she'll heppy ever and sometimes even people are joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very probably due to cool for a normal person to go to spain understand you live with that all your life i want to punt and we will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming you know from the wars in then finally they need to know for the how do you call it depression we didn't have to toe. the big things were all the time. and. they would take off you know where you are but never your wearing and sometimes i would you know do it to diffident way. too sometimes to dead.

in very good hour auschwitz your living. every moment. it was really like giving. that went to a terrible too big. to. be dangerous as woman was getting is also the door front. door just beating was. making some break. to break it to be tested if it strong enough because this was going to grab the bombs . did to him and. one day. the main assessment from. our streets.

started to. close but. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me. he was wearing heavy boots. and yours bidding me up from top to bottom when they left i was all below the. blog was gone gushing from all over i really don't know me this is was me. beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and they really incites left you it's left

a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talking about. it . but. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first

a war she would be a grandma how happy she would be and then leading me and what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in the real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to know call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were desk me mother what disease you can imagine and there are 2 moment what can you tell him you

know used to say well they put this number because you get lost found me so find your mama and that's it enclosed. as older i got in i looked bad. and indeed between the lines. that they really held it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about it's an anthology of poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia at $32.00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the

dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fests i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry a 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she yells at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband own for an overseas sings the song her. kids.

are you ya never hear you are. well know your hair looks. let it know what is going on. do you gentlemen nation know. the end of the day you know it said there are madam please allow this letter is there as form note oh you lease cancellation. if you have any. interest to contact me. it was really shocking point to

me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it. yes it. about now well this is what i was saying to me sarah a sunday at what's happening now i have to. keep larry was to arrange the horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close and. i ways through age. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when. you stick your member whenever you are down. you know good moredock. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took

a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is very. good to talk to me so deeply when i hear a nice see we're going back. and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you. in a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough.

i'll start and i'll live. 17 with a life of. ours . in a mature prison. i was not a humble person. a lot of my life not really. contributing much. carnegy. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i'm just going to be a prison guy. is for sure in your. songs

i never know who you're going to be is going to change your line. would shape or form you're going to come here. i mean we'll see what i mean for me. i am to yourself and i mean in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said little more than

a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and. reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall so we'll

see the optimist creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimists created the prisoners and the optimists creed i have to bring them together. in the face of a pandemic virus that spread so rapidly and so quickly that. it really think in the short run about changing people's underlying medical. one hopes that we can learn something from this. in the. healthier lifestyles to create a more healthy planet. during

the vietnam war u.s. forces are also. there was a secret war. and for years the american people did not know. how much it is especially the most heavily bombed country per capita in all of human history millions of unexploded bombs still in danger lives in this small agricultural country jordyn wieber going to concerts happening there even today kids in laos full victims of bombs dropped decades ago is the u.s. making amends for their tragedy and what help to the people needed in the 2. it'll land on. america no it was really like to be in hell. because he would never believe that what a human can do to have as a. one day that i was working in to field one date

and can't come said with. the ashes we're spreading the ashes as a fairy tale eyes are and i can tell you they spreading those you know with their so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my tortilla it couldn't be completely and this was very difficult to me until today i still live with this saved me a kick in the. pity parties. to exterminate through race. this is mainly that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and more now i can make it i can make it out. so you gotta remember to look at these numbers on my server see the number are. there when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did

not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person your. experience is everything. to me you takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean as some people who go on do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think things will. and when you say. you look at her as you see. things are good for. them i give you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't.

know if i forgive. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so low there seems forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who passed about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be picked is. to put to loath in your heart. you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so. hopefully i'll be. you know contribute something.

returned and all of you in time will be in freedom but in the freedom never to come back to this place even like i say still now the war stay all that i've mentioned to you and. i want to thank you so wonderful. because due to it's not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out of here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. you make out. that. when i get out on the farm saw you know. that i had an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be bless.

her. story. because i believe he's dead poppin course we're 32 years and nothing. compared to that at all this was your mother both of their story of my life it would kill me in just a moment the dr was an air. force picard to. see the light over time. for the syrian military were the. first. place where. they. weren't sure how well you are keeping your meds you know that. if i might make it to. you know the strong things don't come.

to us you can be very small. streams. in the winter of 1944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills in debt. and this brings us to how the war ended for my mom. when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on. her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation. and it's an obligation that. had to do now and honestly i feel

privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. i wish that he. had enough. when he was. if. you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very set it was a happy day. to

. people because here prisoners get here in. vibrating to hear tanks coming closer and closer they need liberation. so of course they were starving. for my mother was working. there were still a couple of guards around in their cars for trying to stop. the bullets came. from my house and it came to that. close. and then girls with this from the same bullet but also one that. i was the most

serious. at the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. so this was a terrible experience just to see did you. have to. made it.

she said 5 years in a general event tests. that did the spill. is writing. it. literally in this case i mean there when the sun. and the past summer's. coming they're telling their friends about.

it. so you know obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks to people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make it she. felt that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just. say my name is caroline kennedy. kansas city and i just graduated from high school . so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story lead changed

my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has the power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future.

you can't be though with yet you like. 54 jets and more than 1300 military personnel are headed to air force base in alaska where is that to say come on i'll show you what's the reason for any type of enhanced u.s. military presence in this area russia. what is it suddenly about the south china sea that makes it so that it 11000000000 barrels of oil.

take a look at this map who really owns what kind of says no it belongs to us india says no we claim that that belongs to us both of these countries have nuclear weapons capabilities there is reason for concern so that's why we're going to drill down on the story for you today right here on the news with rick sanchez where you know as we always like to say we do believe by golly it's time to do news again. 'd it. could. take a look at a. good. place to do that and she of the book says you do so you can hold up

a. clock that just look up one. piece in. the show this up the front seat there is a size 66 inches if you put stinky human body we know it's. big a lot see every mall. in the politically. these things lead to the pollution. and i know this is likely to shift she's just put up a little. bit. of .

all. there. are. a lot of welcome to worlds apart in eternal pretty damn good music is scarce thank god that somebody is doing that it would be a cause if not for celebration. as self interested inquiry but that's when it comes to moscow and washington russia and other countries s'posed much much an oracle but 9.