when i came out from this sale i really could not even shield heppy ever and sometimes even people were joking about something i would catch myself if i was even letting i feel guilty. and it's very probably difficult for a normal person to get to spend understand you live with that all your life i want to punt and we will live with it we did not receive help like now when our boys are coming you know from the wars in then finally they need to mend you know for the how do you call it depression we didn't have to tell. the big things were all the time go on. and. they would take off you know where you are but never your wedding and sometimes i would you know do it to

diffident way. to sometimes to dead. in very good hour auschwitz you were living. every moment. with fear. it was a really like you living in a hell. that went to a terrible too big. to. be dangerous as women was leading is all strong that don't front. doors to beating was. making some brave. brave had to be tested if it's strong enough because this was going to read the bombs. you see. the german.

so one day. the main assessment from our streets. started to test those but. he called me. i was pushing away pushing away and there was no way for me to escape. and he was beating me pretty as boots he was wearing heavy boots. and yours bidding me up from top to bottom. when they left i was all below the. block was gone home and gushing from all over i really don't know me this is was my worst beating. and the girls couldn't believe it and.

people don't know when they look at you and the really incites left you it's left a scar abetted. and you never knew when it will hit you and still i was managing what is inside to me. and now when the wish for any bad to to understand what's happening you don't know what way. and you are there. and it's takes a long time until you get out of it. and this is talking about. but . you go on.

and. i felt every moment missing my mom. first a war she would be a grandma and how happy she would be and then leading me in what to do i was just like helpless i don't know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. it's cannot be described in real moser's love and i missed it. i know it's hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. i really tried my best to protect them and i kept a lot of things away there's something say i didn't want them to know. when the time already came when they saw my number and there were days me mother

what disease you can imagine and their 2 moment what can you tell it. and i used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your mama and that's it enclosed. i was older i got. and i looked back. and reading between the lines. that they really held it. so this is something i'd completely forgotten about it's an anthology of poems by children of holocaust survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. i don't remember this poem at all that i'll read it for you

and i haven't seen it in like a long time. sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. and carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a long distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. kid.

you know you are now here you are. now your hair looks. alone. now what is going on. i mean to read it to you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce it a you know it says dear sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your lease cancellation. if you have any questions. or contact me. it was

really a shocking point for me. and i have to prepare myself you don't have to close it dented. about now well this is what i was saying to me sarah they saw me at what's happening now i have to. keep larry was sort of. horrible things that i cannot believe myself sometimes when a close. i ways to wage. you know i tell you one thing. it's always in my mind. when. you stick your member when only you darling. you know good moredock. how many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even county you

know exactly how many years i started to speak up it took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive. people will literally take with the hate from their hearts and jad respects you for a human being but i was very very wrong. and this is a very. good talk to me so deeply when i hear and i see we're going back towards the hate to still growing. more than i ever would. so you go warning you but. in a way very disappointed to know world in feeling goes a dissing way. here speaking up is not enough.

i'll start out a life sentence. 17 with a life. i was. a mature person. i was not a humble person. a lot of my life not really. contributing much. carnegie. i just really didn't have any use for anything positive i just you know i'm going to be a prison guy. is for sure in your. songs

you never know who you're going to be is going to change your line. would shape or form you're going to come here. i mean will see what i mean for me. i am all to yourself. and i mean in a program in all the kansas presence called reaching out from within and. the national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once.

our program if you attend between 16 more meetings at me and said a little more than a year. it drops to 8 percent. there are some rituals connected with reaching out from within there are very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of modern progress the optimist creed we finish with every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right that. that's a big majority of things being all right. so here i am having coughing. reading a newspaper about the closing of a shopping center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her you've lost so many things in your life you've had so many disappointments how

do you face the world every day. and she said if you look up on the wall you will see the optimist creed and when i come in every morning that's the 1st thing that i've kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimist create the prisoners and the optimist creed i have to bring them together. the world is driven by shaped by one person those. who dares thinks. we dare to ask.

