where a housewife could secure a regular employment status in the final semester with so what we've got to do is identify the threats that we have. it's crazy even foundation, let it be an arms race is on a very dramatic development. the only personally i'm getting to resist, i don't see how that strategy will be successfully, very difficult time. time to sit down and talk when i see black america, i see kind of myself. when i was growing up, like america spoke to me, when what australia did not have those who say black marsh magic is

a movement we are importing from america. no, nothing of who we are. i lived in a world where wide lives mattered. and i was not wide like missing and i wasn't known from black america. i learned how to speak back to whitefish. aboriginal people here on your every day were up loaded with the police were out with she states, i'm scared that more children are going to grow up in the country that think says no racism, but they're more likely to end up in the criminal justice system. then there are other fellow friends in daycare the c l e to fish get for that that will be okay with i will give her

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only father, thank you for the way that you have blessed and guided us and thank you for our family. by this occasion b as special as it is unique. we pray in jesus' name, a man oil in looking back sometimes. i may, this was a difficult memory for all of us to unpack and the try to address it. sometimes it helps, but one of the things was what were we initially concerned about in those early days? i still wanted taylor to be a happy little boy, and i don't know if how you'd be able to handle it. i didn't want the memory to haunt you all your life. obviously the huge concern about taylor's egging gen, you know, he was so glad whole. and so what is he gonna have to go to her who i was young and i didn't understand well as to what was going on at the time. and it was difficult

for me to process and i look back as like, i guess it wasn't the greatest nina shot everybody out from, from me, i guess a member and distant from people in his house. just the way of the way i've been dealing with it but but i know through family and everything it's all about us closer and i appreciate they all done for me is changing my perspective on life. and i know that that, oh, i think about daily is how matthew expect me to me an example. now what do you want me to live?

as a kind of big brother, i wouldn't want you to approve well and we probably all needed to say they stay well probably needed to be able to express this because to a great extent we have suppressed our failings in order to be protective in order

to hope all of this would turn out. well. let me assign her. oh see. so a de la. oh, he is strong. yeah, she is on oh . i see so clearly. ah. it's so talking really

about the it felt very warm. october referred to a churchy. i remember watching the tree branches away. i felt peace for the 1st time. and once i got a telephone call from a detective about 2 in the afternoon, she was in intensive care. and if they hadn't told me it was kristen, i don't think i would have known that it was. she was just virtually unrecognizable . it was the next morning when we went to her apartment and i went out on to the balcony and there were bandages bloody bandages

of needles. but the most dramatic thing i remember, and i still have a very hard time with this. there was actually still a piece of her jaw that was on the, on the full or the apartment of the floor or the balcony. and i don't think i've even told kristen this before. but that is probably what brought the whole thing most dramatically home to me to look at that balcony. now i remember those feelings is just unreal. it's as so unreal. i still thought about

what it must have been like for my friends, i have to clean up. there were pieces of teeth, i'm phones and so much life. and i can't imagine what heartbreak must have been for them to have to face that it's so weird to go back into that mindset to see that balcony and think about what was going through my headed as i shot there of the gunner my ah,

when i'm in jails, nickname, 40 for that i can leave i was i committed a resume. walking on the roadway down the steps to the last. norris i shot in a few more steps was up on a pool. my friend saw screaming on the ground. graham is lee.

so i'll look around the pole to alcorda. messy 3, miss dan. ally, all 3 of them had so i'll pull my gun out slowly and in missed she missed up. i turned around. start shooting twice in her when our freshman got a gun for the was so loud. and i see tamara's fall into ground tennis, but i picked him up responding. well then i look in a walk over there to was the see. one is for the one, the back nisha from a direction saw this turned around as well. i was away. ah.

when i 1st heard it, i feel he said, well, the reason being is because i always justify to myself that someone does something to me or try to take my life that it was justified everything i dental and then i realize how many people lives i impact my to get his life. oh, my belief is that when we die, all the things said to have done is recorded. he, oh, you're good. these are william bad. the lou

look forward to talking to you all that technology should work for people. a robot must obey the orders given by human beings, except where such order that conflict with the 1st law show your identification. we should be very careful about our personal intelligence at the point, obviously is to create trust, rather than fear i would like to take on various job with artificial intelligence. real summoning with a robot must protect its own existence with

a ah any guys coming to your house, they do what happened a beer. you gig whatever measures you have to you protect yourself and those around you the prosecutor try to do everything he could to find charges to push. yes. be a good because you guys were in my house. and i didn't know if they were armed or not. there was dark windows were closed, i saw him standing there, i told him to stop. they wouldn't stop. they kept, i don't know where they are doing. and i said, okay,

i mean ma'am, i've had as it who i say the whole thing only last about 230 seconds and then i got ugly. oh, it took almost a half an hour before the police showed up in age, not gonna come in and do a dang until this scene secure in the scene was insecure because it took a guy 40 minutes to die. as a long time ago, somebody he kept reaching on into his belly wouldn't it wouldn't roll over and he kept reaching in his pants and i didn't know what it was reaching for. could have been a gun and i have, i don't know what he was reaching before he'd stare at me. he crawled towards me, new collapse and i don't know what his intentions were. he wouldn't he wouldn't. so or so, you know, i was still

a certified medical person at that time. and if i felt the scene was safe, i don't know what i could have done, but i would have done something, you know, trying to help. i was the longest 3040 minutes in my life. i knew the guy was going to be on our scene of death. my life, my career. i knew there's there's nothing new to this guy. i wish i could put it behind me and move on like a wrap and i know i never will. i

don't think anybody ever good was here we get over it. i doubt it. i liked by to me. there's room i felt i had become a burden to everyone. i now i had a gun in my room and pace. someone broke and i'm

going to do and know what my phone is now. i'm going to end everything. and so wish ping and things are just gotten out of control. c c i don't know. c any under way, something to walk out in the balcony and down. and you sit here for a minute and think of out of favor of appeals of, of me. a gun to forgive me for an amount's ill.

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roommate screen. and then there's 3 weeks later i woke up from a coma and i wish i survives my stuff every day. i'm alive. i'm alive. her for check in

mm. i'm doing my normal routine down to the bathroom. i can a shower, brush my teeth and get my hair done. as well. matthew, us. he was in the bathroom as well. he was up on the counter. i'm not sure why is up on the counter. he just was a talk to my mom's room. i think i'm lying there on the underneath the left side of the med and i pay it up . and

i walk back into the bathroom with the gun on my hands and out of curiosity is looking at it and trying to figure out what it does and how to work it. and i slowly proceed to take the safety off. and then from there on, i talked the gun back, putting a around in the chamber. and i just remember i matthew says to me, you know, that was a gift from papa to mom for safety. and i didn't answer and then i just hear a gunshot and

so at 8 o'clock that same night, december, 1st one by one. my say good bye and on the last one. so like why did cleaned over put my forehead against his i little buddy

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