ukrainian colleagues in the news on the main channels simply cut out the general plans of the general assembly during the chancellor’s speech, but scholz told the fact about russian imperialism to an empty hall. he we must avoid dubious decisions that represent the world only in name , what the scholtz can say or offer to the world community, which will be exclusively german and not american. but nothing, in the german and european establishment there are no capable people at all this is something hollywood director christopher non is able to pull off. the opening games are a complex, honest, anti-bogenic film about the father of the atomic bomb. and those who chose hiroshima and nagasaki as her first targets. but the german fondlein will turn everything on its head, as she did at the honoring of the japanese prime minister kishida, a native of hiroshima, at the atlantic council, she will deliberately forget to mention the usa and it will turn out that it was russia

that bombed japan atomic bombs, many of your loved ones died on the day the atomic bomb wiped hiroshima off the face of the earth. you grew up hearing stories from survivors and wanted sharing them wanted to open our eyes to the past in order to learn lessons for the future. this trip gave a sobering start to themselves right there, 7, which i will not forget, especially now, when russia is again threatening to use nuclear weapons, being itself, an outspoken manipulator and opportunist. fund. orleans always appeals to the key property of this archetype of european politicians, demagogues and half-educated people, to his total ignorance and stupidity, for the sake of words , the german foreign ministers call the chairman of the prc a diplomatic dictator a scandal arises out of the blue. detractors may applaud. but in germany, why did the journalists ask for this

? a conversation of astonishing content came out, the message reached the prc, this statement is an extremely absurd, serious insult to the political dignity of china and an open provocation. china summoned the german ambassador, you may have caused damage. in the interests of germany, of course. i took note of the reaction. it was a reaction from china, the way i expressed it, the way i expressed it, and the chinese reacted the way they reacted. well, obviously with this one, but the germans don’t need enemies against lena, she’ll do everything. for them, millions of jobs, hundreds of billions of trade turnover, and the well-being of citizens. nothing. but her own ego. everything looks like zelensky , who is now ruining ukraine only in a skirt and between them. there is one more thing in common: the firm belief that they will come out unscathed . they are beaten. in any case , there will be a cozy place for them somewhere in stanford, where they will pass on their knowledge and experience. raise the next generation

zelensky went to canada from america because of the frost. prime minister trudeau. i recorded a sweet video with him that looked like a veiled invitation to someday come for permanent residence with vladami you, my friend you have uniquest, vladimir my friend. are we the only ones who understand you? you confront putin every day, and we will always be there for as long as it takes. the greeting, and he upa, sounded in canada even in those days when in ukraine it was banned, verified by the entire post-war history and thousands of nazi collaborators with shores, from the issuance. no , it can be considered as an option for the future ; today, the picture of russia’s strategic defeat that western politicians imagined has noticeably faded. it has not lost its attractiveness, but still the concept changes from ukraine if we take into account

the media effect of breakthroughs, the targets of one or two cruise missiles no longer expect bright and quick military successes. she must simply hold on until they deem the moment favorable enough to abandon her. mikhail antonov anastasia borkovskaya denis lisitsyn andrey morning news of the week the mood in the west on the topic of the ukrainian counter-offensive is sour; none of the serious experts believe in the ability of the armed forces to achieve the stated goals, and zelensky himself does not say anything definite here in response to cnn’s direct question: is a breakthrough of the russian defense possible in the near future? months? it just added to the fog. i don't think anyone knows, really. even armed forces intelligence chief kirill budanov, known for their bloodthirstiness, admitted in an interview with the british economist magazine we understand that we will not

end military operations with a victory parade in moscow and in these conditions, in fact, there is despair and hysterical drone attacks in moscow , belgorod, crimea, sevastopol. for the balance of forces at the front it is insignificant, but it is read as agony and the main thing is that it is a strategy. here , under these conditions, america insists on continuing the bloody banquet on the question of negotiations. instead of war, white house officials are brown, the genre gives orders. we promised to provide the necessary security assistance and they need to continue to fight bravely. trench, however, from the ukrainian side , it was stated differently by alina mikhailova, the head of the medical service of the nationalist unit of the whole world. da vinci, what is working in the kupino direction, her recent speech at

