i live 5 or 4 years in my own, his journey, the sense is harder than mine. big jewish had something to turn to. he didn't. he left something that was like a family type relationship and moved back into the real world. living in is really finally feels at home and he feels like he's with his people and a leading with this. i know that that's something i'd like to feel in life. you know, i'd like to feel that i do belong to something and i have something to look forward to and i have something to believe. i'm not sure what it's going to be there myself to be a real american patriot. but i don't like the direction that my country is going all on, and i will wear my a cheaper delicacy. it is people to see room or a earlier full

then overwhelmed with emotion, started shaking in bed. and as i went into laboratory a few moments ago, i did get sick. wow. going to the camp. it makes it. it's like putting in a face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v. programs and documentaries. you know, written by some guy who wasn't there on the page from history book, it's real life is doing what you can fix the world to the best of your ability, etc. starts with you and the way that you live your life. and when you are, which what you're doing now was to coin laundry, going back and fixing some of the wrong. you can at one point, stop it. so that's enough. things need to be different. and they gave me more than 1500 years when small fortress,

their destiny was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about 500 from them were tortured to death. here most of the parish i for the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people of the jewish faith died there . i find it hard to believe from the nazis were really ab in. we'll go getters, transit camp as well. people were coming merely coming in to wait for the training to know that he was on the dock house. so before this was just curious on their voice. what you wrote in the book, i guess book what did you write? i'm sorry. i wanted to come to room, they seem to be they seem to judaism and play with the way we count the numbers or the way off. exactly i wanted to make team was the more sure where the body is,

the person who's torture for story. starting at the end of 42 dead bodies were cremated in terms crematorium in the form of the jewish get a divine letters. the letter is age off, the 2nd letter age or his age letter, a red circle around, you know, i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very hypervigilant as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me,

but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanning guys to try to take my life, i would say it's the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life autonomy to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or seem to drop and get very, very cold. there's almost like there was electricity in the air. the air on my body would stand up and just to take it into almost everyone that walk through that donald didn't walk. there's a lot to take in there. i yeah, i don't even know what's happening. if you were going to die and you knew it. there's something known as the martyrs. prayer ok here is are the larger gods. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure there's always more than one

it would be torture has to be led down. not knowing it was going to happen. your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening. right? it's somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks. you've gone through. i'm sure your brain and the exact thing will that won't. yeah. are we close off the outside world? you turn in this isn't happening to me, and this is a real, i'm going to live through that way. got to be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace that hit me when i was attacked by the skins. just when i came to the ultimate understanding conclusion that i wasn't going to make it out of it. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know, it is. yeah,

i mean, tuition like that. you just want to go home, right. just when your bed, your mom. when you go, you want to go where you feel safe. at that moment i did not feel safe and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement. they're not sure that they're not the best people to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know lots of the sheriff's part over in the last class and probably still i went to one point after i was out of the school for quite a while, i was arrested and thrown in jail for what kevin does best being a smart drunk and not listening to authority. i have always had a problem with authority. and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time. and i still had not covered up all the way to the tooth.

and one of the tattoos i had was quite vulgar in quite a form. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread, the world knows and instantly sees in his way, knows what it means. it was not anything. i still believe of course, but it was still tattooed on me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up and a cell block was someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sentenced to go back to prison. most likely can. i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew i was going to tell the truth and then i was gonna say, my east and let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. and it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours

until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. but it brought it down to know that i didn't cover up the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah, and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had in my body. and it wasn't good about me. it was about other people and about sending a message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past and that, that really had a home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future,

which was something i had really never thought about. i kept living in the past and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god. when we but all the way through the tunnel and round at the corner and headed down the little hill i saw 3 crosses and there was a tour group. and the one was speaking in english. made mention that this is where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd reich had taken over it and occupied high and was using the camp, ah, as a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have blocked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah,

it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of, okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back and this is where they met her. it is very true. so they weren't tortured a forced record. sure to hear if you'd like to get a chance in the garage and i mean every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being himself, being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people. it convinced a lot of people that it was right. i should feel shame. shall we

