international and we hope you have a great day ah, [000:00:00;00] a because the advocate and engagement equals the trail. when so many find themselves will depart, we choose to look for common ground.

i wanted to go and pay my respects of those who lost our license, the hands of the 3rd. right. and i wouldn't want to do it with anybody other than john, honestly, you know, horrible atrocities that affected millions and millions of years. and this is the ideology that i live 5 or 4 years and went on his journey. but since it's harder than mine, big jewish had something to turn to. he didn't. he left something that was like a family type relationship and moved back into the real world, living in israel. he finally feels at home and he feels like he's with his people and a leading with his. i know that that's something i'd like to feel in life. you know, i'd like to feel that i do belong to something and i have something to look forward to and i have something to believe. i'm not sure what it's going to be. you see there myself to be a real american patriot,

but i don't like the direction that my country is going. all right, i will wear my a number cuz it was the room with earlier full then kind of overwhelmed with emotion, started shaking, embed, and as i went into laboratory a few moments ago, it gets thick. wow. going to the camp. it makes it. it's like putting in a face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v programs and documentaries, you know, written by some guy who wasn't there on the page from history book. it's real long history, where you can fix the world, the best of your ability, etc,

starts with you and the way to your line or you are which what you're doing now is a line be going back and fixing some of the wrongs you can't at one point stop it. that's enough. things need to be different. and they do more than 1600 years when prison is small fortress, their destiny was worst of all. the groups of prisoners, about $500.00 from them were tortured to death. here, most of the parish i for the deportation to the concentration camps, 1600 people of the jewish faith died there. i found it hard to believe from the nazis were really avid, in real getters, transit and as well. people were coming merely coming in to wait for the trainings to go off to dock house, so be more house and stuff. and i was just curious on their voyage. what you wrote in the book, i guess books. what did you write? i'm sorry, i wanted to come,

the roommate seem to be they thing and judaism and play with the way that we count the number a letter that we offer. exactly. i wanted to see where my team was, the mortuary, where the body is, the person who's torture for story. starting at the end of $42.00 dead bodies were cream. i didn't turn screaming for him in the form of the jewish ghetto. a divine letters, the letter is age off. the 2nd letter age or his age letter, a blood red circle around, you know, i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy,

but i'm still very hypervigilant as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me, but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanning guys to try to take my life, i would say it's the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life at time me to value life in the sanctity of life, we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or seem to drop and get very, very cold. like there was electricity in the air. the hair on my body would stand up and just to take it into know it almost everyone watches i donald didn't walk was a lot to take in there. i yeah. i don't even know what's happening. if

you were going to die and you knew it. there's something known as the martyrs prayer here is the lord your god. the lord is one. and that is something that i'm sure there's always more than one it would be torture has to be laid down. not knowing if it's going to happen. your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening right and somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks. you've gone through. i'm sure your brains and the exact same thing will that won't. yeah. are you close off the outside world? you turn in this isn't happening to me, and this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up,

be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't says, i'm not going to survive this. in a moment of peace that hit me when i was attacked by the skins is just a change of deals with understanding conclusions. how is it going to make it add? and then it was just like, my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is a jewish and like that you just want to go home, right? you just want your bed, your mom and you go, you want to go to where you feel safe. at that moment i do not feel safe. and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement. so they're not, you know, that they're not the best able to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know, most of the chairs are in a closed play and probably still all i went down at one point after i was

out of the skinheads for quite a while, i was arrested. it's already in jail for what kevin does best, being smart and drunk and not listening to authority. i've always had a problem with authority and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time i still had not covered up all of my tattoos. and one of the tattoos i had was quite vulgar in quite hateful. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread world knows and instantly sees and hinsley knows what it means. that it was not anything. i still believe that of course, but it was still tattooed on me and you couldn't make it go away. and i wound up in a cell block with someone from the area in brotherhood who was just violated parole,

and was about to be before the judge to be re sentenced to go back to prison. most likely. and i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew so i was going to tell the truth and i was gonna say my east in let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. and it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. it brought it down to know that i didn't cover up the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience,

i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't good about me. it was about other people and about sending a message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past another that really had a home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i had really never thought about. i kept living in the past and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god. will we? but all the way through the tunnel and rounded the corner and headed down the little ill. i saw 3 crosses and there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking in english, made mention that this is where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the

