and violence takes the life of a young african american man. every 5 hours is driven out because of what he's bent, the young life taken while handling the loaded guide and his brother accidentally shot here. we were playing with a gun with me and is recovering after being shot in the calm. no dad ever, shirley. she was virtually recognizable miraculously survived. but with life changing and your family like to watch, shorter is in this house like logic park, intertwined with devastating. before as well through the individual has to live with and how it all unfold it. ah ah, well,

i used to be a pretty girl. i was very happy, outgoing, very physically fit, successful. her son? i had a lot of friends. i was born those fearful. let me just look, i don't think, well they have the ultimate life. huh. one of the hardest things that i had the face was not having a face

to yours that i couldn't talk or drink were the most difficult. all i could do was grunt trying to adjust to have him one i i get dizzy very easily. i run into things seen at night is difficult. terriers ago my stitches got infected and my face actually exploded. when my 6th jaw replacement failed, that was the low point i

had a sonic too and i would feed myself ensure several times a day with a syringe. i drool incessantly because i couldn't shut my mouth. when i surgical in point is when my face is as symmetrical as possible and the scars have been released so that i can move and eat and talk without pain. and basically when the surgeon said array, this is as good as it gets, then on. now i'm done. oh,

when i got out of prison, i got a job, a creative, a barber shop, because i was a toller. i knew i came home. i can do the things i lisa will be unable to be there barbershop. that really started my journey. everybody come to the barber shop, looking for it. i was station until the problems were therapist. i mean we're can really therapist and most of us medical stuff.

she a little older, they lost their ignore. then these are not being met. so therefore they don't know how to live, so it's easy for them to give up on life. like me, i had a low expectation to life. i accepted that i accept the fact that i made that it's not with the personnel, so why they do things and make them feel wider more most of the resort the well ah, the i

was born raised country boy. i was in diapers 1st time i got my feet wet my dad took the night before i give you back and rivals which is why i was like, always i would like to have not working for

petition. milken toilet turkey and it was oil life. but as far as taking someone's life, i thought to be a lot worse in for friday morning and we had

a cold out 750 a little there was a shooting linwood room. ah, and 1st officer almost lightened up to the hall. i went on in to the bathroom in the hallway. when i got up there also, the mother told her so matthew, in both of them were covered in blood. she was screaming all my baby, my baby. it's my fault, my fault. a little boy brother, toner. i believe he was sitting in the hall outside the doorway. he was

keller and a ball. sit in position, he had his news welcome, his arms round his knees. this is mostly of a shock. up for there was in school lot. he was in raleigh calvin a little gun just from rejection from the boys in and so i headed out in the night and stuff and i guess just that particular morning i just forgot a ah panic net comes through in the midst of

a situation like that. is, is unlike anything else and you recognize, even without knowing anything of what is happening, you know, simply from the tone of voice. this is not a good phone call. i did not believe that from the injuries that i observed that england should well good people have bad things happen to a man. what tom and i thought was those curious mom got distracted and didn't secure the weapon. and little boy found that thought it was a toy cold trigger. shortage brother.

i've had 45 surgeries to date. i don't remember the 1st 8 thing because a half and when i was in this, in my coma the surgeries i've had have affected every single part of my bye. there was a bond graph from my lower right leg, my head shaved down twice. a bond graph from my upper left thigh, a rib taken part of my scapula. 2 thirds of my right breast was used to rebuild the skin on my face. and a skin graft was taken from my wrists. so every single bit

of my husband harvison to fix my face every day is a struggle physically on in chronic pain. but i'm tougher than mine. i could take it oh i and survives something and survival. so going through another surgery number 46.

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getting me brothers. i have a good are so max, one question, how many you guys want to change your life? okay, so hopefully in this presentation i will be able to give you some insight on how to do that, how to navigate your way of route. maria saffel up here. ah, growing up in the streets in the eighty's there was road dangers. those jobs murder data sticking to the level. right. a lot of young kids who bought a single brand. oh, oh no, no we are. we became what districts. we were the drug dealers who asked us to your

killers. we got to a lot of applications they saw by a guns and guys is accessible through us. and we had plenty of and you know, we get the possession of a gun. it kind of makes you, i'm not afraid anything. any more expectations living was very, very short. because i know i was spiraling. i only control and i only had no way out. ah. i got into an altercation at this gateway across trucks and i'll kill somebody. number young man, 18 years old, saying ages i was and i fell go the other way to be murder. and i said to myself, osborne transformed my sub and changed my mind and not deal with every problem or issue. i'll get into volley. i had to take my mentality, has changed my anger,

how react and respond so thanks. i me. so you guys all raise your hand so you want to change your life around. no gaga, 3 gifts. first gift is to give a life. the 2nd gift is to give a reason. and the 3rd one is what? pretty well, exactly. we will and the power choice we subject begun the choice thing with it was when can you read the over turkey and just who are happening? i had my shot getting a drug we immediately noticed 3 as you are out for the game. sessions