you kid up with you know what. during the vietnam war u.s. forces are also. there was a secret war. and for years the american people did not know. mountain mouth so much it is officially the most heavily bombed country per capita in all of human history millions of unexploded bombs still in danger lives in this small agricultural country. even today kids in

laos full victims of bombs dropped decades ago it is the us making amends for the tragedy in laos what help to the people needed in that little land on. america no i was really like to be in hell. because he would never believe that what a human can do to as. well and they that i was working in defeat one day and can't come said turok with a problem that could emerge doria the ashes were spreading the ashes as a fairy tale lies are and i can tell you they spreading those you know with their so i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the could of my toria it couldn't bore completely and this was a very difficult on me till today i still live with this. kick in.

and this is your opinion parties. to exterminate through race. this is mainly the injury was when he was beating me up by her making it more now i can make it i can make it out. of a member of. these members on my server. when i seen. it made me say yeah. i never knew who did not see me somebody why do we have to come to this understanding it is what you are inside. now to george you how you look over you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. experience is everything. to me takes people who have been

through something to reach people who who are going through something. i mean as some people who go on do crazy things hurt others because they're hard and they don't think the days will get better from. and when you say oh. you look at her and you see. things are good for her now then my gave you the courage to say you know. i'm not going to what i was thinking about i don't. how do you find forgiveness. forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are so many there seem forgiveness what i have seen people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile they're burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say

that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot of different place but forgiveness should be practiced. to put do loath in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so and. hopefully i'll be . you know contribute something. every time it's not around. i hope it's all of you in time we'll be in freedom. but enough it don't never to come back to this place either and like i say still mad to war stay all that i've mentioned to you and there's. a way thank you so wonderful come here goes due to us not only me

but a lot of these guys in here that you've given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want. to get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. make out. when i get out on the farm so you know. so there is an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be blessed by. her experience. straight up because i believe he's dead bob did a course where 32 years and nothing. compared with it at all this was your mother both restraint i would say would kill me in just

a moment the dr was here. this week i could. see a lot to offer my. seriously so you. were serious. there. they. were sure you are keeping your meds so. if i might make it this is you know the strong things don't come. with us you can be very small.

you know when you're 944 my mom was forced on a desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp. and what happened between her and then s.s. guard on her last day of captivity. they're relating to it and they're thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation. and it's an obligation that i'm glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. i really feel privileged. that i can do this you know i mean to me. and it means to me there and i wish that my father. i wish that he.

had enough. when he was. here. if. you and i are speaking on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in bergen belsen so it was a very said it was ahead they. did . did you that is the secret to it tonight dude each innocent. little kids here are the prisoners to figure in the ground vibrating they did hear

the tanks coming closer and closer they need this sort of liberation. so of course they were almost starving even if you kitchen area where my mother was 14 and. there were still a couple of guards around in the guards for trying to stop them and as for shooting . the bullets came in right she and it sentiment in my house and it came through. clothes from and monks. and then girls with this from the same wallet but also one that. was the most serious. and at the moment when the bullet came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blog start coming. so this was

a terrible experience just to see dave today. after much trauma. made it. she survived years. tests. that did the

spell. driving. it is. literally. in the air when it's also. coming they're telling their friends about. it. so you know obviously facts a lot of people when she talks to people they say they want to do something about it they want to make it she.

felt that it was important that i actually didn't think instead of just talking. so my name is caroline kennedy. is a city and i just graduated from high school. so i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story changed my life completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. with her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. that's really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has

a power to impact one person and it's a huge chain reaction. i mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now in so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. is your media a reflection of reality. in

a world transformed. what will make you feel safe. isolation full community. are you going the right way or are you being led so. direct. what is true what is faith. in the world corrupted you need to descend. to join us in the depths. or a maybe in the shallows. we're told when a new cold war with china it is not coherently explain to us why even worse is the strategy to change there isn't one also besides death of harm speech.

and planning another one of the. psuedo food. bank itself movie theater. plus we've got 2 dogs and so hard not to think on the decide to move them with a plan they call it an optimist or authentic that. this is the only thing that we do is music because everybody fights aimed his own weight. the floor lukens on the feet will sound is mostly sweaty and i. have a lot of. what i think is this is the found that is a look something.

time after time see my going on the ground from a country with the highest excess coronavirus deaths in europe and that number continues to rise coming up on the show johnson used to have the job could it now be the turn of jewel ministers around london a global epicenter of coronavirus now desperately trying to recover after tens of thousands dead we ask how britain's capital could be transformed if he wins next year as he seeks to turn the old smoke into a beacon of equality instead of an example of how not to react to a global pandemic.