3rd reich had taken over it and occupied high and was using the camp, ah, has a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have blocked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back and this is where they met her. it is very true. so they weren't tortured. of course, richard here, she like june in the garage and i mean every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being themselves,

being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people and convinced a lot of people that it was right. i should feel show it's ready to ride from the sport. oh, well this is a huge, huge step. there are a few places at john and i has stopped and john brought some some stones that i had asked him to bring me ah, from jerusalem. because i thought drew's on being the holy city, ah, and the holiest place to the jewish faith. now these people made it, their challenge was right around the corner. when the memories be for a blessing man always be remembered. ah

walked through all the gray stones. nice only one gray stone that didn't have a rock on. i made sure i put a rock there so everybody knows that they're not alone. they are really anything that really hit me is about a 3rd of the more just numbers they didn't had names. so it's theresa bodies in the ground. and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely white dog. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody that ah oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snapped out this horrible place where the horrible camps around europe. no stone from jerusalem on

a rock only from quite the day. john it has once you realize that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what it's worth along his voyage. i've also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people who are good people in the world and i was one of them. i, i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't undo what i said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people, to, to the truth, that ignorance and fear agreed hatred. and we don't have to be afraid it would seem, we have reached the point of no return. after being the target of sabotage, the north stream pipelines will be mothball, the mutually beneficial energy relationship,

europe and russia had for decades is come to an end. the geopolitical implications are enormous. and europe is the biggest loser in willing i saw booty toria know cranium. tv, audio soon enough idea. she ship a doctor, lean report control. you put you on board. so we should. she'll go did etivia. the mobile polarity system really premium did not sing the vice president of lucy leanne with his stems out of the room. there's a crazy start to lose to modern day my subway, but just dory. yes or no, it's i live she elise, get us. but we ship them said yes, they got a gift or should look like you know what of them. i need

a new brain school. was with that for a one. they each or a quick with global, i'm saying years about how she took on my job is to promote the enough room for a few quick to take a picture of. i'll go double play. you have to go. so good. i'm up with i know, so kevin kept some of his of the stones that he had, and i asked him, as we discussed it, what to do with those stones. he said that if you're visit a place like this again, he wanted to have. so i was trying to get him to go to ashes 1st. why exactly and auschwitz? well places are a 1000000 people died there? no. 1100000. i know of to know. would you be willing to be awake at 4 to 5 in the mornings? more for,

for a you said all the places you can visit do the expansions for audio the a little bit ago. i'm serious. i did take a moment the park lunches to said and try and catch my breath from breaking down realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is sure. as we crossed to the entryway, josh, kevin fell on my shoulder a,

i'm sorry so, so, so in just a thought today raised our kinetic kersats symbol. mm . disease as you're walking through punch, which we came to the destroyed gas chambers. and it was quite literally the end of the line that was where the railroad tracks stopped coming to that line was for the spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years, a part of our national anthem thinking about truth or dream of 2000 years,

ah, i, [000:00:00;00] i go down here and walk down, there's one building standing. it's the last building, remaining for those centers, which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday,

he felt like the numbers were off. they came here, i would say, right? ah, this is as close as goes on for ever, ever entering your call y'all? yes, this maria, thousands of people. please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory. i own a i oh,

i wonder if i the why did i a punk little 17 year old kid deserve an extra chance guess timbers. busy ah me, i i,

i use, oh, even in probably one of my changing events in my life,

american life trying to take a long time to take all the same. i feel a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion all this hate. and i don't want it to be because i don't have anybody to 8, i was angry. i have no place to project that. i've never in my life had to process something. i've always been sorry. hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come with and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing, you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed. but they were

brainwashed for they were ready to kill a brow them because i don't know whether education would make a difference, but the motion would drop out from school. they weren't interested in education. in the end result was you die winding up at your own end of the line. then it was an end of the line for you. but it was the in the line for us to you mom and dad and your brothers. what we went through allies were turned upside down to one of those that ever again, i can't think of anything works and then family. they have to go through something like that. ever apologize to

you know, with john story is a story of the story of victory, the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i, i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where he came to, where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families i've that are either going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family, but say like a like kevin, we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me,

why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survived because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to, to try and improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to change it as possible. to come somebody else, and i know some of the people that were involved in my attack have changed for the better. some of more or less stay the same. can't really expect society to change that begins with you. ah.

the stones sat in the ground in all the pathways through

a ah ah ah needs to come to the russian state little narrative. i've stayed as i phone and the nurse landscape div asking him then i'll sons them up for a week within the 55. when okay, so mine is 2000 speedy. when else with we will van in the european union, the kremlin media machine,

the state on russia for date and split the r t spoof mckibbin our video agency, roughly all band on youtube. and pinterest, and with me ah ah, ah hello and welcome to cross stock were all things are considered. i'm peter labelle. it would seem, we have reached the point of no return. after being the target of sabotage, the north stream pipe winds will be mothball,