when i came out from this sale i really could not even she'll heppy ever and sometimes even people are joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very probably due to cool for a normal person to go to spain understand you live with that all your life i want to punt to that we will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming from the wars in then finally they need to mend you know for the how do you call it depression when we didn't have to tow. the big things were all the time gone on. and. they would take off you

know your butt of your wearing and sometimes i would you know do it diffident way. to go sometimes to the dead. in very good hour auschwitz your living. every moment. it was really like you being in the hell. that went to a terrible too big to want to. be dangerous says woman was leading is also the door front. door just beating because. we were making some break. to break it to be. tested if it's strong enough because this was going to read the

bombs. you see. determine. how one day. the main assessment from our streets. started to. be called. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. he was beating me. he was wearing heavy boots. and yours bidding me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below the. blog was gone home gushing from all over i really don't know how i make this is was made worse beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and.

people don't know when they look at you and the really incites left you it's left a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talk about. but

. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first the war she would be going to. how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described if they're real moser's love and i missed it. you know it's hard for me to know call eve day ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept

a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and they were designee mother what disease you can imagine and they're too warm and what can you tell it. in a used to say well they put this number because you get lost found me go find your mama and that's it enclosed. as older i got. in i looked back. and reading between the lines. did they really help it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the

poem was called sonia at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia at $32.00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead.

kid. how did he how do you know are you you are never there you are. here well no your hair looks. now what's going on. i mean to read to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce it a you know it says do sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as

formal notice of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions. or contact me. it was really shocking point to me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it dented. about now well this is what i was saying to myself they saw me at what's happening now i have to change gears to. keep larry was to. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my eyes how i survived. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when i. used to tell me no member when i know you are down. no camorra down.

how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. good talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're going back. and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you but.

in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speeding up is not enough. star and all i've said. is that a day where the life. was . a mature prison. i was not a humble person. process. a lot of my life not really. contributing much.

yeah carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just you know i'm going to be a prison guy. is for sure. you never know who you're going to be is going to change your line. would shape or form you're going to come here. and. mining will see what i mean for me. i am to yourself. and i mean for in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of

all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you are 10 between 16 more meetings at me and said a little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am and having coffee and. in reading a newspaper about the closing of

a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i can and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the up to his creed i have to bring them together.

the world is driven by a dream shaped by one person. thinks . we dare to ask. the goal of the federal reserve bank would be to take the american economy private that is to say it would buy all stocks all bonds all property and now your bank and

other banks are saying yeah they're going to print $130.00 trillion dollars they're not going to stop at 6 or 7 trillion the number of dollars going to print is going to exceed the g.d.p. of america by a huge factor and they're going to buy buy everything same with the other 3 or 4 major central banks around the world this is what neo feudalism looks like. america no was really like to be in the. close you would never believe that well it's human can do to as. when they i was walking in to field sunday and can come said with. the ashes we were spreading the ashes i was referring to light and i can tell you

a spreading those you know with this so i could see the little pieces bones which even india could amount to it couldn't completely and this was very difficult on me till today i still believe this should be a kick in the. pinney parties. to exterminate through race. maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and more now i can make it i can make it out. so you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server they told a number are. there when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to judge you how you look or

you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you. experience is everything. to me it takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean is some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think they will get better from. and when you say oh. you look at her as you see. things are good for her now them i give you the courage to say you know. i'm not going do what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so many there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him

burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i. if you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be picked is. to put do no thing in your heart. you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and hopefully i'll be getting a chance to you know contribute something. and. then return to that or out. i hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place

even like i say still mad the war stay all that dimension to you. there's. a worry thank you so wonderful come here you go as you do to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really need. it there is no way. you make out. when i get out on the farm saw you know was there an excuse so he can this in and hopefully be bless. her experience. straight up because i believe he's dead obviating course where he was 32 years and

nothing to be compared with it at all this was your mother both of your stream are right it would kill me in just a moment the dr was a mere. there's regardless. she's still alive to offer. or even a story to tell you. it's a. truth place where you come to. take your. words where you are keeping your notes you know. if i might make it. through all the strong things don't go. with us you can be very small. dreams.

you know when you're 1944 my mom was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and death. and this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged.

that i can do this you know it means to me. and. it means to me there and i wish that my father. and i wish that he. had and that. sed when he. said. it. you and i are speaking on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very set it was a heavy they. indeed they did you get a suited to. each. people

could hear the prisoners could hear him feel the vibrating to hear tanks coming closer and closer they knew this was liberation. so of course they were starting to . get area where my mother was working. there were still a couple of us guards around in the guards for trying to stop them as shooting. the bullets came in right here and it sent them into my house and it came through. clothes from and the next. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. i was the most serious. at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the

blood to start coming. so this was a terrible experience just to see david you. made it.

she said 5 years into. the spill. is rightly. getting. literally. in the air when it's. coming they're telling their friends about. it.

so you know obviously facts a lot of people when she talks to people they say they want to do something about it. and i thought that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just talking. so my name is caroline kennedy i'm thrown kansas city and i just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this

organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now in so maybe coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. you know in the face of a pandemic of a virus that spread so rapidly and so quickly throughout the global population you

can't really think in the short run about changing people's underlying metabolic states one hopes that we can learn something from this. in the long. run no healthier lifestyles to create a more healthy planet. that's because there's survival guide substation just like all the stores simply travel all the surfaces. you should still there are you going to get back on track to. go ahead no good repatriations forget the rest of 7 years. go with the separate cars cars are for. tough and i mean i'm on the entire system i found a way to go through a suit because alec itself mukti it i. was in this way got to doubt

it so hard not to think i'm going to dissipate this the work of a coward and i'm going to start then if. this is the only thing that we do is music because everybody fights in his ways. it's true and you can feel the fee on this bill frist woody allen called the ability to put the helmet on the. what i think is this is the fans that is a constant. through. the president's press conference from the new state department auditorium march

23rd 1961. i want to make a brief statement about laos. it is i think important for all americans. to understand this difficult and potentially dangerous problem. these 3 maps show the area of effective communist domination as it was last august and from december 20th to the present day and the end of march the communist control a much wider section of the country. the position of this administration has been carefully considered. and we have sought to make it just as clear as we know how to the government's concern 1st we strongly. have at least for the goal of a neutral and independent layo. to no outside. group of powers threatening no one.