell. because he would never believe it what a human can do to have as. one day that i was working in to fields one date and can't come said rock with from. the ashes we're spreading the ashes was a fairy tale isaac and i can tell you they spreading those you know with their soul

i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldn't be completely and this was very difficult to me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. pity parties. to exterminate through race. maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by her making me a mole now i can make it i can make it out. so you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server. tomorrow are. they when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somehow i like the story we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as

a person what a person your. experience is everything. only you takes people who've been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean this . people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think they will get better for. it when you say oh. if you look at her as you see. things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't. know if i forgive. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so low there seems forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him

burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. to put to loath in your heart. you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and. hopefully i'll be . you know contribute something. every time it's not around. i hope it's all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place

even like i say it's still not the war stay all that it mentioned to you. there's. i want to thank you so difficult because you do to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me. to get out here so i persued to go meet her thank you i really really. make out. that. when i get out on the 5. 100 an excuse so he can listen and hopefully he bless. her experience this. story. because i believe he's dead

obviating course we're 32 years and nothing. compared to that at all is watching your mother both of yesterday and. it would kill me in just a moment the bride was here. this regard to. see the lotto for my. seriously so you. were serious. they. weren't sure how you are keeping your nose so that. if i might make it to. you know the strong things don't come. to us you can be very small by the extreme.

you know when you're 1944 my mom was forced on the desk my friend auschwitz to the notorious for going bills into. and this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp. and what happened between her and then this is scarred on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation. and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me.

and it means to me there and i wish that my father. i wish that he. had enough. when he was. if. you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very. it was a had they. did it to. people to

hear the prisoners to hear feel vibrating to hear. coming closer and closer they need liberation. of course they were. starting a. war like that it was for. there were. guards that were. in the cars and stuff that. the bullets came. from my house and it came through. clothes from and. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. and at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blocked will start coming.

and i'm dying. so this was a terrible experience just to see they have to do that. after much trauma. but i made it.

she said 5 years in a general event tests. that did the spill. driving. you know most of them. told. me to. literally paste in their windows on the sun. and the last summer's. coming they're telling their friends about. it. so you know obviously facts

a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make it she. felt that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just touching. my name is caroline kennedy. to say be. just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story lead changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this

organization. and that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming. my school had an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming tears school will have an impact on other people in the future. i.

think it. could be part of the book to. come. to you to shave a little says you do so you can hold. that job up on. the cinema will ensure that all the stuff the film takes care this was not fake stick figure if you would think feel guilty but you will know it's. more. or less stiff. with the printed music. thankfully. and i know this. is a sheet which is just put up a little. extra. $54.00

jobs and more than $1300.00 military personnel. are headed to air force base in alaska where is that to say come on i'll show you what's the reason for any type of enhanced u.s. military presence in this area rush up. what is it suddenly about the south china sea that makes it so that it 11000000000 barrels of oil. take a look at this map who really owns what kind of says no it belongs to us india says no we claim that that belongs to us both of these countries have nuclear weapons capabilities there is reason for concern so that's why we're going to drill down on this story for you today right here on the news with rick sanchez where you know as

we always like to say we do believe by golly it's time to do news again. becomes very slow. so we'll have a seat at these 2 at 1st the green and the blue and then we'll do a quick sound check with them so you'll wear these headphones there are just a ball here the size experience make sure that we're going to make sure that your hear is ok and open tomorrow. it's. all right here and there. you know that it changes all you. hear anything in there oh she can't she can't yes. you hear me when you hear me land. so newish ascii lives in kansas city her granddaughter leah is a seattle based filmmaker.