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i wanted to go and pay my respects hon. all those who lost our license, the hands of the 3rd, right. and i wouldn't want to do it with anybody other than john, honestly, you know, horrible atrocities that had affected millions and millions of years. and this is the ideology that i live 5 or 4 years. and while is during the since it's harder than mine being jewish and something to turn to he didn't, he left something that was like a family type relationship and move back into the real world. living it is really finally feels at home and he feels like he's with his people and a leading with this. i know that that's something i'd like to feel in life. you know, i'd like to feel that i do on to something in i had something to look forward to it

. i something to believe. i'm not sure what it's going to be based. extend myself to be a real american patriot. but i don't like the direction that my country is going hold on, i will let my young i'm with them because it was a earlier full then overwhelmed with emotion. started shaking, embed. and as i went into laboratory a few moments ago, i get sick. wow. going to the camp, it makes it like putting in the face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v. programs and documentaries, you know,

written by some guy who wasn't there on the page from history book. it's real life is doing what you can to fix the world to the best of your ability is that just starts with you and the way that you live your life and you are which what you're doing now with the coin laundry, going back and fixing some of the wrong, you can at one point stop it. that's enough. things need to be different. and they gave me more than 1500 years when prison a small fortress, their destiny was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about 500 from them were tortured to death. here most others perish after the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people in the jewish faith die there. i find it hard to believe from nazi or really avid in real go getters. transit hands as well. people are coming merely coming in to wait for the train to go off to the dock a. this was just merely

a stop on the voyage. what you wrote in the book against books. what did you write? i'm sorry. i wanted to come, the roommate theme is a theme and judaism and play with the way that we count the number. a letter that we offer exactly. i wanted to see where my team was, the more sure where the body is, the person who's torture for story. starting at the end of $42.00 dead bodies were cream. i didn't turn this crematorium in the form of a jewish get a decline letters. the letter is age off. the 2nd letter 8 or his age letter. a red circle around, you know, i mean,

i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very high provincial and as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me . but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanning guys to try to take my life, i would say to the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life at time me to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots we walked through, were temperature, seem to drop and get very, very cold. like there was electricity in the air, the hair on my body would stand up and just to take it into know it almost everyone

watches i donald didn't want was a lot to take in there. i yeah. i don't even know what's happening. if you were going to die and you knew it, there's something known as the martyrs. prayer. ok? here is the lord your god. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure there's always more than one it would be torture has to be laid down. not knowing it was going to happen, your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening. right? it's somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks, you've gone through. i'm sure your brain and the exact thing will that won't. yeah

. are you close off the outside world? new turn in this isn't happening to me, and this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up. be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace could hit me when i was attacked by the skins just when i came to the ultimate understanding conclusion that i wasn't going to make it out of it. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is. i need tuition like that. you just want to go home, right? and just when you're better off, when you go, you want to go to where you feel safe. at that moment i did not feel safe and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement. they're not here that they're not the best people to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know,

most of the chairs are in a quiet and probably still i went down to one point after i was out of the skinheads for quite a while i, i was arrested and thrown in jail for what kevin does best being smart and drunk and not listening to authority. i have always had a problem with authority. and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time. and i still had not covered up all the way to tooth. and one of the things i had was quite vulgar in quite a form. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread, the world knows and instantly sees in his way, knows what it means. and it was not anything. i still believe of course, but it was still fair to me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up in

a cell block with someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sentenced to go back to prison. most likely can. i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew said i was going to tell the truth and then i was gonna say, my east and let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. but it brought it down to know that i didn't cover up the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them

so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't good about me. it was about other people and about sending a message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past another that really had a home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i had really never thought about. i kept living in the past, and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god, when we went all the way through the tunnel and rounded the corner and headed down the little hill and i saw 3 crosses, there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking in english. made mention that this is

where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd reich had taken over and occupied the high and was using the camp, ah, has a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have blocked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of, okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back and this is where they met her. it is very true for torture to force record. sure to hear

she's like june in the group and i mean every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being themselves, being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people interviews . a lot of people that it was right. i should feel show it's ready to ride from this point. oh, well this is a huge, huge step. there are a few places at john and i hit start and john brought some some stones and i had asked him to bring me ah, from jerusalem because i thought drew's on being the holy city. ah. and he always place to the jewish faith. now these people made it,

their challenge was right around the corner. the memories be for a blessing man, always be remembered. ah, walked to all the gravestones. nice only one gravestone. it didn't have iraq on i made sure i've been iraq care so everybody knows that they're not alone. they are really anything. it really hit me is about a 3rd of the more just numbers. they didn't have names. so it's theresa bodies in the ground. and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody that app ah oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snuffed out this horrible place where the horrible camps

around europe. no the stone from jerusalem on a rock? oh inquired the day john, it has once you realize that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and what to see humanity for what it's worth along as warriors. you've also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people who are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i, i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can undo what i've said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people to, to the truth that ignorance and fear breed hatred. we don't have to be afraid.

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maybe a lot about it more than just been in touch with mr . kevin chip, some of the stones that he had. and i asked him, as we discussed it, what to do with those stones. he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have. so i was going to go to ashes 1st. why exactly auschwitz? well places were a 1000000 people died there, no. 1100000. that i know of to know would you be willing to be awake at 4 to 5 in the morning? 444. ok?

ah, you said all the places you can visit and do the expansions for going up a little bit ago. i'm serious. i did take a moment the park lunches to said and try and catch my breath. breaking down realizing where i was going to brain surgery was easier than this one is sure as we crossed to the entrance, josh, kevin fell on my shoulder. ah, ah, a series so so, so just

the thought did raise kinetic 1st symbol mm. disease as you're walking through and we came to the destroyed cache. and it was quite literally the end of the line. that was where the railroad tracks stopped. coming to that line was part of a spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years. that kevin spell, 1st part of our national anthem. thinking about truce amar dream of 2000 years. mm. mm. oh,

oh, i good on here. i walked out, there's one building standing. it's the last building, remaining for those centers, which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, he felt like the numbers were off. they came here, i would say, right? ah,

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a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion all this, hey. and i don't want it to behave because i don't have anybody to 8, i was angry. i have no place to project that. i've never in my life had to process something. i've always been sorry. hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come out use when. oh and i think about going to the trial and how the french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed. but they were brain like where they were ready to kill a brow them because i don't know where the education would make

a difference. but the most of what brought out from school, they weren't interested in education. in the end result was you die mining up at your own end of the line and it was an end of the love for you, but it was the in the line for us to you mom and dad. and you brothers, what we went through allies returned upside down to one of those that ever again, i can't think of anything worse than in family. they have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize to, you know, in

a i, john story is a story of hope story victory. the whole story of his wife. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came to where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do stanley's, i've been either going through to have a child like i was initially a jewish family, but say like a like canon, we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? the answer is always love them. make me feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survive because god decided it wasn't my time to go.

and i've tried ever since then to, to try and improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to changes as possible to come somebody else. and i know some of the people that were involved in my attack had changed for the better of some of more or less stay the same. can't really expect society to change that begins with you. ah. the stone sat him in the ground a and all the pathways through

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