after being shot in the cold, no dad ever should. she was virtually recognizable miraculously survived. but with life changing injury claim to intruders in his house by chronic park, intertwined with invisible, devastating. what is wrong through the individual has to live with and how it all and all that i through i used to be a pretty girl. i was a very happy outgoing,

very physically fit successful person. i had a lot of friends. ours were those people that just look at it and think, well they have the ultimate life. one of the hardest things that i had the face was not having a face to years that i couldn't talk or drink were the most difficult.

all i could do was grunt trying to and just to have him one i i get busy very easily. i run into things scene at night is difficult to years ago, my stitches got in factors and my face actually exploded. when my 6th job replacement failed. that was the low point the i had a son and i would feed myself, ensure several times a day with a servant. i drew incessantly because i couldn't shut my

mouth. my surgical in point is when my face is as soon as the recall as possible. and the scars have been released so that i can move and eat and talk without pain. and basically when the surgeon said or may this is as good as it gets. then on. know i'm done. the prison. i don't get it

all created here in a barbara, so i was a new okay. well, i can do the things i was able to do that really sort of my journey back up to the bumps up of what i was facing. so the problems with therapy, i mean we can really therapist and most of the young people know the law. they're ignored neither not that. so therefore they don't know how to live. so it's easy for them to give up one life. like me, i had a little by placing the life i accepted that accept the fact that i made that

appointment when a person also via they do things and they might have more when we look the i'm a born raise country boy. i

was in diapers. time i felt my feet i'd take me before i could back and rival when i was like, always out like the factory not where i'm looking for me. the position open qualen, turkey and it was oil. i was nice but as far as taking someone's life i thought if you

a lot worse in the me. ah me friday morning. the cold of 750. there was a shooting with ro. oh, i the 1st officer almost like

in to the home. i went on into the bathroom in the hallway. i went out there and so the mother told her son left me. most of them were covered in blood screaming all my baby baby. it's my fault, my fault. the little boy is a brother, toner. i believe he was sitting in the hall outside the doorway. he was kind of in a bowl certain position, his knees and his arms around his knees. and the state of shock

with her appointed me. there was in school a lot. so he, he was in raleigh capitalized. so you know, asked for a little gun just for me or text me of the boy in. and so i headed in the night, i guess this morning i just forgot me. you know, the in panic. me that comes through in the midst of a situation like that is, is unlike anything else and you recognize, even without knowing anything of what has happened, you know, simply from the time a voice. this is not a good phone call me. i didn't believe that from the

injuries that that would show up on good people have bad things happened to him or time and i think that was the case mom got distracted and didn't secure the weapon. and the little boy found that thought it was a toy, pull the trigger and shot his brother i i've had 4 or 5 surgeries to the age. i don't remember the 1st 18 because

a half and when i was in this in the service i've had have a factors. every single heart of my bye. there was a bone graft from my lower right leg, my hip shaved down twice. a phone graph from my upper left side, a roof taken part of my staff villa. 2 thirds of my right brass was used to rebuild the skin on my face. and a skin graft was taken from my wrist. so every single bit of re hudson harvison to fix me face every day as a struggle physically from in clinic pain and

tougher. i could say, could i survive something on survival? so going to another surgery before you said, you know, but i

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getting me rather good. so last one question. how many you guys want to change your life? ok. so hopefully in this presentation i will be able to give you some insight on how to do that, how to navigate your way. i broke my hair south of you, i growing up in a street in a row, then i just learned that just put into the level. right. i like a lot of young kids with the fingerprint. oh oh no, no. the, when became what the street for the drug killer you got to a lot of cases my guess is acceptable to us and we had plenty of and you know,

the good to kind of makes you not afraid anything anymore. i expect patients of living was very, very soy, because i know i was borrowing only control. i only had no way out in i got into an altercation as a schema across rec, and i kill somebody. young man, 18 years old thing is i was go the other murder. i said to myself, i'm going to transfer my siblings, have my, my little problem or issue i get into the valley. i had to take my metallic, he has had my anger react and respond to sort of thing. i mean, so you guys all raise your hands that you want to change your life around. so guy

was 3 guess 1st get to give a life the 2nd get to give a reason. 31 as well as likely for will. and the power choice resulting because the choice the me ah ah, ah, it was wanting to renew over turkey and, and just so happened. i had my shot getting a truck. we immediately noticed as you are out for the gate. ah, we're on the corner and i saw that sliding glass door open. i knew that i came

right your answer here. and you can see me with a door open, his current darkened when he calls his shades and close that door. you can't see what's in there. i saw 2 figures standing right there at that door and they had a lot of my guns piled up on this table right here. they just came in the door and i stood right here and i yolanda stop 3 times and they were right here. and as soon as they pop that door open and i realized i didn't recognize me and they were panicking, trying to get out and they wouldn't stop. i'd almost 3 times. they wouldn't do it. and so i fired one shot right from here.

