home, no dad ever should. she was virtually recognizable miraculously survived. but with life changing injury to intruders in his house by causing park intertwined with invisible, devastating what is wrong through it and the individual has to live with what they say and how it all unfold. i through i yesterday. pretty girl i was very happy outgoing, very physically fit successful person. i had

a lot of friends hours when those people that just look out and while they have the ultimate life one of the hardest things that i had the face was not having a face the 2 years that i couldn't talk or drink were the most difficult

all i could do was grunt trying to and just to have him one i i get busy very easily. i run into things. scene at night is difficult to years ago, my stitches got in factors and my face actually exploded when my 6th job replacement failed. that was the low point the i had a son next to and i would feed myself, ensure several times a day with a syringe. i drew incessantly because i couldn't shut my

mouth. my surgical in point is when my face is as symmetrical as possible and the scars have been released so that i can move and eat and talk without pain. and basically when the surgeon said or may this is as good as it gets. then on, know, i'm done. the reason i didn't get it

created here in a barbara. so i was a new okay. well, i can do the things i was able to do that really sort of my journey back up to the marks of what i was facing tele problems with there. but i mean, we can really therapist and most of the business people know the law. they ignore neither not mean that therefore they don't know how to live, so it's easy for them to give up one life like me, i had a little by placing the life i accepted that i accept the fact that i made that appointment

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i was in diapers time. i felt like i'd take me like before i can back and rival when i was like, always i'd like to have not where i'm looking for the position open quillen turkey and it was oil i could but as far as taking someone's life i thought a be

a lot worse in the me. ah, me. friday morning. we had a cold. 0750 a little there was a shooting linwood road. oh, i 1st officer, almost like in to the home. i went on

into the bathroom in the hallway. i. when i got there, and so the mother told her son, let me know, most of them were covered and blood screaming all my baby baby. it's my fault, my fault. the little boy, there's a brother, toner. i believe he was sitting in the hall outside the doorway. he was kind of in a bo certain position, his knees and his arms around his knees. and the state of shock

with her appointed me was in school a lot. so he, he was in raleigh capitalized. so you know, asked for a little gun just for me or text for me of the boy in. and so i had it in the night, i guess this morning i just forgot me. you know, the in panic. me that comes through in the midst of a situation like that is, is unlike anything else and you recognize even without knowing anything of what is happening, you know, simply from the time a voice. this is not a good phone call me. i didn't believe that from the

injuries that that they would ship on good people have bad things happen to have more time. and i think that was the case mom got distracted and didn't secure the weapon. and the little boy found that thought it was a toy. pull the trigger and shot his brother i i've had 4 or 5 surgeries his age i don't remember the 1st 18 because that happens when i was in this in my cobra

service i've had have a factors every single heart of my bye. there was a bone graft from my lower right leg. my hip shaved down twice. a phone graph from my upper left side a riv. taken part of my staff villa. 2 thirds of my right breast was used to rebuild the skin on my face. and a skin graft was taken from my wrist. so every single bit of re hudson harvison to fix me face every day as a struggle physically from in clinic pain and

suffering. i could say could survive something and survive of all. so going to another surgery number 46 with

the with the i miss out your garage or police. the lady took the can each other than you mean russell, but i hope so. but over the over the years

just sort of lenient. bush and learning and that was in the course procure, mrs to actually this is for ron. ah, good position. the good we think he might be a soldier because off the boot she's wearing huge. which fold up. took all the stuff when you wasn't with anyone on the show stuff, please please. ah ah, me brothers. i have the good. so maximum

question. how many you guys want to change your life? okay, so hopefully in this presentation i will be able to give you some insight on how to do that, how to navigate your way. i broke my hair stuff, you ah, growing up in the streets in a row they dug learned the level, right. i like a lot of young kids with the thing, i don't know who they are when became what the street for the drug, your killer got to a lot of other cases, my guess is accessible through with we had plenty of and you know, we had the basilica, and it kind of makes you not afraid anything anymore. i

expectations of living was very, very so it because i know i was spirally controlled. i had no way out in the kitchen at this gateway, across threats and i'll kill somebody. no young man is 18 years old. thing is i was i'll go the other degree murder. and i said to myself, i'm going to transform my siblings. have my, my deal with the problem or issue i get into the valley. i had to take my metallic hotel, my anger, react and respond to sort of thing. i mean, so you guys all raise your hands that you want to change your life around. so guy was 3 guess. first get to give a life the 2nd get to give

