eric and prop gun fire isn't uncommon. well with a local skate going. 19 year old man shot in violence takes the life of a young african american man. every 5 hours is driven out because of what he's bent the young life chicken while handling the loaded guide. his brother accidentally shot here. we were playing with a gun with recovering after being shot in the calm. no dad ever, shirley, she was virtually recognizable miraculously survive. but with life changing in my to one shorter than this house like logic park, intertwined with devastating before as well through the individual has to live with and how it all unfold it. ah,

ah, well, i used to be a pretty girl. i was very happy outgoing, very physically fit successful. her son i had a lot of friends. i was one of those people that just look at it and think well they had the ultimate life. huh. one of the hardest things that i had the face was not having a face

to yours that i couldn't talk or drink were the most difficult. all i could do was grunt trying to adjust to have him one i i get dizzy very easily. i run into things. scene at night is difficult to readers ago my stitches got infected and my face actually exploded. when my 6th jaw replacement failed. that was

a low point. i had a son rick to and i would feel myself ensure several times a day with a syringe. i drool incessantly because i couldn't shut my mouth. when i surgical in point is when my face is as symmetrical as possible and the scars have been released. so that i can move and eat and talk without pain. and basically when the surgeon said or may this is as good as it gets,

then on. now i'm done. oh, when i got out of prison, i got a job your own that i created a barber shop because i was told i knew i came home. i can do the things i lisa will be unable to be there barbershop. that really started my journey. everybody comes with the barbershop of work conversation until the problems were therapist. i mean we're can really therapist and most of us mentors that

she will all know they lost their ignore and then these are not being met. so therefore they don't know how to live. so it's easy for them to give up on life like me, i had a low expectation to life. i accepted accept the fact that i made that with the personnel. so why they do things and make them feel like most of the result, the well ah,

i'm a born raised country boy. i was in diapers 1st time i got my feet wet. my dad took me out before i give you back a rifle. which is why i was like, always i would like to

have not working for my petition, open oil, hot turkey and it was oil alive. but as far as taking someone's life i thought to be a lot worse. a

for friday morning and we had a call about 7 50 am. there was a shooting linwood road. ah, 1st offshore, almost like when i got to the home. i went on in to the bathroom in the hallway. when i got there also, the mother told her so let you know. both of them were covered in blood sugar screaming all my baby. my baby. it's my fault, my fault. a little boy was your brother.

i believe he was sitting in the hall outside the doorway. he was trailer and a bowl slip in position. he had his new use. one of his arms ran news. just a stove, shock up for him. there was in school lot. he was from raleigh talbot, a little gun just from protection from the other boys in . and so i headed out in the night and stuff. and i guess just that particular morning i just forgot a

ah panic net comes to rule in the midst of a situation like that is, is unlike anything else and you recognise, even without knowing anything of what is happening, you know, simply from the tone of voice this is not a good phone call. i did not believe that from the injuries that i observed, that thing with sharevault good people have bad things happen to them or tom. and i think that was those curious mom got distracted, didn't, didn't secure the weapon. and little boy found it thought it was a toy, pulled the trigger and shot his brother.

i have had 45 surgeries. his 8. i don't remember the 1st 18 because a half and when i was in this michael, were the surgeries, i've had her a factors. every single part of my by there was a long grass from my lower right leg. my head shaved down twice. a phone graph from my upper left thigh, a rib taken part of my sky, filler. 2 thirds of my right breast was used to rebuild the skin on my face.

and a skin graft was taken from my wrist. so every single bit of me has been harvested to fix my face. thing every day is a struggle physically and chronic pain. but i'm tougher than i could take it alive. i survive something and survivable.

so going through another surgery number 46. you know, but we'll join me every thursday on the alex simon. sure. but i'll be speaking to guess of the world politics. small business. i'm sure business. i'll see you then i'm in the see on the internet. the allows all the problems and what was going to invite everybody's lloyd. it's not wasn't a glitch. that was the feature that the people who does owing to the internet does always, i imagine picking up

a future textbook on the early years of the 21st century. what other chapters, cold gun violence, school shootings, homelessness? first was my job and then it was my family. didn't was my savings. i have nothing. i have nothing and it's not like i don't try. i look for resources, i look for jobs. i look for everything i can to make this pass and i end up doing is passing the road to the american dream paved with dead refugees. it's this very idealized image. all of our america, native americans look past the gaps that happened every single day. this is a modem. history of the usa, my america, oh no, t o b, me brothers. i have a good are so maximum question. how many you guys want to change your life?

okay, so hopefully in this presentation i will be able to give you some insight on how to do that, how to navigate your way right here. self love you ah, growing up in the streets in the eighty's there was road angus. those dog learning a lot of young kids, a single bring on. oh no, no they are. when became dentistry, a drug dealer who asked us, you don't kill us. we got to a lot of notifications. they saw by a guns and guys is accessible through us. and we had plenty of in the possession of a gun. it kind of makes you. i'm not afraid anything. any more

expectations living was very, very short. because i know i was spiraling. i only control and i only had no way out. i got into an altercation at this gateway across threats, and i'll kill somebody. another young man, the 18 years old saying is i was and i felt guilty authority murder. and i said to myself, i was going to transform my sub and changed my mind and not deal with every problem or issue. i'll get him to volley. i had to take my mentality, has had to my anger how i react and respond to certain things. i mean, so you guys all raise your hands or you wanna change your life around. no gaga was 3 gifts. first gift is to give a life. the 2nd gift is to give a reason. and the 3rd one is what? jeopardy?

