the older america, native americans look past the debt to happen every single day. this is a mountain history of the usa. by america. oh, naughty. when one letty reporting a 4 year old finding a don and accidentally shooting into them a gun violence is a uniquely american prob, good fire isn't uncommon. around with the local skate grain. 19 year old man, shot gun violence takes the life of a young african american man. every 5 hours is driven out because of what he's been 3 of the young life taken while handling. go loaded guy. he's rather accidentally shot here. we were playing with god when i was with paul, believe me, it is recovering after being shot and i had called go dad ever, shirley. she was virtually on a recognizable miraculously survived. but with life changing and your home like to

intruders in his house by kwasic park, intertwined with it was devastating before as well through the individual has to live with what they saw and how it all unfolded. ah, i used to be a pretty girl. i was a very happy outgoing, very physically fit successful. her son. i had a lot of friends. i was when those fearful that release look out and think well

they had the ultimate life. huh. one of the hardest things that i had the face was not having a face and 2 years that i couldn't talk or drink were the most difficult. all i could do was grunt trying to adjust to have him

one i i get dizzy very easily. i run into things. scene at night is difficult to readers ago my stitches got infected and my face actually exploded. when my 6th jaw replacement failed. that was a low point. i had a son rick to and i would feel myself ensure several times a day with a syringe. i drool incessantly because i couldn't shut my mouth. when i surgical in point is when my

face is alice symmetrical as possible and the scars have been released. so that i can move and eat and talk without pain. and basically when the surgeon said or may this is as good as it gets, then on. now i'm done. oh well i got out of prison. i don't get a job or a creative a barber shop because i was told

okay, well, i can do the things i lisa will be unable to be in a barber shop that really started my journey. everybody come to the barber shop, looking for it. i was station until the problems were therapist. i mean we can really therapist and most of us in business now. she a little older, they lost their ignore neither not being met. so therefore they don't know how to live, so it's easy for them to give up on life. like me, i had a low expectation to life. i accepted that i accept the fact that i made that it's not with the personnel,

so why they build things and make them feel like most of the resort, the well ah, the unborn res. country board. i was in diapers 1st time i got my feet wet

my dad took the night before i can even back a rival which is what i was like always i would like to have not working for me position. open toilet turkey and it was oil life but as far as taking someone's life, i thought to be a lot worse

in for friday morning. and we had a call about 7 50 am. there was a shooting. live with ro, ah, and 1st offshore, honestly, when i got to the home, i went on into the bathroom in the hallway. when i got up there also,

the mother told her so matthew, most of them were covered in blood. she was screaming all my baby. my baby. it's my fault, my fault. a little boy. a brother. i believe he was sitting in the hall outside the doorway. hey, was carla and a ball. sit in position, he had his new use with his arms round his knees. just a stove shock with her up torn there was in school lot.

he was in raleigh talbot, a little guy, just from a text from your voice in. and so i had it in the night and stuff and i guess just that particular morning i just forgot with the sale ah panic. that comes to rule in the midst of a situation like that is, is unlike anything else and you recognise even without knowing anything of what is happening, you know, simply from the tone of voice. this is not a good phone call. i did not believe that from the injuries that argued that they would sure, well good

people have bad things happen to a man. what harm and i think it was. does curry's mom got distracted and didn't secure the weapon? and there was i on but thought it was a toy pulling the trigger and shot his brother. i've had 45 surgeries. his 8 i don't remember the 1st 18 because a half and when i was in michael one the

surgeries i've had have a factors. every single part of my by there was a long grass from my lower right leg. my head shaved down twice. a bond graph from my upper left thigh, a rib taken part of my sky fla. 2 thirds of my right breast was used to rebuild the skin on my face. and a skin graft was taken from my wrist. so every single bit of me has been harvested to fix my face through every days a struggle physically and chronic pain. but

i'm tougher than i could take it why i survive something and survivable so going through another surgery number for you, so no big deal. for is your media a reflection of reality?

ah, in a world transformed what will make you feel safer? isolation, community. are you going the right way? where are you being led to somewhere? which direction? what is true? what is great? in the world corrupted, you need to descend a join us in the depths or remain in the shallows. ah, it's so, but i think the most basic, but i feel that if we did who bought,

i bought a dial tomorrow. i'm more than you wait, but i know from politicians to athletes and movies. delta musicals does it seems every big name in the world has been here. let's see. okay, but ms. you can pick out a booklet. it doesn't give me a glove. would you like me to you? said basil. makes dreams come true. that every one who fall in love with luc wide. mm. getting me brothers. i have a good are so last one question. how many you guys want to change your life?

okay. so hopefully in this presentation, i will be able to give you some or how to do that, how to navigate your way. uh, brooke wright sofa, love you ah, throwing up in the street in the eighty's. there was road names. those dogs murder data sticking to the level, right. like a lot of young kids or a single bring on oh no, no we are. we became what districts for this. you are the drug dealers who asked us your killers. we got to a lot of notifications. so you saw by a guns and guys was accessible to us and we had plenty o and you know, in the possession of a gun, it kind of makes you, i'm not afraid anything. any more expectation is

living was very, very short. because i know i was spiraling only petroleum, and i only had no way out. i got into an altercation at this gateway across threats. and i'll kill somebody. another young man that he's 18 years old saying is i was and i felt guilty authority murder. and i said to myself, osborne transformed my sub and changed my mind and not deal with every problem or issue. i'll get him to volley. i had to take my mentality, has had my anger, i react and respond to certain things. let me so you guys all raise your hands, you want to change your life around. no gaga was 3 gifts. first gift is to give a life. the 2nd gift is to give a reason. and the 3rd one is what? pretty well, exactly. if we will, in the power choice,

