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the heavenly father. thank you for the way that you have blessed and guided us and thank you for our family. this occasion be special as it is unique. we pray in jesus' name, a man looking back sometimes. i mean, this is a difficult memory for all of us to unpack and try to address it. sometimes it helps, but one of the things was what were we initially concerned about in those early days? i still wanted taylor to be a happy little boy, and i don't know if how you will be able to handle it. i didn't want the memory to heart to all your life. obviously the huge concern about alert asian you know,

he was out land hole in. so what is he going to have to go through who i was young and i didn't understand what was going on at the time. and it was difficult for me to process and i look back as like, i guess it wasn't the greatest thing to show everybody from, from me i guess i've been very distant from people and it's, i was just the way of knowing i've been dealing with it but foot know through family and everything at all motors closer then they all done for me is changed my perspective on life. and i know that that a thing about daily's our matthew expecting me to me an example. now what do you

want me to lou? the are the kind of big brother warranty as well, and we probably all needed to say they stay probably needed to be able to express

this because to a great extent we have suppressed our feelings in order to be protective in order to hope all of this would turn out well, i mean, the nice strong. yeah, this is the me o me

really? ah. so really 3, it felt very warm from october to chelsea and i remember watching the tree branches away. i felt peace for the 1st time. and once i got a telephone call from a detective about 2 in the afternoon, she was in intensive care. and if they hadn't told me it was kristen, i don't think i would have known that it was. she was just virtually unrecognizable

. it was the next morning when we went to her apartment and i went out onto the balcony and there were a bandages bloody bandages needles. the most dramatic thing i remember, and i still have a very hard time with this. there was actually still a piece of her jaw that was on the on floor of the apartment, the floor of the balcony. and i don't think i even told tristan this before. but that is probably what brought the whole thing most dramatically home to me. the same look at that doctor you now

i remember the ceiling. the real real thought about what it must have been like from my friends i have to clean up. there was pieces of teeth, i'm phones. and so much was the i can imagine what hard for them to has to face that it's so weird to go back into that mindset to see that balcony and think about what was going through my head as i shot there of the gun.

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a few more south pole and my friends screaming on the ground where ms. lee. so i look around the pole to corner. i see 3 missed in all 3 of them. had gone out slowly and in service. i turned around twice when our friends in gunter with allow payments for him to ground tennis, but i picked him up that's blending in a walk over there for the c. one is for him to run them back. miss

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you protect yourself and it was around you. the prosecutor here try to do everything you could to find charges to push. yes, we would because you guys were in my house and i didn't know if they're armed or not. it was dark. windows were closed. i saw him standing there, i told him to stop. they wouldn't stop. they kept, i don't know where they were doing. in there i said okay, i mean in my mind, does it say the whole thing? we've asked about 20 or 30 seconds and then it got ugly. it took over half an hour before the police showed up and stage is not going to come in and do anything until this scene secure in the scene was secure because it

took guys 40 minutes to die as long time cause again somebody he kept reach and i need to his belly wouldn't. he wouldn't rover. he kept reaching in his pants. i didn't know where i was reaching for. could have been a gun and i don't know what he was reaching for any stare at. meaning he crawled towards me and collapse and i don't know what his intentions were. he wouldn't, he wouldn't say a word. so, you know, i was still a certified medical person and had time. if i felt the scene was safe, i don't know what i could have done, but i would have done something you know, trying to help. i, but i was a long as 3040 minutes in my life. i knew the guy was going to be on. i've seen enough death in my life like career. i knew there's there's nothing new to this guy .

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i'm doing my normal routine into the bathroom. i get a shower, brush my teeth and get my hair done. i as well matthew as he was in the bathroom while he was up on the counter. i'm not sure why is up in the corner. it was ah, for santo, up to my mom's room. i think the gun lying there on the underneath the left side of the med and i pay it up. i and i walked back into the bathroom with a gun in my hands, out of curiosity, just looking at it and trying to figure out what it does and how to work it. and i, so we proceed to take the safety off. and then from there on the gun back in putting around in the chamber. and just remember

matthew says to me, you know, that was a gift from papa to mon or safety. and i didn't answer. i just hear a gunshot, i and so 8 o'clock that same night, december, 1st one by one. we say goodbye and the last one. so like how it

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