population is considered to be one of the grimmest pages in the history of mankind by wanted to go and pay my respects to all those who lost our lives. the hands of the 3rd, right. and i wouldn't want to do it with anybody other than john, honestly, you know, horrible atrocities that affected millions and millions of v. and this is the ideology that i live 5 or 4 years and one is journeyman. since it's harder than mine, big jewish had something to turn to. he didn't. he left something that was like a family type relationship and move back into the real world. living in israel, he finally feels at home and he feels like he's with his people and a leading with his i know that that's something i'd like to feel in life. you know, i'd like to feel that i do belong to something and i have something to look forward to and i have something to believe. i'm not sure what it's going to be used to

consider myself to be a real american patriot. but i don't like the direction that my country is going a whole lot. when i, when my younger, my chemistry call and hebrew. cheaper. yeah. because it is keeping us with earlier full then kind of overwhelmed with emotion. started shaking, embed, and as i went into laboratory a few moments ago, i get sick. wow. going to the camp. it makes it. it's like putting in a face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v. programs and documentaries written by some guy who wasn't there on the page

history book, it's real, a mom is doing what you can to fix the world. the best of your ability is that just starts with you in the way that you live your life and you are, which what you're doing now is gonna be going back and fixing some of the wrongs you can at one point stop it. that's enough. things need to be different and they do more than 1500 years when prison, a small fortress, their destiny was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about 500 from them were tortured to death. here most others perish after the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people of the jewish faith died there . i find it hard to believe for the nazis were really avid in real getters. transit hands as well. the more coming merely coming in to wait for the training to go off the dog house. so the more house and stuff, and i was just curious on their voyage,

what you wrote in the book, the guest book, what did you write? i'm sorry, i wanted to come to room. a theme is a theme in judaism and play with the way that we count the numbers are the exactly i wanted to remain team was that the mortuary, where the body is the person who's torture for story. starting at the end of 42 dead bodies were cremated in terms crematorium in the form of the jewish get a divine letters. the letter is age off, the 2nd letter age, or his age letter. a red circle around, you know, i mean, i'm still not gonna lie. hi. i'm still afraid of

a large group of black people. i and i know that still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very hypervigilant as well. there is to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me . but when i would be asked if i forgiven the guys to try to take my life, i would say to the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life at time me to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 meter long tunnel. there were several spots as we walk through or you seem to dropping it very, very cold. there's almost like there was electricity in the air. the air on my body would stand up and just to take it into know it almost everyone that walk through that donald didn't walk was

a lot to take in there. i yeah, i don't even know what's happening is if you were going to die and you knew it, there's something known as the martyrs. prayer. ok. here is the lord your god. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure there's always more than one. it would be torture has to be live down. not knowing it was going to happen. your brain tries to rationalize how what's happening isn't happening right? it's somehow going to live somehow going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks. you've gone through. i'm sure you're brainstorm the exam. will that one? yeah. are we close off the outside world?

you turn in. this isn't happening to me. this is a real, i'm going to live to wake up. be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this. and the moment of peace could hit me when i was attacked by the skins. just when i came to the ultimate understanding conclusion that i wasn't going to make it out of it. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is, tuition like that. you just want to go home, right? just one, your bed, your mom. when you go, you want to go where you feel safe. at that moment, i did not feel safe and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement. say they're not here that they're not the best people to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know, most of the shares are over in the class and probably still i went down to one

point after i was out of the school for quite a while. i was arrested and thrown in jail for what kevin does best, being a smart drunk and not listening to the story. and i've always had a problem with authority and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time. and i still had not covered up all of my tooth. and one of the things i had was quite vulgar in quite a form. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread, the world knows and instantly sees in his way, knows what it means. and it was not anything i still believe of course, but it was still tied to to me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up and a cell block was someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated

parole and was about to be before the judge to be recent, to go back to prison. most likely. and i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew i was going to tell the truth and then i was gonna say, my niece in letting know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. but it brought it down to know that i didn't cover the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah. and i wore them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else,

but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't even about me. it was about other people and about sending message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past. and i really had a home, and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i have really never thought about. i kept living in the past, and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god will weep. but all the way through the tunnel and rounded the corner and headed down the little hill. and i saw 3 crosses. there was a tour group. and the woman was speaking english, made mention that this is where the soldiers lie when this was still just

a military installation and use this embankment for target practice. but after the 3rd or i can taken over it and occupied i and was using the camp. ah, as a transit camp and a death camp, that's where these people have blocked and been executed or walked in beyond. ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real one of those people came back and this is where they met or it is very true for torture to force record. sure to hear if you like the new tooth in the region. i mean, every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being

