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the huge concern about taylor's egg engine. you know, he was out land hole in. so what is he going to have to go through? i was young and i didn't understand what was going on at the time and it was difficult for me to process. and i looked back as like, i guess it wasn't the greatest naina shy my are from, from me i guess a member in distant from people in his house just the way of the way i've been dealing with it but foot known through family and everything. it's all about us, closer than i appreciate, they all done for me is changing my perspective on life. and i know that that. oh, i think about daily is how were matthew expect me to me an example. now what do you

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well, and we probably all needed to say they say, well, probably needed to be able to express this because to a great extent, we have suppressed our failings in order to be protected in order to hope all of this would turn out. well. let me i oh, nice. so a de la that way. he is strong. yeah. she is. uh huh. oh,

i see so clearly. huh. it's so fucking, really it actually. it felt very warm from october referred to a trophy. i remember watching the tree branches away. i felt peace for the 1st time. and once i got a telephone call from a detective about 2 in the her noon. she was in intensive care. and if they hadn't told me it was kristen,

i don't think i would have known that it was. she was just virtually unrecognizable . it was the next morning when we went to her apartment, then i went out on to the balcony and there were bandages bloody bandages needles. but the most dramatic thing i remember, and i still have a very hard time with this. there was actually still a piece of her jaw that was on the, on the full or the apartment, the floor or the balcony. and i don't think i've even told kristen this before. but that is probably what brought the whole thing most dramatically home to me.

to look at that balcony, now i remember those feelings assistant now it's a so unreal ah thought about what it must have been like from my friends. i have to clean up. there were pieces of teeth, i'm phones and so much life. and i can't imagine what heartbreak was said for them to have to face that it's so weird to go back in to that mindset to see that balcony and think about well, it's going to my hand as i sat there for going away it's ah,

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and then i asked you more south for example, how to pull my front. so screaming on the ground, these graham is lee. so look around the pole to alcorda. messy through miss dianne and they're like all 3 of those. so i'll pull my gun out slowly and in missed she missed up. i turned around start shooting twice in her when i 1st got 10 gun because it was so loud. and i seen tamera's full hit the ground tennis but i picked him up responding. well then i look in a walk over there was a one is for the one the back in one direction. so i just turned around as

well. when i was away, when i 1st heard it, i feel even well, the reason being is because i always justify to myself that someone does something to me or try to take my life. then it was just anything i dental and then realize how many labs i'm about to get his life. oh my belief is that you know all the things that you have done is recorded a good nice

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well guys come to your house and they do what happened appear you gig whatever measures . yeah. do you protect yourself and those around you the prosecutor try to do everything a good to find charges to push. yes we have it. cuz you guys were in my house and i didn't know if they were armed or not. there was dark windows were closed. i saw him standing there, i told him to stop. they wouldn't stop. they kept, i don't know where they were doing. and i said, okay, i mean, i'm alive as it like to say the whole thing when we last about 230 seconds and

then i got ugly. oh, it took almost a half an hour before the police showed up in age. not going to come in and do a dang until this scene secure in the scene wasn't secure because it took the guy 40 minutes to die. as a long time told the guy that somebody he kept reaching onto his belly wouldn't, it wouldn't roll over. and he kept reaching in his pants. i didn't know what it was reaching for. could have been a gun and i have, i don't know what he was reaching before he'd stare at me. he'd crawled towards me, new collapse and i don't know what his intentions were. he wouldn't, he wouldn't say a word so, you know, i was still a certified medical per, had time. if i felt the scene was safe,

i don't know what i could have done, but i would have done something, you know, trying to help the guy but hours a longer 3040 minutes in my life. i knew the guy was going to be on. i've seen enough death my life, my career. i knew there's there's nothing new to this guy was i wish i could put it behind me and move on like, never happen. i know i never will. i don't think anybody ever good

was here we get over it. i doubt it. i'd like to find somebody that has mm i felt i would have become a burden to everyone. i know i had a gun in my room and case someone broke and i'm going to do i know what my phone is. i'm going to end everything so wish pig on

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. mm. i'm doing mine on laura jane down to the bathroom. i can a shower, brush my teeth and get my hair done. or matthew us, he was in the bathroom as well. he was up on the counter. i'm not sure why is up on the counter. he just was for santo op to my mom's room. i seen the guy lying there on the underneath the left side of the med and i pay it up and i walked back into the bathroom where the gun on my hands out of curiosity,

is looking at it and trying to figure out what it does and how to work it and i solely proceed to take the safety of and then from there on, i talk the gun back, putting a around and then chamber. and i just remember i matthew says to me, you know, that was a gift from papa to mom for safety and i didn't answer and then i just hear a gunshot fan, so at 8 o'clock that same night, december,

1st one by one. we say good bye and on the last one. so like what did leaned over put my forehead against his a little buddy. he's going to do great things for god. i love you. i'll see you in the morning.

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