an international conference called the yalta european strategy, which takes place annually? now in kiev it was furnished with all the convincingness next to the doctor on the stage. we must think about wounded soldiers. her trench units. true, the statement from the purged ukrainian mainstream sounded much stronger. we are spending blocks of money. we are suffering great losses of no romance. in all this, no, probably for the first time in the last 5 years. i am ready to give absolutely everything and talk to any people in order to enable my battalion to survive, and unfortunately, you will not read what is happening today at the front in the news, and i said today that there is a statement about the capture of crimea next year. this is a good slap in the face to our military; this is out of the question. today we are very relaxed by statements that today will come tomorrow. there will be no victory, neither today, nor tomorrow, nor unfortunately, in a year we must

survive this crisis and finally answer the question. so why are our people fighting at the front now , each of you, and why do we continue to hold out, no matter what. that's not the question. why is it still hanging in the air? answers in the west can only be found among those who are not bound by any obligations, either with the state or with major media, a pulitzer prize-winning investigative journalist. seymour hersh the same one that convincingly proved the northern streams were blown up by the united states. america now hersh has a different topic, the reality is that vladimir zelensky’s battered army no longer has a chance of victory, according to one official with access to operational intelligence information, the conflict continues as zelensky insists that this is how it should be, neither in his headquarters, nor in the biden white house. no one there is discussing the issue of termination. no one is showing any interest in negotiations that could lead to

stopping this massacre is all a lie,” said the non-official, referring to ukraine’s statement about the gradual advancement of the offensive during which the ukrainians are bearing. huge losses, but at the same time they continue to gain positions in several scattered areas, with the ukrainian military measuring their advance by meters per week. actually, that’s how it is from under the solidarity, our military correspondent grigorievna called our interlocutor and guide, the commander of the brigade’s engineering and sapper companies, nevsky, everything explosive in the solidarity within his competence and the corresponding goodness , a trained eye notices immediately after them the city should remain safe. our task is. uh, demining the infrastructure of this city, which

was minimal in further construction. threats of danger in the life of a specialist who will restore the city of solidar, this flank of the defense of artyomovsk by our troops is still heavily shelled, a large bus stop near which i turned around for you, there the tank was working in the direction of the enemy. in general, the situation is difficult, we need to work very carefully now. yes, this is a period of time, but it will happen. anything can happen. yes , everyone is leaving, these words of our interlocutor came out quite terribly prophetic, as if a reminder of death there were graves right in the trench on the other side and

the assault group itself. ours came further from the side, chur, the commander of a company of sappers, showed off his farm with pleasure and enthusiasm. this is a mine counter warehouse. we notice that he has a flashlight, it is covered in red, because mining, as a rule, occurs in the dark using a special device. here we install the capsule at a distance, detonate it and fly away at a distance of 70-80 m. the cartridge itself is cocked and the cartridge is installed there. if the enemy does not clear mines with him, then they will clear mines themselves. it's very convenient. for everything, we ourselves have a warehouse of anti-pedal mines for zm72. a mine of circular destruction within a radius of 25 meters, nothing alive remains, the main charge flies out of a glass 90 centimeters high and, in principle,

2400 cylinders fly in different directions our interviews with chur. and just talking about life turned out to be the last frames where he died alive. on the same day and just a few days before the end of his contract , it happened that she was demining the city , despite the fact that he had just returned from the front line, where he was laying engineering minefields. sapper rotor is a production facility. uh, cleared enemy fields, and, accordingly, mining installation, mixed fields with anti-tank anti-personnel meters, that is, a contour. we 're stuck here with you. basically a counterattack rested on the interaction of all branches of the military, including sappers at the headquarters of the nevsky brigade, we were able to observe the process of conducting combat operations almost online patriot in touch.

now you can shoot shrapnel at g-260 and higher. i understand, we are working and spotted another ukrainian armored personnel carrier planning to move on the attack. what was his driver thinking? it’s impossible to recognize now, but he was blown up right in the minefield installed by the chur and his guys. he had very high demands on himself for his knowledge and his duties. e to diligence. uh, conscientious proactive execution of orders. he was completing a task. and after completing the task it is far away. i couldn’t always say that this was what prevented us from doing this, but despite this, they still did it. chur made a significant contribution, eh.

