hey, was good news, a lot of people out of the windows and so i was a mom and public. a lot of people shake my head. i fail on my dads stuff like that . do brill definitely sees po as his role model wants to be like coun admires everything about his day care. fine is very strong. we're going to be friendly with i know that will has been through a lot of things in his younger years. i think he probably just said that he went to jail. he did sing years like that was probably just straight for oh yeah, i did, seniors and joe and i sent her away for murder exam. well, they're needing him now. i was just like, well that was the past,

but how did you overcome all of day a judge for him? honestly, he's a strong, mentally, strong, to overcome all day in such as deal with in, in come out a good person with when he 1st moved up here. if we had ruined a town for something really you the front door wide open was ours. get in and out. we had no fears. it shall change pretty fast. i of devices that help me, you know what's going on around my place?

247. the crane trip wires. i know somebody's been walking the way around my house. i put up motion detector is i'm not gonna tell you whether out. each one gets off its own signal, saw your own house, which one activated i can tell the sound of every car that the so she was road. i know exactly who it is without looking at. so i has how, where i am and things going around me. i put things to where i can get to him. no matter what situation developed. whether be, know a day or the middle of the night. ah, i'm afraid to go to bed. i actually am at times i think my wife afraid to have me laying nursery. i wake up screaming. i wake up last. i

dreamed her horrible. i can hear myself talking. i know i'm in bed, but i can't share. lou, i see things that i have to rationalize is israel. ah, i see images on a wall. i see people standing already i say i'm looking at those current chinese shape that occur or similar stanon or a my dream and again. and that's the scary part, is waking up in reacting to something that isn't real. how i me react to it. oh yeah, it's every night is

a different experience. oh, i really live this every day. people look at me i've got some really good friends. it really didn't do people make on that day given how you doing during the day to day he's gone this some time thing a little bit. yeah

. handlers. we been married 25 years. our life is pretty much right around here. you rabbi harley was like 6 weeks old, wearing down a highway fortunate, almost getting it where you go. i took when looked at that dog and i fill e mean. well, it parties 14, almost 15 years old. davila born was an animal you spend that much time rude. i've never had anything or you weren't so devoted to me. he would give up his own

life for me and i 2nd those were hard. he's going to go right up here. i got cedar tree down over here. hey, i'm gonna pull it up. i'm gonna make bench right here. i got this crush marble. we're all done. i'm gonna frame and cover it with a white marble rock. this is what i've been working on. i'm gonna paint all this lettering in so looks cool. i'd usually most in depth, soul searching and pondering things cetera, or just like this. there's no phone,

there's no ged. my quiet place. and i spend most had time reflecting on harley. my family can of course that happened here, but never goes away. with looking through his eyes. when i look into was i seen his father wasn't there. and when i looked, and it was a thing, his mother didn't care what to look into was as i saw, death and destruction. and when i looked through his eyes, i saw suicidal button before looking to was i was sitting down in

a chair and he's saying in the morning to get him from here to variable was his mother will be there. was this part really working? there are looking to was on the scene as little care was hurting. so i thought to myself like, was my position because i want to give him money, but the week when twitching, he was ever kind of funny. so i say the weed or the crack, he said no, i need somebody to get me there and back. i listen to was odd to say the truth. you now sharon, he looked to move to smirk like may i was even karen. i know the story. oh to well, when i was your age i see using myself. say i was the father, this child i was raised by the streets. i may grow cheese sandwiches over care. see he, i was a high school dropout. i spear minimal drugs. i didn't pay them some robins with a neighborhood. so see, i was a hostile on a block. i'd been down from the cups until i got caught, and i just sit near court. now i'm back on the street. this isn't my la true. i'm here to bring hope to philly's only you. it was good to know what made you want to help. i so i look and see i when i look and see eyes, i saw image of myself in

blue. 2 when you come back and show community, regardless if you want to help and not people may not want to embrace you. so forgiveness is a lot to a person and need to speak with a new guy at a brother. that was our ministry in that was slimy days and when to shoot me there's always whispers in getting, shooting and this and that to go to what my pass me. i know he was

me card there. we were friends on a screen corner brought up he definitely wanted to murder with, and it scared me to know that this guy killed disguised brother. and then it was hard talking to him and talking to him until they talked to one another. when he was in the marble shop, the name is a you know, that's i to, for minute i was like, how give me a 2nd. i was going myself, the guy that i'll do with you. i don't want to hear her say now i want to talk to you. when he said that i said okay, i was just about, hey, the se offer give you a new window. they sniff a guinea worries. i know exactly what's what it was about. i know him, he wanted to kill, will an escape me even said his day. now. you know i'm talking to you and i'm

telling you from my heart. but these are 2 men at any given time. he could feel some kind of wet in any given time to help people. i had a still agree with this. there people are headed look to say are okay about what he said. that was my best friend. okay. about what he said, that was my nephew. ah ah ah ah,

when i see black manager, i see part of myself. when i was growing young, like america spoke to me. when why destroyed it did not. those who say black marsh magic is a movement we are importing from america. no, nothing is who we are. i lived in a world where wide lives mattered. and i was not wide like missing. and i wasn't known for black america. i learned how to speak back to whiteness. aboriginal people here at law every day. we were out loaded system now with the police were out war with she states, i'm this kid that more children are going to grow up in the country that think says no racism, but they're more likely to end up in the criminal justice system than there. although fellow friends in daycare