try to do right from the sport. oh, well this is a huge, huge step. there are few places at john and i has stopped and john brought some, some stones that i had asked him to bring me. ah, from jerusalem. because i thought drew's on being the holy city. ah. and the holies place to the jewish faith. none of these people made it. their challenge was right around the corner. the memories be for a blessing that always be remembered. ah walked through all the gray starnes and i shot only one gray stone that didn't have a rock on. i made sure i put a rock there so everybody knows that they're not allowing me on anything that really hit me as about a 3rd of them were just numbers. they didn't have names. so it's terms of bodies in the ground. and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire

families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember. and nobody tell anybody that app ah oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were slumped out. this horrible place where the horrible camps around europe no sound from jerusalem on a rock. oh. inquired the de john as when she realized that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what

it's worth along this voyage of also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people who are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i, i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people to, to the truth, that ignorance and fear breed hatred. we don't have to be afraid, ah, need to come to the russian state. total narrative. i've stayed as i'm solemnly. no slant scheme div asking him, i'm not getting calls. i'll slap a thin, fishy babble this made. okay. so mine is 2000 speedy. when else got hit with, we will van in the european union,

the kremlin community up machine. the state aren't russia for date and school r t sport neck. even our video agency, roughly all band on youtube with ah, ah, ah, not another well. wow. do you easy while furnace us? ah. yeah. do you have one slide? yes. south. yeah. thrashing a south with

a new dock garza boys. now watch done the for me at that a bull up i picked on the. is emily up bulls? goody, of sure, sure. let me just kim's room. she thought, did you say the y fi ela, a billing? yes, my thought or janine did it again to your fortune buddy up in the bill. this is just to connect with mr. kevin kept some of the stones that he had. and i asked him, as we discussed it, what to do with those stones, he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have. so i was trying to get him to go to ashes bar. why exactly

auschwitz? well, places are a 1000000 people die there. no 1100000. if they know of to know, would you be willing to be awake at 4 to 5 in the morning tomorrow? for, for a you said all the places you can visit with us for a little bit ago. i'm serious. i did take a moment. the park lunches to said, i'm try and catch my breath from breaking down realizing where i was going to brain surgery was easier than this one is sure. as we crossed to the dashboard, kevin fell on my shoulder a

series so so. so in thought today, res ah, genetic 1st symbol ah, disease is you're walking through and we came to the destroyed cache and it was quite literally the in the line that was where the tracks start coming to that line was

part of the spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years, kevin sponsors, part of our national anthem. singing about truce or dream of 2000 years. ah. i, [000:00:00;00] i go down here and walk down, there's one building standing. it's the last building remaining from those centers,

which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday for like the numbers were off, they came here. i would say, right? ah oh, this is as close as goes on for ever, ever. answering your question, yes, it's more to thousands of people. please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the member.

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a long time to understand. i think more people should i use. oh and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed, but they were brainwashed for they were ready to kill a brow them because i don't know where the education would make a difference. but the most of them were dropped out from school. they weren't interested in education. in the end result was you die ah, signing up at your own end of the line. there was an end of the line for you, but it was in the line for us to your mom and dad and your brothers. what we went through i was returned upside down to one of those that

ever again, i can't think of anything worse than the family. they have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize to, you know, with john story is a story of hope. story victory. the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i think people need to know what

a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came to where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families that are either going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family, but say like a like kevin, we have a child that's involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survived because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to try to improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to change as possible to come somebody else. and i know some of the people that were involved in my attack had changed for the better of some of more

or less stayed the same. can't really expect society to change. it begins with you. ah.

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are enormous in europe. is the biggest loser. i my name is frank, i'm a retired from philadelphia, got in the movement in any age, 13 or 14. we were violent towards those people because we believe that we're in a race. we're here 1st and this is our country being part of that movement. i got your sense of power. when i felt powerless, we got attention when i felt invisible and accepted when i felt life after hey, is an organization that was founded by for skin, nazi white supremacists in the u. s. in canada. and they found each other and they knew that they wanted to help other guys get out was 2 parts to getting out of a violent extremist group. the 1st part is disengagement, which is where you leave the social group. and then the next part is d.

radicalization where belief systems audiology are really very impactful. when someone finally came along with no fear, no judgement, you heard my story didn't nothing to challenge it with a he was delusional to think kind of an independent amount of love is full. so by us liquefied natural gas, simple the price,