we subject begun to the choice. thank you. a in a it was with rebill were turkey, and just so happened i had my shot getting a truck. we immediately noticed 3 as you go for the gate. as soon as i went around the corner and i saw that sliding glass door open, i knew it was back in a king right around 3 here. then you can see with that door open his current door

working out. now you closed the shades and you're closed that door. you can't see, you know, you and what's inner. but i saw to figure standing right there, get door. and they had a lot of my guns piled up on this table right here. but i just came in the door and i stood are i here? and i yelled at him to stop 3 times. and they were right here. and as soon as they pop that door open and i realized i didn't recognize me. and they were panicking, trying to get out and they wouldn't stop. i couldn't stop 3 times. i wouldn't do it . and so i fired one shot right from here. and he fell right darren, a grass and he would not quit moving and i chased the other guy out there.

he jumped in the vehicle. he was pull off and i popped round off right about here in the car, sitting right garrett, so darn close. it, like i said, the pattern i was too close for his good fortune. so he took off in the car and i just stood here scream with this guy. allison, i bought it. i went to his neighbor and he stood over him and that's when he was aggressive towards her and she fired a warning shot near course i was up the street, but he said he'd shot somebody. the guy was not dead. he was hurt for certain. he was out of it. he was not using capable of doing a life, but he was pretty much grown in. but he died. everyone stand, fair, tick would take 40 minutes. 30 minutes for the cops got here.

pretty brutal watching the guide i i think about what kevin did. it's pretty brutal is pretty tough to do. pretty tough to live with. you know, i know he cried for 2 days. you know, have to happen here when, as soon as you start thinking about it, you know, i mean what he done but, but then he would come to a realization i think that he just knew what he did he had to do. but it was, it was tough on him really was, you know, i mean i, i still don't think that he's really quite come over yet. no, it's what, it's been a couple years now with

god. difficult to process the guilt, the grief and guilt that i have from that day. like what i think it's that gone. you know, that sounds like the biggest thing i i how stupid should i have been, you know, like what was i it was, i think like what? i was just a constant thing. i just, why did this happen and deal with that. i think it's honestly ever something i've ever deal dealt with dealt with just on and i've been there, i've come to terms with your family and things. my parents have said why reassuring me. i remember exact things, but no. as a kid, you just believe what your parents age is, what you do, you know, so,

but i don't really know how i've dealt with it honestly and just forgotten about it mailing with a bad welcome into his house this morning in a great. the thing is phrased this morning and dedicate ourselves to him. you know,

there is a certain times in our lives that we encounter circumstances that we would never have planned about 10 years ago. december was one of those events in our lives for, for, for me and taylor, and that everyone, my younger son, matthew died and he was 5 years old at the time. and he was very surprised when a tragedy like this happens. i think one of the automatic responses is whose fault is it? for me. i did not 1st externalized that. i 1st internalized that if i had only he died as a result of a gunshot. for taylor, i don't really think of the in the sense of blame for him and i never really have

i think it was actually the next night or 2 family was together and we were just kind of waiting for this conversation. it was initiated by darren and beth, as they were trying to say some things to us. there needs to be a, a statement. people need to express how they feel. there needs to be an unburdening of how you feel. and so in that process of things, and i said, there will be no blame in this house. there would be no fixing a blame. we will all love you and we will all except we're okay it's we are together and this is just, you know, the guilt of it. i just would, if i would have done things differently, may not be at where we are today because of it. but that's

why he had that talk as i was dealing with the guilt, it made me the hot better that i realize a layman me that it wasn't a clinic. i guess i always drink it is making the happy go like a family then was gonna lose the check out there with the board just wasn't my place. i think probably the best response that we can have in a situation like that is to say, it's not a guilt placed, but it's a guilt shared just like it's a grief, shared because of that amount of guilt for being responsible for

a life in this setting. it's really it's not only too much for one person to bear. i think it's something that's meant to be borne together. and i'm sure you're in here. yeah, i wrote, i think i know where it is that right? well black wow wrong. but he wants to read this, he was writing us. i know not since i was 11 years old when that in 7th grade and hit it off immediately. he was visiting me afterward my surgeries, and i said, matt, have a really vac favor task. can i stay with you through the rest of my surgeries and afterward while i recover? i he said, i love you. of course he couldn't stay with me. and that's my friendship. i

can't. okay. if you want to go home, i know i good to see if we can read ah, we're going to get right down to business. yes. so i want to just examine you now and then we'll take a look at the x ray together. and then we'll kind of tell you what we're planning for thursday. now what i'm doing is just feeling how hard the bone is. mm hm. and i'm impressed very hard. so it's, it's like normal bomb. okay. okay. now you see how your lip is scarred down a little bit. yeah, that's the other thing we're gonna accomplish. gonna release the scars ha, and create a vestibule in the mouth. okay. which is like this. yeah. base between your chicken gum. yeah, we need to create that. okay. so for lack of a better term, this is tooth ready? surgery that, that, ah,

when i see black marriage or lesson part of myself, i was growing like american spoke to me when white australia did not. those who say black lives matter is a movement we are importing from a marriage up. no, nothing of who we are. i lived in a world where wife lives mattered. and i was not was like missing. and i wasn't known from black america. i learned how to speak back to whiteness. aboriginal people of iraq more every day. we were up, most of them now with the police were out with she states, i'm scared that more children are going to grow up in the country that think says no racism, but they're more likely to end up in the criminal justice system. then there are other fellow friends in daycare

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