our encore and i saw that sliding glass door open. i knew it was back again, right around here. then you can see with that door open, it's kind of working out. now you closed the shades, you're closed that door. you can't see you here and what's inner bear? i saw 2 feet. you're standing right there. that door and they had a lot of my guns piled up on this table right here that i just came in the door and i stood or i hear and i yelled at him to stop 3 times. and they were right here. and as soon as they pop that door open and i realized i didn't recognize me and they were panicking,

trying to get out and they wouldn't stop. i told him stop 3 times. they wouldn't do it. and so i fired one shot right from there. and he fell right, karen grass and he would not quit moving and i chased the other guy out there. he jumped in the vehicle. he was pull off and i popped round off right about here in the car sitting right gary, so darn close it. like i said, the pair i was too close for his good fortune. so he took off in the car and i just stood here scream, this guy allison, i bought it. i went to his neighbor and she stood over him and that's when he was aggressive towards her and she fire a warning shot near course i was up the street,

but he said he'd shot somebody. the guy was not dead. he was hurt for certain. he was out of it. he was not using capable of doing a life, but he's pretty much groaning and but he died. everyone extend fair, tick would take 40 minutes. 30 minutes for the cops got here. pretty brutal watching the guide i i think about what kevin did is pretty brutal is pretty tough to do. pretty tough to live with. you know, i, i know he cried for 2 days. you know, after what happened when, as soon as you started thinking about it, you know, i mean what he done but, but then he would come to a realization i think that he just knew what he did he had to do. but it was, it was tough on him, really was, you know, i mean i, i still don't think that he's really quite come over here. fame knows what it's been a couple years now with

difficult to process the the guilt, the grief and guilt that i have from that day. like what i think of that gone, you know, that sounds like the biggest thing i i how stupid could i have been you know like what was that, what was i thinking like what is just a constant thing. i just, why did this happen and deal with that?

i think it's honestly ever something i've ever deal dealt with. dealt with just something has been there. i've come to terms with your family and things. my parents have said i reassuring me, and i remember exact things, but no, as a kid, you just believe what your parents age is, what you do, you know, so that i don't really know how i've dealt with it. honestly, i'm just forgotten about it mailing with

a bad welcome into is out this morning. been a great the thing is phrased this morning and dedicate ourselves to him. you know, there is us certain times in our lives that we encounter circumstances that we would never have planned about 10 years ago. december was one of those events in our lives for, for, for me and taylor. and that was when my younger son, matthew died. and he was 5 years old at the time. and he was a very surprised when a tragedy like this happens. i think one of the automatic responses is whose fault is it? for me, i did not 1st externalize that i 1st internalized that if i had

only he died as a result of a gunshot. for taylor, i'm not, i don't really think of the in the sense of blame for him. and i never really have i think it was actually the next night or 2 family was together and we were just kind of waiting for this conversation. it was initiated by darren and beth as i were trying to say some things to us. there needs to be a, a statement. people need to express how they feel. there needs to be an unburdening of how you feel. and so in that process of things, and i said, there will be no blame in this house. there would be no fixing a blame we will all love you and we will all except we're okay it's we are

together and this is just, you know, the guilt of it. i just would, i would have done things differently. may not be where we are today. because of it, but that's why he had that hock. as i was dealing with the guilt, they made me the hot better that i realized they lighten me. that i wasn't a clinician i guess i always drink the district and the happy girl i gave me away then it was going to lose the check out. there were the board just wasn't my plaintiff. i think probably the

best response that we can have in a situation like that is to say, it's not a guilt placed, but it's a guilt shared just like it's a grief, shared because of that amount of guilt for being responsible for a life in this setting. it's really it's not only too much for one person to bear. i think it's something that's meant to be borne together. i'm sure you're in here. yeah. i. i think i know where it is. right. well black wow long. but he wants to read this. he was right now. i know since i was 11 years old, we met in 7th grade and hit it off immediately. he was visiting

me afterward, my surgeries, and i said, mat has a really just save her task. can i stay with you through the rest of my surgeries and afterwards by recover? and he said, i love you. of course he couldn't stay with me. and that's my friendship. you can't okay. if you want to good. i know. hi. good to see you again. me ah, we're going to get right down to business. yes. so i want to just examine you now and then we'll take a look at the x ray together. and then we'll kind of tell you what we're planning for thursday. now what i'm doing is just feeling how hard the bone is. mm hm. and i'm impressed it. it's very hard dodge. it's like normal bone. ok. ok. now you see how your lip is scarred down a little bit. yeah,

that's the other thing we're gonna accomplish. gonna release these scars, ha, and create a vestibule in the mouth. okay. which is like this. yeah. base between your chicken gum. yeah, we need to create that. okay. so for lack of a better term, this is tooth ready, surgery data, i'm an m a t on the internet, but allows only be problems and much was going to invite everybody's lloyd. that wasn't a glitch. that was the feature that the people who designed the internet is all in a feature. the vibe administration's decision to leave afghanistan was correct in long overdue. however, the way americans longest war ended is a different question. it was a bunch to fair. the generals will most likely never be held to account,

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