so what we've got to do is identify the threats that we have. it's crazy even foundation, let it be an arms race is on a fence bearing dramatic development only personally and getting to resist. i don't see how that strategy will be successful, very difficult time time to sit down and talk. ah, it's what i think the most basic, but i feel back believe go, he did. who bought? i bought off the dial tomorrow. a couple of these on your way, but i know from politicians to athletes and movies don't to musicals, does it seems every big name in the world has been here last year? hope of miss euclid corpus christi school. ah. wish them budget when you get the call for anything unusual booklet. people does not give me a glass,

would you sport? but she said basil makes dreams come true that every one who falls in love with people threatening like what me when i was around them every day i would feel different. wow. some days i will feel like i hope, you know, they are the day and over days i'm like, wow, they're getting better at it because no matter what his brother go, not knowing, look in a picture bill, i just gotta kill my brother. so that's not easy to but here when

matthew died, taylor was 8 years old. so trying to figure out his emotional state and what he was actually feeling was difficult. well, what kind of guilt does he caring about? this was always a big concern of mine. and so we spoke of it to him in terms of being an accident with for many years we didn't have any type of weapon in the hall room from shot guns, hand guns, rifle, everything. got rid of all that stuff. when he was about 12, he started expressing again an interest in wanting to shoot when it would come up in those moments. how do you, how do you feel?

you know, how, how do you think are you, do you think you're ready for that? and we've, we've shown a lot sense to then i believe that the mind informs the emotions and this is why i chose to shape things for tailor the way i did and to give him the information that i did so that as he came to understand these things his feelings would follow and i believe they have to me it was important. he comes through this only other side. okay.

yeah, that's pretty much about the anesthesia about do you have any questions regarding anesthesia for me now about the surgery now? now i had total face, i now think total faith with with a thank you. c with kristin begin, us is now a 47 year old woman who has suffered a gunshot wound to the mandible,

upper neck and mid face period. she has gone through numerous reconstructive surgery and currently has a mature bone graft in place. that is housed by a titanium mesh period. today she requires a placement of 5, osh, integrated pictures, removal of foreign bodies as well as deep adding have a graft we probably see $50.00 to $60.00 gunshot wound pension per year on which $1012.00 of them require major reconstruction. they are what we call also. i have also is to this place tissue or to basically remove it, blow it away if you will. a lot of individuals who come to us with dice or won't they want to be reconstructed to what they look like 10 years ago,

i always told them reconstruction is just that it reconstructed, if not normalcy. every reconstructed tissue is never as good as the natural tissue that was lost with fe for taking his brother's life. and i think he did that because of the person become mentally for gaming by his advocating 1st. and with that, it was like really impactful. i see new and i was like, wow,

i think i've to be forgiven blah. so pay attention forgiveness in tce are paying us. that's when we, i mean we mainly try to do is educate our community about that issue about how you deal with it. but there's a forgiveness, empties i able to heal yourself and still live your life in a harbor so much anger and frustration. and he, we all grew up believing aladdin districts told us that we had to behave a certain way that we could back down from a company that we could the college asked to whenever may. all. busy those things were wheaton action towards you don't deserve a reaction. sometimes you just have to say, you know what, i'm, which is ignoring and let it go. because you know, any given moment these situations, google harbor believe day or the other week, i'm talking about sleep day when i chose to live in that same life that we know

that people we grew up with. been so bob reach up to us. right. because stuck always his 1st forgiveness is really for yourself. first, a lot of people go around harbor a lot of emotions, anger, frustration, any heart stuff like that and it can't live and my son got killed. i feel that when i'm laid it on me, i will not. i held myself accountable last bill myself account and i wasn't a good file, but that's still my boy started me to the day where you are. we are. do i let him know that you must have that in? yeah, to have mailed it in. are you going to be, are you still use also a there's lost my apron on a team rocket with an office on balance it with i know i understand what people say. you never want by your child. i guess like mine the most part is filled in the world. and then i know that person life was too

consistent. and then they'd have to keep this. i gave myself a long time ago. you know, when i started the transformation, that's the reason why i wanted to change my life. so i could figure myself oh, we're into it. i never really. hello matthew, this is i guess the same person. i got cell phone, but you can only help with feel alone or something like that happens. and like, you're the only one out there that's feeling this way. i could feel there's all

different types of groups in my class, andrew and jason, very different from other people. if i'd enjoy, they understood me more than the others did. so yeah, that's what i told her. yeah, i don't think that was the right decision. but to make a bob mike bomb. yeah. me and tiny met in 6th grade. he was about half of my height . i just nicknamed him tiny kids. i hope we need someone to shoot a gun, usually tiny, that's kind of his position and he are cast the people with them. so people would say like, oh goodness,

your brother died. so why do you still on guns certain you have gotten rid of those a long time ago? and my answer is no. and guns fascinated me. wow. how like the mechanics of on the stuff. that's always why i'm fascinated with stuff like this and like mechanical stuff like that. but my idea of guns has not changed in the fact whether i should own them or not, is changing the effect of safety. today, we're going to pull up a banana. that's my nana because you know why not the idea of taylor being involved nail in things when he wants to go shooting. when i know that one of the experiments that they're going to do is going to involve an explosion, one of the things that are rely on this is that for years i have poured into him safety and i just stick it in

a perfect. i do know that tiny held the gun not knowing how to blow it and he has guns all the time and i trust him to be around me. i'm not like yo put that down. you're gonna kill someone because any and he's not a murderer. it was an accident you can like put in the clip of like him like getting blown up. i think the accident happened because that was god's timing for matthew. and i do believe that's how god intended it to happen. that's what he, what down in taylor's taylor's book, a life we don't really know what was going to come out of these explosions, each explosion that we do. we don't know what's gonna happen, but i trust god that whatever happens, it's gonna be his will. and his timing for us.

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