a fell right, garron grass. he would not quit moving and i chase the other guy out there. he jumping the vehicle. he is pulled off and i popped round off right about here in the car setting. right jerry, so darn close it. like i said, power, i was too close for his good fortune. so he took off from the car. i used to hear scream or this guy alice and i both did. i went to his neighbor and, and she still over him and that's when he was aggressive towards her and she fire a warning shot near course i was up the street, but he said he shot somebody. the guy was not dead. he was hurt for certain. he was out of it. he was not, isn't capable of doing

a life, but he's pretty much groaning. but he dive. ever understand, fair. tick. what date for him years? 30 minutes for the cops got here. pretty brutal, watching the guide. i a think about what kevin didn't is pretty brutal is pretty tough to do. pretty tough to live with. you know, i know he cried for 2 days. you know, after what happened when, as soon as he started thinking about it, you know, i mean what he'd done but, but then he would to come to a realization, i think that he just knew what he did he had to do. but it was, it was tough on him early was, you know, i mean, i still don't think that he's really quite come over here. you know, it's always been a couple years now. ah,

the process that gilts the grief mainly the guilt that i have from that day. like what i haven't gotten the biggest thing i how stupid could i have been you know like what was, what was i thinking like what? just the constant thing like why did this happen and dealing with that, i don't think it's honestly ever something i've ever deal dealt with. dealt with just now and i've been there. i've come to turn good. you're out,

family and things. my parents said like reassuring me, i remember exact things, you know, as a kid, you just believe what you're saying is what you're doing me . i don't really know how i've dealt with it honestly and just forgotten about it. mailing me today. ah ah ah, i have it welcome into his house this morning.

in a good, the thing is phrased this morning and dedicate ourselves to him. you know, there is certain times in our lives that we encounter circumstances that we would never have planned about 10 years ago. december was one of those events in our lives from for me and taylor. and when my younger son, matthew died, and he was 5 years old at the time. and he was a very surprised when a tragedy like this happened. i think one of the automatic responses is whose fault is it? for me, i did not 1st externalize that i 1st internalize that if i had only he died as a result of

a gunshot. for taylor not, i don't really think of the in the sense of blame for him. and i never really have to be on the stress. i think it was actually the next night or 2 family was together and we were just kind of waiting for this conversation. it was initiated by darren and beth, as they were trying to say some things to us. there needs to be a, a statement. people need to express how they feel. there needs to be an unburdening of how you feel. and so in that process of things, and i said, there will be no blame in this house. there will be no fixing a blame we will all love you and we will all accept. we're okay as we are together in this in the guilt of it.

but to foot, if i want to do things differently, they may not be here where we are today because of it. but that's why he had that hock. because i was still even the guilt made me feel hot better that i realize i like me that i wasn't going to guess always drink it is with them happening like a family since it was gonna lose a child. so in a board just wasn't my platen i think probably the best response that we can have in a situation like that is to say it's not

a guilt placed, but it's a guilt shared. just like it's a grief shared because of that amount of guilt for being responsible for a life in this setting. it's really it's not only too much for one person to bear. i think it's something that's meant to be borne together. i'm sure you're in here. yeah, i just, i wrote, i think i know where it is right here. black to read the he was right and i know since i was 11 years old when that in 7th grade and hit it off in the way he was visiting me after when my surgeries and i says map, i have a religious favour task. can i stay with you through the rest of my surgeries

and afterward by recover? i said, i love you. of course you can stay with me. and that's my friendships. you can't. okay. i know. i got to see we're going to get right down to business yet, so i want to just examine, you know, and then we'll take a look at the x ray together. and then we'll kind of tell you what we're planning for thursday. what i'm doing, this is piano hard. the bone is when i'm impressed. it is very hard. it's like normal bone. ok. ok. now you see how your lip is scarred down a little bit. yeah. that's the other thing we're going to accomplish. been released the scars. huh. and creative vestibule in the mouth, okay, which is like this base between your cheek and we need to create that. ok,

so for lack of a better term, this is tooth ready. surgery ah, better plan survival. got like all going to start at the federal reserve. so there are you don't get a back oh heck, no. refrigeration came. well look at the rest, the 7 years bill it separately or what kinds of report ah, do you wish to phoenix has actually got an uncommon face, men's clothing and shoulder stuck. it's a kind of s got feminism,

but it's name is how camino above the clergyman of some of the whole model that of us is, was up on the job. but you know, it was that she lives in one of the most dangerous and patriarchal provinces of afghanistan cost when she was time, i miss that. sure. no, i shall do that before that updated anyway. i'm glad you got the notes that she does her best to fight for women's rights. i am not able to get that done. as you know, what i do, i know that she's not here by her nickname, the king, and this other guy that go over that was really, i'll go on there because i

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