hard to believe nazis were really added. we'll go getters, transit camp as well. they were coming merely coming in to wait for the training to go to the dog house. so the more i was this was just me a stop on their voyage. what you wrote in the the book, i guess books for did you write? i'm sorry. i wanted to come to run a theme. is a theme and judaism in play with the way that we count the numbers on the letter the way off. exactly. i wanted to room 18, was that the more sure where the buy is a personalized torture for story. starting at the end of 42 dead bodies were cremated in terms crematorium in the form of the jewish ghetto. a

divine letters. the letter is egg, off the 2nd letter 8 or hitler, his age letter, a red circle around i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very high provincial as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me, but when i would be asked if i forgiven the guys to try to take my life, i would say to the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life at time me to value life in the sanctity of life, we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or seem to

dropping it very, very cold. there's almost like there was electricity in the air. the air on my body would stand up and just to take it into almost everyone that walk through that donald didn't walk back was a lot to take in there. i yeah, i don't even know what to happening and if you were going to die and you knew it, there's something known as the martyrs. prayer. ok. here is the lord your god. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure it is always more than once. the torture has to be led down. not knowing it was going to happen,

your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening right? it's somehow going to live somehow going to survive and from fights. you've been an attack, you've gone through. i'm sure your brain and the exact thing will that won't. yeah . are you close off the outside world? you turn in? this isn't happening to me and this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up, be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace could hit me when i was attacked by the skins. was just, i changed the also understanding conclusion that i wasn't gonna make it out of it. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is a jewish like that you just want to go home, right? you just want to your bed, your mom and you go, you want to go to where you feel safe. at that moment i did not feel safe and i

knew enough cops that were involved with the white power movement. so they're not here that they're not the best able to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know, most of the chairs are in close play and probably still, i wouldn't know. one point after i was out of the skinheads for quite a while, i was arrested. it's already in jail for what kevin does best being as smart and drunk and not listening to authority. i've always had a problem with authority, and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time i still had not covered up all of my tattoos. and one of the tattoos i had was quite vulgar in quite hateful. and there are symbols that anybody in the white supremacy world knows instantly sees in his way,

knows what it means that it was not anything. i still believe that of course, but it was still tattooed on me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up in a cell block with someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sent him to go back to prison. most likely. and i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew so i was going to tell the truth and i was gonna say my niece in letting know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. but it brought it down to know

that i didn't cover of the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't even about me. it was about other people and about sending a message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past. and that, that really had home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i had really never thought about. i kept living in the past, and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god,

will we? but all the way through the tunnel in round the corner and headed down the little hill and i saw 3 crosses. there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking in english. made mention that this is where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd or i can taken over it and occupied i and was using the camp ah, as a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have blocked. and been executed or walked in beyond ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of. okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy stripped it out and let me know that it's real. one of those people came back and this is where they met or it is very true. so we weren't

torture to force record sure to hear if you'd like to do today. immigration, i mean, every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being himself, being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people and convinced a lot of people that it was right. i should feel shame. shall we try to do right from this point. oh, well this is a huge, huge step. there were a few places at john and i had stopped and john brought some, some stones and i had asked him to bring me, ah,

from jerusalem. because i thought jerusalem being the holy city, ah, and the whole, his place to the jewish faith. she none of these people made it there. count. she was right around the corner. when the memories be for a blessing man always be remembered. ah, i walked to all the grey stones and i shot only one gravestone. i didn't have a rock on and i made sure i put a rock there so everybody knows that they're not allowing me on anything that really hit me as about a 3rd of the more just numbers. they didn't have names. so it's, there was bodies in the ground and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody that ah

oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snapped out this horrible place where the horrible camps around europe know the stones in jerusalem on a rock only in quite the day. john, it has once you realize that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what it's worth along his voyage of also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people that are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i, i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said,

but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people to, to the truth that ignorance and fear breed hatred. we don't have to be afraid with, honestly for you, but basically medial lowest bonds are deal with project jewelry with that other little money. and i love it with

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who is the aggressor today? i'm authorizing the additional strong sanctions today. russia is the country with the most sanctions imposed against it. a number that's constantly growing. i figure which of the problem was the question, as you speak on the bill in your senior, mostly mine or wish you were banding all imports of russian oil and gas new g. i. g with joe by imposing these sanctions on russia. you know, has destroyed the american economy, so there's your boomerang. i know, so kevin kept some of the stones that he had, and i asked him,

as we discussed it, what to do with those stones. he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have so i was very let him to go to ashes for why exactly a auschwitz? well, places are a 1000000 people die there, no 1000000, 100000. they know of to know would you be willing to be awake at 4 to 5 in the morning tomorrow? for, for a you said all the places you can visit do like ashes for a little bit ago. i'm serious. i did take a moment the park lunch is to say and try and catch my breath. breaking down, realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is,

should. oh gosh. oh, kevin fell on my shoulder. ah, ah a so rece kersats. ah, it is you're walking through which we came to the destroyed josh

and it was quite literally the in the line that was where the tracks start coming to that line was part of the spiritual journey that i belonged for 20 years in a cabin sponsors part of our national anthem singing about truce our dream of 2000 years. ah, oh i, [000:00:00;00]

i figured out here and walked down. there's one building standing. it's the last building remaining from those areas which is where we were yesterday, everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, like the numbers were off, they came here. i would say you're right, ah, this is close. this goes on for ever. ever. answer your call. yeah. we get this money, thousands of people, please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory

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use even probably one of my changing events in my life and they're going to take a long time to take all this to a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion all this, hey, i don't want it to be a because i don't have anybody dave. i was angry in place to project it. i've never in my life had to process something. i've always been sorry. hey ok, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's going to take me a long time to understand i think more people should use

when i for and i think about going to the trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed. but they were brainwashed where they were ready to kill a brow them because it was a jew. i don't know where the education would make a difference. but at the most of what drop out from school, they weren't interested in education in the end result was you die wyoming up at your own end of the line. and it was an end of the line for you. but it was in the line for us to your mom and dad and your brothers, what we went through allies were turned upside down

to one of those that ever again, i can't think of anything worse than a family. they have to go do something like that. if i ever apologize to the note with john story is a story of hope in the story of victory, the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came and to where he

is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families i've, they're going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family but say like a like karen, we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survive because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to, to try to improve myself as a human being. and what i came back to society and be ready and available just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change. it is possible to change this possible to come somebody else. and i know some of the people that were involved in my attack or change for the better. some of more or less stay the same . you can't really expect society to change. it begins with you.

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