[000:00:00;00] a earlier pull then overwhelmed with emotion start shaking, embed, and as i went to laboratory a few moments ago, i did get thick. wow. going to camp it makes it like putting in a face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v programs and documentaries, you know, written by some guy who wasn't there on the page from history book. it's real life is doing what you can fix the world. the best of your ability is that just starts with you and the way that you live your life, you are, which what you're doing now is gonna be going back and fixing some of the wrong

price. you can at one point, stop it. that's enough. things need to be different and they gave me more than 1500 years when prison, a small fortress, their destiny was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about 500 from them were tortured to death. here, most of the parish i for the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people in the jewish faith die there. i find it hard to believe from nazi or really avid, in real getters, transit camp as well. people are coming merely coming in to wait for the train to go off the dock house. so be more house stuff and i was just curious to stop on your voyage. what you wrote in the the book, i guess book what did you write? i'm sorry. i wanted to come to run

a theme because they think judy is in his life. with a letter that went off, i wanted to see where my team was more sure where the body is a personal torch for story. starting at the end of $42.00 dead bodies were cream. i didn't turn this crematorium in the form of the jewish ghetto, a divine letters. the letter is age off. the 2nd letter age for his age letter, a red circle around. you know, i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very hypervigilant as well. there's to certain things that i don't

feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me . but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanning guys to try to take my life, i would say it's the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life time, me to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or you seem to dropping it very, very cold. there's almost like there was electricity in the air. the air on my body would stand up and just to take it into know it almost everyone that walk through that donald do walk. there's a lot to take in there. i yeah. i don't even know what's happening. if you were going to die and you knew it. there's something known as the martyrs.

prayer. ok. here is the lord your god. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure there's always more than once. the torture has to be laid down, not knowing what was going to happen, your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening. right? it's somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in this tax. you've gone through. i'm sure your brain and the exact thing will that won't. yeah. are you close off the outside world? you turn in? this isn't happening to me, and this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up. be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing

that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace could hit me when i was attacked by the skins just when i came to the old one understanding conclusion that i wasn't going to make it out. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is, tuition like that. you just want to go home, right? just one your bed a lot. when you go, you want to go where you feel safe. at that moment i did not feel safe and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement or not you're that they're not the best people to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know, lots of the sheriff's department and it was quiet and probably still off. i went down to one point after i was out of the school for quite a while i,

i was arrested and thrown in jail for what kevin does best being more drunk and not listening to authority. i have always had a problem with authority. and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time. and i still had not covered up all the way to tooth. and one of the things i had was quite vulgar in quite a form. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread, the world knows and instantly sees and his way knows what it means and it was not anything i so please of course, but it was still tattooed on me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up in a cell block was someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sentenced to go back to

prison. most likely can. i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew. so i was going to tell the truth and then i was gonna say, my east and let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. and it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. huh. it brought it down to know that i didn't cover up the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't even about me. it was about other people and about

sending message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past another that really had home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i had really never thought about. i kept living in the past and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god. will we? but all the way through the tunnel and rounded the corner and headed down the little hill. i saw 3 crosses and there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking in english, made mention that this is where the soldiers lie when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd, i can take over it and occupied i and was using the cam ah, as

a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have locked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it. took what little bit of okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back and this is where they met her. it is very, for those who were in charge of the 4th record. sure to hear your should like to do to immigration. i mean, every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being himself, being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know,

knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people and convinced a lot of people that it was right. i should feel shame showing try to do right from the sport. oh, oh, this is a huge, huge to there were a few places at john and i had stopped and john brought some, some stones that i had asked him to bring me. ah, from jerusalem. because i thought drew's on being the holy city. ah, and the holiest place to the jewish faith schneider. these people made it. their challenge was right around the corner where the memories be for a blessing man always be remembered. ah, i walked through all of the gray sounds and i shot only one gray stone that didn't have a rock on. i made sure i put

a rock there so everybody knows that they're not allowing me on anything. it really hit me as about a 3rd of the more just numbers they didn't have names. so it's terms of bodies in the ground. and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember and nobody tell anybody. app. ah oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snuffed out. this horrible place where the horrible camps around europe. no stone from jerusalem on a rock? oh. inquired the de john,

as when she realized that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what it's worth. along as warriors, you've also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people that are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said, but i can try to stop it and i can do my best to try to educate people to, to the truth that ignorance and fear breed hatred. and we don't have to be afraid of

a oh, well, she's news media garbage and i can if you speak russian, keep your voice down while out in about a quarter. don't put your human symbols on display a guy, so you guys don't talk to strangers. i. 7 avoid noisy gatherings and rallies a marsh. we've eaten your

colleagues and perhaps also your friends think you're guilty because you'll russian much naya the bomb. so what's my doing? that was my mistake, so i'd be glad to with b. p. a specific story short with a kevin chip, some of the stones that he had. and i asked him as we discussed it, what to do with those stones. he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have. so i was going to go to ashes 1st. why exactly auschwitz? well places where a 1000000 people die there no. 1100000. i know of to know. would you be willing to be awake at 45 in the morning tomorrow? for,

for a you said a body doesn't want me to go. i'm serious. i would take a moment the park lunches to say and try and catch my breath. breaking down, realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is sure. as we crossed to the entrance, gosh, which kevin fell on my shoulder. ah, ah, a series so so,

so we just thought today raised our kinetic 1st symbol ah, disease is you walking through us and we came to the destroyed cache. and it was quite literally the end of the line that was where the early tracks stopped coming to that line was part of a spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years to the kevin sponsors, part of our national anthem singing about truce amar. dream of 2000 years.

mm mm. oh i for me. i go down here and walk down. there's one building standing. it's the last building, remaining for those centers, which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, you feel like the numbers were off. they came here, i would say, right?

ah, this is close to close on for your call. yes, this move thousands of people please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory i own. ah, [000:00:00;00]

ah, i wonder why it why did i a punk little 17 year old kid deserve an extra chance to go to the gas chambers. busy ah, me,

i lose even probably one of my changing events in my life,

i'm not going to take a long time to take you a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion all this, hey, i don't want it to be a because i don't have anybody day. i was angry in place to projected i've never in my life had to process something, have always been so hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come out use with and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of

you were brainwashed, but they were brainwashed for they were ready to kill a brow them because i don't know where the education would make a difference. but most of them were dropped out from school. they weren't interested in education. in the end result was you die in wyoming up at your own end of the line. and it was an end of the love for you, but it was in the line for us to you mom and dad. and you brothers, you, what we went through allies were turned upside down to one of those that ever again, i can't think of anything worse than a family. they have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize

to, you know, with john story is a story of hope. the story of victory, the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where he came to, where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families. i've been either going through to have a child like i was initially a jewish family, but say like a like canon, we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived?

and i definitely know that i survived because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to, to try and improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to changes as possible to come somebody else. and then some of the people that were involved in my attack had changed for the better of some of more or less stay the same. can't really expect society to change that begins with you. ah.

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with ah ah ah ah ah, i think it sells now just in russia more than a image of a powers with a name is frank. from a rejection philadelphia got in the movement in age,

13 or 14, we were violent towards those people because we believed that were in the race. we were here 1st and this is our country being part of that movement. i got your sense of power. when i felt powerless, i got attention when i felt invisible and accepted when i talked to level life after, hey, is an organization that was founded by for skin, nazi white supremacist in the us and canada. and they found each other and they knew that they wanted to help other guys get out was to, to getting out of a violent extremist group. the 1st part is disengagement, which is where you leave the social group. and then the next part is de radicalization where belief systems audiology are removed. it was very impactful. when someone finally came along with no fear, no judgement,

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