himself, being people of the earth, living their lives, is in heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people. it against a lot of people that it was right. i should feel shame. shall we try to do right from this point. oh, well this is a huge, huge to there are few places at john and i had stopped and john brought some, some stones and i had asked him to bring me, ah, from jerusalem. because i thought jerusalem being the holy city, ah, and be always place to the jewish faith. she now these people made it, their challenge was right around the corner. when the memories be for

a blessing man always be remembered. ah walked through all the gray stones and i found only one based on that didn't have a rock on i made sure i put a rock there so everybody knows that they're not alone. they are in a thing that really hit me as about a 3rd of the more just numbers. they didn't have names. so it's, there was bodies in the ground and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wiped out. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody that move. oh, service reminder. oh, all the lights that were snow fell. this horrible place where the horrible camps around europe.

no stone from jerusalem on a rock only in quite the day. john, as when she realized that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what it's worth. a long voyage of also to the conclusion that there are more bad people that are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i, i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people to, to the truth that ignorance and fear bri hatred. and we don't have to be afraid ah

ah, with business and you will clean a b, e w that was chosen you americans grey you. when you wrote, you got to really just touching up credit union for when you was just touching. sure. it was nice. you talk to the counselor in full with you use their own the

what the problem you're still with me for just to watch stuff coming to off on all thought it was your which no longer your bush with mom because you know, you're bored, you school cold i don't know who you're you're i know for the don't know as much of a vehicle so they used to play new finances come with and i was to kevin kept some of the stones that he had and i asked him as we discussed it, what to do with those don't. if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have so i was very good to go to ashes for why exactly

auschwitz? well places were a 1000000 people died there. no. 1100000. they know to know, would you be willing to be awake at quarter to 5 in the morning tomorrow? for 4. with all the places you can visit. do that crashes for a little bit ago. i'm serious. i didn't take a moment the park lunch is to say and try and catch my breath. breaking down, realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is sure. as we crossed to the entryway dash, which kevin fell on my shoulder

a meeting, i'm sorry so, so, so just to talk today raised our kinetic kersats symbol. mm. disease is you walking through which we came to the destroyed gas chambers. and it was quite literally the, in the why that was where the railroad tracks are coming to that line

was part of the spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years. a part of our national anthem thinking about truce or dream of 2000 years. ah, i, [000:00:00;00] i go down here and walk down, there's one building standing. it's the last building remaining for those centers,

which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, like the numbers were off, they came here. i would say you're right, ah, this is as close as goes on for ever. ever answer your call. yeah, we get this money, thousands of people, please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory. i

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a trip even to start and probably one of them with my changing events in my life, i'm not gonna lie. to take a long time to take all the sense i feel a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion, all this hate, and i don't want it to be because i don't have anybody to 8, i was angry, i have no place to project it. i've never in my life had to process something. i've always been sorry. hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come with

and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed, but they were brainwashed where they were ready to kill a brow them because it was a jew. i don't know where the education would make a difference. but at the most that would drop out from school. they weren't interested in education. in the end result was you dying mining up at your own end to learn it in to the lab for you, but it was in the line for us to your mom and dad and you brothers, you, what we went through allies were turned upside down to one of those that ever again, i can't think of anything or in the family,

have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize to, you know, with john story is a story of hope. the story of victory, the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i, i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came and to where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families i've

that are either going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family, but say like a like cannon. we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survive because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to, to try to improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to change it as possible to come somebody else. and i know some of the people that were involved in my attack or change for the better. some of moral i stayed the same. can't really expect society to change. it begins with you.

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. the joggers archipelago coma the jo san diego garcia, the largest island in the archipelago is now the location of a very large u. s. military base, you get government div our a us government to make a military base and just devoted all of the people from their country so they can return back on the island. no, but we are fighting. that's why i'm fight. we'll fighting for the right. so i, we do not consider that the right of self determination actually applies to the trickle. since i don't the question of self determination, the legal advice we have received is actually the trickle. since we're not and are

not a people for me, it's time to move on and see what we can do for the child said community to return back home. there is no support from the united nation. i commission, i forget united michelle don't care about chug or send people ah, sidelines is our you crazy president. the legacy gives approving love to buy their super resume in the things for this right to some rather unclear would in for the us leader with police give you fits the result of policies of 3rd countries that wanted to disintegrate and undermine the russian world. rather put him to slows how was some powers long being interfering in nuclear is internal affairs. it's a sub thought it's relationship with moscow. i'm