or t smooth. next, even our video agency, roughly all band on youtube with fights, wanted to go and pay my respects hon. all those who lost our license, the hands of the 3rd. right. and i wouldn't want to do it with anybody other than john. honestly, you know, horrible atrocities that affected millions and millions and this is the ideology that i, that i, you know, live 5 or 4 years a model is journeyman. since it's harder than mine, big jewish had something to turn to. he didn't, he left something that was like a family type relationship and moved back into the real world,

living in israel. he finally feels at home and he feels like he's with his people and a living with this. i know that that's something i'd like to feel in life. you know, i'd like to feel that i do belong to something and i have something to look forward to and i have something to believe. i'm not sure what it's going to be basically turned myself to be a real american patriot. but i don't like the direction that my country is going a whole lot. when i will, where my young with y'all, because it is people as he room with earlier full then kind of overwhelmed with emotion, started shaking a bit. and as i went into laboratory a few moments ago, i get sick ah,

going to camp it makes it. it's like putting in the face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v. programs and documentaries, you know, written by some guy who wasn't there on the page from history book. it's real long history where you can fix the world. the best of your ability is that just starts with you and the way that you live your life. you are which what you're doing now is going to line be going back and fixing some of the wrongs. one point stop it. that's enough. things need to be different. and they gave me more than 1500 years when prison a small fortress, their destiny was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about 500 from them were tortured to death. here most others perish after the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people of the jewish faith die there. i find it hard to believe not really avenue in. we'll go getters,

trailing camp as well. we're coming merely coming in to wait for the train to go on to dock house. so the more this was just merely a stop on their voyage. what you wrote in the the book, i guess book for did you write, i'm sorry. i wanted to come to run a theme you they seen and judaism and play with a boy that we count the number a letter the way out. exactly. i wanted to remain team was the mortuary, where the by the person i was charged for story starting at the end of 42, the advisors were cremated in terms crematorium in the form of the jewish get them a heads off

a boy letters the letter is egg off the 2nd letter and dates for his age letter. i thought it had something to do with the blood. how to read circle around. i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very high provincial and as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me . but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanning guys to try to take my life, i would say it's the best thing that happened to me because it gave me like a time, me to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or seem to

drop and get very, very cold. like there was electricity in the air. the hair on my body would stand up and just to take it into know it almost everyone watches like donald didn't walk . there's a lot to take in there. i yeah. i don't even know what's happening. if you were going to die and you knew it. there's something known as the martyrs prayer here is the lord your god. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure there's always more than one it would be torture has to be laid down. not knowing if it's going to happen. your

brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening right and somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks. you've gone through. i'm sure your brains and the exact ones. yeah. are you close off the outside world? you turn in this isn't happening to me. this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up, be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't says, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace could hit me when i was attacked by the skins is just, i came to the also understanding conclusion that how was it going to make it out? and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is a jewish like that you just want to go home, right? you just want your bed, your mom and you go, you want to go to where you feel safe. at that moment, i do not feel safe and i knew enough cops that were involved with the white power

movement. so they're not, you know, that they're not the best able to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know, most of the chairs are in clubs play and probably still all i went down at one point after i was out of the skinheads for quite a while, i was arrested in jail for what kevin does best being smart and drunk and not listening to authority. i've always had a problem with authority. and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time i still had not covered up all of my tattoos. and one of the tattoos i had was quite vulgar in quite a phone and there are symbols that anybody in the white premise world knows. and instantly season hinsley knows what it means. that it was not anything.

i still believe that of course, but it was still tattooed on me and you couldn't make it go away. and i wound up in a cell block with someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sentenced to go back to prison. most likely. and i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew so i was going to tell the truth and then i was going to say my east and let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. and it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. it brought it down to know

that i didn't cover up the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't good about me. it was about other people and about sending a message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past and that, that really had home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i have really never thought about. i kept living in the past and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god. when we,

when all the way through the tunnel and rounded the corner and headed down the little hill and i saw 3 crosses and there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking in english, made mention that this is where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd reich had taken over it and occupied high and was using the camp, ah, has a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have blocked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it took what little bit of. okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back and this is where they met her. it is very true. so they

weren't tortured. of course, richard here, she liked june in the garage and i mean every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being themselves, being people with the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people and convinced a lot of people that it was right. i should feel show it's ready to write from the sport. oh, well this is a huge, huge step. there were a few places at john and i had stopped and john brought some some stones and had asked him to bring me ah,

from jerusalem. because i thought jurors on being the holy city ah, and the holies place to the jewish faith. none of these people made it, their challenge was right around the corner. memories be for a blessing man, always be remembered. ah, i walked through all the gray sounds and i shot only one grey stone that didn't have a rock on. i made sure i put a rock there so everybody knows that they're not alone. they are in a thing that really hit me is about a 3rd of them were just numbers. they didn't have names. so it's there just bodies in the ground and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody that ah

oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snapped out this horrible place where the horrible camps groaned. europe know the sound from jerusalem on a rock? oh. inquired the day john, it has once you realize that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what it's worth along is worried. you also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people who are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best

to try to educate people to, to the truth that ignorance and fear breed hatred. and we don't have to be afraid. ah ah ah

a ah, ah, i know mr. kevin kept some of the stones that he had, and i asked him,

as we discussed it, what to do with those stones. he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have. so i was going to go to ashes for why exactly auschwitz? well places for a 1000000 people died there? no. 1100000. if they know of to know, would you be willing to be awake at quarter to 5 in the morning tomorrow? for for a he said all the places you can visit do the expansions for a little bit ago. i'm curious. i did take a moment, the park lunch is to sit and try and catch my breath. breaking down, realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is shooters. we crossed to the

dashboard. kevin fell on my shoulder crime. mm. a meeting, i'm sorry so, so, so in just a thought today raised our kinetic kersats symbol. mm . disease is you walking through bunch with ah, we came to destroy the cache. and it was quite literally the in the line

that was where the tracks are coming to that line was part of the spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years with part of our national anthem. thinking about truce or dream of 2000 years. ah, i, [000:00:00;00]

i go down here and walk down, there's one building standing. it's the last building remaining for those centers and which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this for on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, like the numbers were off, they came here, i would say, right? ah, this is close discussed on your call. yes, it's more to thousands of people. please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory.

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ah, [000:00:00;00] ah, [000:00:00;00] a even dessert probably one of them was like changing events in my life, american life. trying to take a long time to take all the sense i feel a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotional, this hate, and i don't want it to behave because i don't have anybody. they was angry. i have no place to project it. i've never in my life had to process something. and i've

always been sorry, hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come with and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed, but they were brainwashed for they were ready to kill a brow them because it was a jew. i don't know where the education would make a difference, but the most would drop out from school. they weren't interested in education. in the end result was you dying in wyoming up at your own end of the

line. it was an end of the love for you, but it was in the line for us to you mom and dad and your brothers. what we went through a go that ever again. i can't think of anything worse than a family to have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize to you know with john story is a story of the story of victory. the whole story of his life,

this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came and to where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families that are either going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family, but say like a like can we have a child is involved in a racist organization? what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived? i definitely know that i survived because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to try to improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to change it as possible to come somebody else. and i know some of

the people that were involved to my attack or change for the better some of more or less stay the same. can't really expect society to

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