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a year with i wanted to go and pay my respects to all those who lost her life. the hands of the 3rd. right. and i wouldn't want to do it with anybody other than john, honestly, you know, horrible atrocities that affected millions and millions of years. and this is the

ideology that i live 5 or 4 years a model is journeyman. since it's harder than mine, big jewish and something to turn to, he didn't. he left something that was like a family type relationship and move back into the real world. living it is really finally feels at home and he feels like he's with his people. and i leaving with this, i know that that's something i'd like to feel in life. you know, i'd like to feel that i do belong something that i have something to look forward to. and i have something to believe. i'm not sure what it's going to be basically turned myself to be a real american patriot, but i don't like the direction that my country is going all on. and i will let my young with cuba, delicate as people, as he written

a full, then overwhelmed with emotion, started shaking a bit. and as i went into laboratory a few moments ago, i get sick. wow. going to can't make it. it's like putting in a face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v. programs and documentaries, you know, written by some guy who wasn't there. not a page from history book. it's real life is doing what you can fix the world to the best of your ability, etc. starts with you and the way that you live your life and you are which what you're doing now is a coin laundry. going back and fixing some of the wrongs. kinda one point stop it. that's enough. things need to be different. and they give me more than 1500 years when prison, a small fortress,

their destiny was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about 500 from them were tortured to death. here most of the parish i for the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people of the jewish faith die there. i find it hard to believe from nazi or really avid, in real getters trans again as well. people are coming merely coming in to wait for the train to go off to the dock house a. this was just merely a stop on the voyage. what you wrote in the the book, the guest books. what did you write? i'm sorry. i wanted to come to room a theme with a theme and judaism in play. with the way that we count the number a letter the way off. exactly. i wanted to room 18 was the mortuary,

where the body is a person. there's torture for story. starting at the end of 42 dead bodies were cremated in terms crematorium in the form of the jewish ghetto. a divine letters, the letter is age off, the 2nd letter age or hitler, his age letter, a blood red circle around i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. i'm still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very high provincial as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times,

you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me, but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanner guys to try to take my life, i would say to the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life autonomy to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or you seem to drop and get very, very cold. there's almost like there was electricity in the air. the hair on my body would stand up and just to take it into know it almost everyone that walk through that donald didn't walk was a lot to take in there. i 7. yeah, i don't even know what's happening. if you were going to die and you knew it. there's something known as the martyrs. prayer. ok. here is the lord your god. the

lord is one. that is something that i'm sure it is always for more than one. the it would be torture has to be laid down. not knowing it was going to happen. your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening, right? it's somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks. you've gone through, i'm sure your brain and the exact same thing. will that one? yeah. are we close off the outside world? you turn in? this isn't happening to me, and this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up. be fine. your brain is so arrogant, the one thing that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace that hit me when i was attacked by the skins. just when i came to the ultimate understanding conclusion that i wasn't going to make it out of

it. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is, tuition like that. you just want to go home, right? just when your bed, your mom, when you go, you want to go to where you feel safe. at that moment i did not feel safe. and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement or not you're that they're not the best people to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know, lots of those shares are over in the clubs class and probably still, i wouldn't know. one point after i was out of the school for quite a while i, i was arrested, is thrown in jail for what kevin does best, being smart and drunk. and not listening to authority. i have always had

a problem with authority. and i went up in jail for a long time, but enough time. and i still had not covered up all the way to the tooth. and one of the tattoos i had was quite vulgar in quite a form. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread, the world knows and instantly sees. and his li knows what it means and it was not anything i still believe, of course, but it was still tattooed on me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up and a cell block was someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sentenced to go back to prison. most likely can. i've never been more afraid from myself because i knew said i was going to tell the truth and then i was going to say, my east and let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree

with you. it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. ah, it brought it down to know that i didn't cover up the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't good about me. it was about other people and about send a message that i didn't believe in. ah,

