doris the beating was. making some break in each grade had to be tested if it's strong enough because this was going to grab the bombs. you see. determined. so one day. the main assessment from our streets. started to. be called. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to as. he was beating me. he was wearing heavy boots. in the doors bidding

me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below the. block was gone home gushing from all over i really don't know how i make this as was my morris beating . and the girls couldn't believe it and. people don't know when they look at you and they're really insights left you it's left a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there.

and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and the sophist i'm talking about. it's right. that. you go on. and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first the war she would be going to. how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described the real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard

for me to know call eve day ever so me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and. i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were days when mother what disease you can imagine and they're too warm and what can you tell it. in a used to say well they put this number because you're very good laws found me so find your mama and that's it enclosed. as older i got. in i looked back. and reading between the lines. they really held it.

so this is something i'd completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called sonia at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia at $32.00 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she

cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. kid. how did he how do you know are you. there you are. here well no your hair looks. looking guy. now what is going on.

i mean to read to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce it a you know it says do sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions to contact me. it was really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it down to. about now well this is what i was saying to me sarah they saw me at what's happening now i have to change to. keep larry. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my eyes how i survived. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my

mind. when i. used to remember whenever you are down. no camorra down. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for joy as a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. good talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're

going back wards and paid to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you but. in a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough. i'll start our lives. every day with a life of. ours . in a mature prison. and i was not a humble person. process.

a lot of my life not really. contributing much. yeah carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just you know i'm going to be a prison guy. is for sure. you never know who you are going to be is going to change your line. would shape or form you're going to come here. and. i mean we'll see what i mean for me. i am all to yourself and

i mean in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said a little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night and through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if we just believe that things are going to be all right

that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coffee and. reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimists creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i've kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the optimist creed i have to bring them together.

is you'll be a reflection of reality. in a world transformed. what will make you feel safe. isolation in the community. are you going the right way or are you being led. by. what is true what is. in the world corrupted you need to descend. to join us in the depths. or a maybe in the shallows. we

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join me every thursday on the elec simon chill and i'll be speaking to guests of the world of politics sports business i'm showbusiness i'll see of an. american no i wish it was really like to be in the hell. because he would never believe that. a human can do to have as a. one day that i was working in to feel so out of date and can't come said to rock with from the come out already had the ashes we're spreading the ashes as a fairy tale lies there and i can tell you they spreading those you know with their show i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my tortilla it couldn't completely and this was a very difficult on me till today i still live with this said to me you have a kick in him. because i have been the see you pity parties and.

try to exterminate your who race. this you made it that injury was when he was beating me up in my room making me a moan now i can make it i can make it out. she gotta remember to hold on we look at these numbers oh my sir she day to remember are. there when i seen. it made me so. yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. experience is everything. to me takes people who've been through something to reach people who are going through something. i mean as some

people who go on do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think the days will get better from. when you say home. and you look at her as you see. things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so many there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning so that sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say

that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. to put do loath in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and. hopefully i'll be . you know contribute something. i return to that around. i hope it's all a deal in time we'll be in freedom but in the free don't never to come back to this place either and like i say still mad to war stay all that dimensional to you and there's. a way thank you so wonderful come here because you trust not only me but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of

being here makes me want. to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really need. to. make out. the opposite that you see when i get out on the farm saw you know what it's like my son to their next meal so he can listen and hopefully be blessed by. her experience. straight up because i believe the nice dead obviating course were 32 years and nothing to be compared with it at all is watching your mother both of yesteryear like i would it would kill me just mom of the bride was a near. miss i don't think i could feel. she's

a lot tougher by. the. way in this or your belief that you know it's ok it's a very serious. place they're coming to. take your. worship now while you are keeping your nest. if i might make it. through all the strong days don't call. us you can be very small. dreams. you know when you're 944 my mom was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the

notorious for going bills and. this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp. and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. there relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know it means to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. and i wish that he.

had enough. when he was. here. if. you and i are speaking on the 70th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a. it was ahead be honest. they. didn't. do did you that is the secret to it tonight dude leech. people could hear the prisoners computer and feel the ground vibrating they could hear the tanks coming closer and closer they knew the source liberation. so of

course they were almost starving and soon a few kitchen area where my mother was working. there were still a couple of us guards around in the guards for trying to stop them and as for shooting. the bullets came in right here that sentiment in my house and it came through. clothes from and the next. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. was the most serious. and at the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. so this was a terrible experience just to see david you. just.

made it. she said 5 years. off the spill. is rightly.

getting. literally. anywhere when it's also. coming they're telling their friends about. so you know obviously facts a lot of people when she talks to people they say they want to do something about it they want to make it she. felt that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just talking.

so my name is caroline kennedy. is a city and i just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story at least changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has the power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had

an impact on all of you now and so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. 54 jets and more than 1300 military personnel are headed to air force base in alaska where is that to say come on i'll show you what's the reason for any type of enhanced u.s. military presence in this area russia. what is it suddenly about the south china

sea that makes it so that it 11000000000 barrels of oil. take a look at this map who really owns what kind of says no it belongs to us india says no we claim that that belongs to us both of these countries have nuclear weapons capabilities there is reason for concern so that's why we're going to drill down on this story for you today right here on the news or direction where you know as we always like to say we do believe by golly it's time to do news again. 'd 'd

to do the things she says is that you said you can. do. that job on. the stuff but. this thing. you would think anybody would. see if we. but simply with the politically functioning of the bank leading the police in. an. initiative she's just. looking at it.

tough and finding another one of the highest amount of weight or both this absolute . panic itself mukti about. closing this wake up to dog it's so hard not to think of the mother disappeared this moment the work of a power and i don't miss the mark and if. this is the only thing that we do is music because everybody fights his way. to. the floor looking at the feet all found is worthless woody allen grabbing hold of the ability to pick it up. but i think is this is the fans that is a constant. thought.

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