a reason. and the 3rd one is what jerry? well, we will and the power choice. we are going to the choice the me ah ah, ah, it was going to be over turkey and just happen. i had my shot getting a truck. we immediately noticed me as you for the gate ah, where on a corner and i saw that i saw the glass door open. i knew that i king

write your answer here. and you can see me with that door open, his current darkened, and you cause his shades and your clothes at, nor you can't see what's in there. i saw 2 figures standing right there that door and they had a lot of my guns piled up on this table right here. they just came in the door and i stood right here and i yolanda stop 3 times. and they were right here. and as soon as they pop that door open and i realized i didn't recognize me and they were panicking, trying to get out and they wouldn't stop at almost 3 times. they wouldn't do it. and so i fired one shot right from here. a fell right darren grass and he would not quit moving and i chase you

guy out there he jumping the vehicle. he was pulled off and i popped round off right about here in the car setting. right jerry, so darn close it. like i said, the power i was too close for his good fortune. so he took off in the car. i stood here scream, or this guy allison i both did. i went to his neighbor and, and she still over him and that's when he was aggressive towards her and she fire a warning shot near course i was up the street, but he said he shot somebody. the guy was not dead. he was hurt for certain. he was out of it, he was not is incapable of doing a leg, but he is pretty much groaning. but he died. long standing fare for

a tech would take 40 minutes. 30 minutes for the car got here. pretty brutal, watching the guide. i a bo kevin didn't it's pretty brutal. it's pretty tough to do. spray tough to live with. you know, i know he cried for 2 days. you know, after what happened? when soon as you start thinking about it, you know, i mean what he'd done but, but then he would to come to a realization, i think that he just knew what he did he had to do. but it was, it was tough on him really was, you know, and i mean, i still don't think that he's really quite come over here. you know, it's always been a couple years now. ah, ah, ah, ah.

the process that gilts the grief mainly the guilt that i have from that day. like what i haven't gotten the biggest thing like i how stupid could i have been you know, what was, what was i thinking what just a constant thing. like just why did this happen and dealing with that, i don't think it's honestly ever something i've ever dealt with. dealt with just and i've been there, i've come to turn good. you're out, family and things. my parents said like reassuring me. i remember exact things,

you know, as a kid, you just believe what you're saying is what you're doing. me not really know how i've dealt with it. honestly. just forgotten about it mailing today. ah ah, i have it. welcome into his house this morning.

in a good, the thing is phrased this morning and dedicate ourselves to him. you know, there is certain times in our lives that we encounter circumstances that we would never had planned about 10 years ago. december was one of those events in our lives from for me and taylor. and when my younger son, matthew died, and he was 5 years old at the time. and he was a very surprised when a tragedy like this happened. i think one of the automatic responses is whose fault is it? for me, i did not 1st externalize that i 1st internalize that if i had only he died as a result of a gunshot. for taylor i don't really think of the in the sense of blame for

him and i never really have i think it was actually the next night or 2 family was together and we were just kind of waiting for this conversation. it was initiated by darren and beth, as they were trying to say some things to us. there needs to be a, a statement. people need to express how they feel. there needs to be an unburdening of how you feel. and so in that process of things, and i said, there will be no blame in this house. there will be no fixing a blame we will all love you and we will all accept we're okay, is we are together in this in the guilt of it. i just would, if i would have done things differently, they may not be where we are today because of it. but that's

why he had that hock. because i was still even the guilt made me feel hot better that i realize i me that i wasn't going to guess always drink it is with them happening like a family then lose a chair. so in a board just wasn't my platen i think probably the best response that we can have in a situation like that is to say it's not a guilt placed, but it's a guilt shared. just like it's

a grief shared because that amount of guilt for being responsible for a life in this setting. it's really it's not only too much for one person to bear. i think it's something that's meant to be borne together. i'm sure you're here. yeah, i just, i wrote, i think i know where it is right here. black. but he has to read that he was writing this. i know since i was 11 years old when that and 7th grade and hit it off immediately. i was visiting me after my surgeries and i says map, i have a religious favor cask. can i stay with you through the rest my surgeries and afterward fire recover?

i said, i love you. of course you can stay with me. and that's my friendship. you can okay, good. i know i good to see you. we're going to get right down to business. so i want to just examine you now and then we'll take a look at the x ray together. and then we'll kind of tell you what we're planning for thursday. now what i'm doing, this is piano hard. the bone is when i'm impressed it is very hard. it's like normal bone. ok. ok. now you see how your lip is scarred down a little bit. yeah, that's the other thing we're going to accomplish. been released the scars. huh. and create a vestibule in the mouth. okay. which is like this based between your chicken gum. we need to create that. ok. so for lack of a better term, this is tooth ready,

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