so it can be very hard to walk away from your past another that really had home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i have really never thought about. i kept living in the past and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god. we but all the way through the tunnel and rounded the corner and headed down the little hill. i saw 3 crosses and there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking in english, made mention, this is where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd reich had taken over it and occupied the high and was using the camp, ah, has a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have blocked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah,

it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back and this is where they met her. it is very true. so if it weren't tortured, of course, richard here, if you'd like to keep your chin in leadership and i mean every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being themselves, being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people. it convinced

a lot of people that it was right. i should feel show it's ready to write from the sport. oh. well this is a huge, huge to there were a few places at john and i had stopped and john brought some some stones and had asked him to bring me, ah, from jerusalem. because i thought jerusalem being the holy city, ah, and be always place to the jewish faith. now these people made it, their challenge was right around the corner. many memories before a blessing man always be remembered. ah, i walked through all of the gray sounds nice, only one very stone that didn't have a rock on i made sure i've been a rock chair so everybody knows that they're not allowing me on anything. it really hit me as about a 3rd of them were just numbers. they didn't have names. so it's,

there was bodies in the ground and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody app. ah oh service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snapped out. this horrible place where the horrible camps groaned. europe. another stone from jerusalem on a rock? oh. inquired the day john. it has, once you realize that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself.

i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and what to see humanity for what it's worth. along as warriors have also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people than they are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people to, to the truth that ignorance and fear breed hatred. and we don't have to be afraid. ah, peace in ukraine seems essentially impossible. and there's a reason for nato wants russia to be completely defeated. russia in turn, demands new european security structures, protecting it's entrance. as long as may exist,

there'll be no peace or security for anyone. a i know so kevin kept some of the stones that he had and i asked him, as we discussed it, what to do with those stones. he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have. so i was very let him to go to ashes bar. why exactly auschwitz? well places for a 1000000 people die there? no. 1100000. if they know of, they know, would you be willing to be awake at 4 to 5 in the morning tomorrow? for, for a

you said all the places you can visit, do the expansions for audio. they want me to go. i'm serious. i did take a moment the park on just to sit and try and catch my breath from breaking down. realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is shooters. we crossed to the entrance way. josh, kevin fell on my shoulder a, i'm sorry so, so, so in just

a thought today raised our kinetic 1st symbol. mm ah, you're walking through and we came to the destroyed cash. and it was quite literally the end of the line. that was where the tracks stopped coming to that line was part of the spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years. and kevin's part of our national anthem singing about truce our dream of 2000 years.

ah, i, [000:00:00;00] i go down here and walk down. there's one building standing, it's the last building, remaining for those centers and which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, he felt like the numbers were off. they came here,

i would say, right? ah, this, please just go on a cordial. yes, this maria, thousands of people. please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory. oh, we own a key. ah, ah, some wonder why is it, why did i a punk little 17 year old kid deserve an extra chance to go to gas

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ah ah, ah, a human desert and probably one of the most might changing events in my life, american life. trying to take a long time to take all the same way. i feel a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion, all this hate, and i don't want it to behave because i don't have anybody. they was angry. i have

no place to project that. i've never in my life had to process something. and i've always been sorry, hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come with and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing and you had each other's back brothers. all of you were brainwashed, but they were brainwashed for they were ready to kill a brow them because i don't know where the education would make a difference. but the most of them were brought out from school. they weren't

interested in education. in the end result was you die in wyoming up at your own end of the line. it was an end of the love for you, a in a line for us to your mom and dad and your brothers. what we went through i was returned upside down to one of those that ever again, i can't think of anything worse than a family that have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize to you know,

with john story is a story of hope. the story of victory, the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came and to where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families that are either going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family, but say like a like kevin, we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years, people have asked me, why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survived because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to try to improve myself as a human being and what i can back to society and be ready and available just to

talk to people about the ability and the power of change. it is possible to change it as possible to come somebody else. and i know some of the people that were involved in my attack have changed for the better. some of more or less stay the same. you can't really expect society to change. it begins with you ah,

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