well, exactly. we will and the power choice, we decided to begin the choice thing with it was wanting to read the over and just so happened. i had my shot getting a truck. we immediately noticed re issued out for the gate. she's aware on a corner and i saw that sliding glass door open. i knew it was bad. a king right around 3 here. then you can see with that door open as kind arkwin erm. you

close the shades and you close that door. you can't see, you know, you and what's inner that i saw to figure standing right dirt at door. and they had a lot of my guns piled up on this table right here that i just came in the door. and i stood right here. and i yielded under stop 3 times and they were right here. and as soon as they pop that door open and i realized i didn't recognize me. and they were panicking, trying to get out and they wouldn't stop. i told him stop 3 times. they wouldn't do it. and so i fired one shot right from there. and he fell right darren, a grass and he would not quit moving and i chased the other guy out there.

he jumped in the vehicle. he was pull off and i popped round off right about here in the car sitting right gary, so darn close it. like i said, the pair i was too close for his good fortune. so he took off and the car and i just stood here scream with this guy. allison, i bought it. i went to a good neighbor and she stood over him and that's when he was aggressive towards her and she fire a warning shot near course i was up the street, but he said he'd shot somebody. the guy was not dead. he was hurt for certain. he was out of it. he was not, isn't capable of doing a life, but he's pretty much grown and but he died. ever ostend. fair tick.

what day? 40 minutes. 30 minutes for the cops got here. pretty brutal watching the guide i i think about what kevin did is pretty brutal is pretty tough to do. pretty tough to live with. you know, i know he cried for 2 days. you know, after what happened? you know, when, as soon as he started thinking about it, you know, i mean what he done but, but then he would to come to a realization i think that he just knew what he did he had to do. but it was, it was tough on him really was, you know, i mean i, i still don't think that he's really quite come over here fame. no, it's what, it's been a couple years now with

difficult to process the guilt, the grief and guilt that i have from that day like what i think it's that gone. you know, that's, i think the biggest thing i, i how stupid could i have been, you know, like what was it, what was i thinking, what, you know, i was just a constant thing. i just, why did this happen and dealing with that. i think it's honestly ever something i've ever deal dealt with. dealt with just something has been there. i've come to terms with your family and things. my parents have said why reassuring

me. and i remember exact things, but no, as a kid, you just believe what your parents age is, what you do, you know, so, but i don't really know how i've dealt with it. honestly, i'm just forgotten about it mailing with a red red welcome into his house. this morning, when a great the thing is phrased this morning and dedicate ourselves to him. you know,

there is a certain times in our lives that we encounter circumstances that we would never have planned. about 10 years ago. december was one of those events in our lives for from, for me and taylor. and that was when my younger son, matthew died. and he was 5 years old at the time. and he was a very surprised when a tragedy like this happens. i think one of the automatic responses is whose fault is it? for me, i did not 1st externalize that i 1st internalized that if i had only he died as a result of a gunshot. for taylor, i don't really think of the in the sense of blame for him and i never really have

i think it was actually the next night or 2 family was together and we were just kind of waiting for this conversation. it was initiated by darren and beth, as i were trying to say some things to us, there needs to be a, a statement. people need to express how they feel. there needs to be an unburdening of how you feel. and so in that process of things, and i said, there will be no blame in this house. there would be no fixing a blame. we will all love you and we will all except we're okay it's we are together and this is just, you know, the guilt of with by just what if i would have done things differently, may not be at where we are to me because of it. but that's why

he had that talk. as i was dealing with the guilt, it made me thought better that i realize i like me, that it wasn't like it's always doing. it is making the happy gala gave me away then it was gonna lose the check out there with the board just wasn't my place. i think probably the best response that we can have in a situation like that is to say, it's not a guilt placed, but it's a guilt shared just like it's a grief,

shared because of that amount of guilt for being responsible for a life in this setting. it's really it's not only too much for one person to bear. i think it's something that's meant to be borne together. and i'm sure you're in here. yeah. i, i think i know where it is that right? yeah. well black wow long. but he wants to read this, he was writing us. i know since i was 11 years old, we met in 7th grade and hit it off immediately. he was visiting me afterward, my surgeries, and i said, mat, have a really is with heck say her task. can i stay with you through the rest of my surgeries and afterward while i recover? i he said,

i love you. of course he couldn't stay with me. and that's my friendship. you can't okay. if you want to. i know i good to see you again. i'm we're going to get right down to business. so i want to just examine you now, and then we'll take a look at the x ray together. and then we'll kind of tell you what we're planning for thursday. now what i'm doing is just feeling how hard the bone is. mm hm. and i'm impressed it. it's very hard. oh, it is like normal bone. okay. okay. now you see how your lip is scarred down a little bit. yeah, that's the other thing we're gonna accomplish. gonna release these scars, aha, and create a vestibule in the mouth. okay. which is like this. yeah. base between your cheek and go. yeah, we need to create that. okay. so for lack of a better term, this is tooth ready? surgery dr. ah,

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