in order not to walk too far, at night today he carried out the task of installing burned wounded sappers on a minefield, right next to the place where two tanks were already standing . combat mission delivered to the hospital shell-shocked, but alive they are given all the necessary assistance. he remained in solidarity, forever and certainly when the city is finally restored and rebuilt. one of the streets will bear his name , berezhnoe or kvitalevich. that was his name and he was posthumously nominated for the award of the order of courage grigory vdovin dmitry mishkevich gennady korneev andrey rudenko and oleg bondarenko news from the donetsk people 's republic in dagestan a parliamentary forum was held on the historical and cultural heritage of russia the head of the federation council valentina matvienko other forum participants discussed multicolor the cultures of the regions saw a lot in ancient

derbent. but the most exciting event was the meeting with relatives and friends of the participants in the military special operation. valentina matvienko admitted that she herself asked for this meeting and could not help but do it. just to bow deeply to you all. to say a huge word of gratitude to you for raising such sons as real patriots of our compatriots. more than 25 thousand dagestanis are taking part in the special operation and among them there are already eight heroes of russia. i wanted to listen to you, does everything work like that? how we really want everyone to be surrounded by care, attention, love from both the state and society, and what else needs to be done, the mother of the first hero of russia

, nurmagomed. gadzhi magomedova, behind pizhamazaev , spoke about the idea of ​​​​building a rehabilitation center for participants in the special operation and asked for benefits for entering a university not only for the children of dead soldiers. well, other members of their families are all combat veterans. children have the right to study for free on a budget basis, but you are right, brothers and sisters, okay i i marked it. thank you very much, we have a report on the heroes, participants in the special operation, elena erofeeva, with the doctors. behind one you hear, brother, there’s one more lying there . let's do this, when

the blood of life around the soldier oozes from the lacerated wounds, the soldier tightens the tourniquet to no less. we must have time to get to the first aid station in 6 minutes at an unimaginable speed along the roads of the burnt artyomovsk, snatched from death , time, doctors count down with heartbeats the time that can be lived, after which it is possible to save a person who can get out of shelling a person in 30 seconds. in the garage, shells often lie nearby, but the scattered fragments do not penetrate thick walls. you can work here, they don’t do operations, they only give pain relief, bandage the military doctor, put up a novocaine blockade, wait until the hospital, if the enemy has identified the medical center, hitting with cassettes, they move, no way is calculated, that is , they also bring it in advance, that is, the flow, when it especially finds a big one, respectively. this is very fast, that is, taken into account. where is she, that is, trace car communication is difficult, a blow is struck there, well , lately physics cassettes have been living in the underground

. the walls vibrate from powerful explosions, but the kostroma paratroopers don’t seem to notice. the miner is preparing soldier’s pilaf. he was summoned from buckwheat in the spring by summons. i came to the family and said on a business trip, and i went to the front to pull the wounded out from being shot. you grit your teeth and drive away scared, it can be very scary. well, what can you do, a person can die there; weapons have become even more deadly; cluster munitions, which the united states supplies to kiev, are brought to severe consequences, a person dies immediately or forever, remains disabled 70% - these are mine-explosive herbs. cluster munitions, which have now begun to be used, are a terrible evil in the bushes. somewhere it all lies. and then it explodes, hitting everyone around, but even the severe ones are saved today by the central medical hospital. special

forces carried out a unique open-heart operation; they retrieved metal fragments from an exploding shell; the soldier was brought from a front-line hospital, where he was already stabilized next to a military surgeon in operating deputy prime minister of the ulyanovsk region. sergei kutets is also a practicing surgeon; he volunteered to go to the front. now he serves the state at the forefront of military field medicine. he stood all night, well, on the surgical table. he has a countdown going on, my task is to interrupt the report as quickly as possible, thereby speeding up his recovery. he will sooner return to duty and return there to zhenya and his family. dad to mom, doctors are not only going to the front; they are being invited to front-line villages and cities by a traumatologist from ufa, daniila whore, 2 has been receiving treatment at the vasilievsk city hospital for weeks. there are five-houses groaning nearby. 12 km

to the line, ukrainian missiles are flying towards vasilyevka, some kind of fear, still the experience was more accurate, and when i arrived for a day or two, i stayed and adapted. everything has become normal and normal. why didn’t you have to get used to the explosion, let’s say a shot, more precisely, and loud, sharp , unexpected, just local doctors, almost all of them left out of 70, only 20 remained for more than a year. they work without replacement leaves. no , well, those who remain are the doctors heroes, they from the first day until the end they provide assistance and hide in the basements. and now we are also working on shelling, even clear blue skies over the city. there is a threat to the whole, they are hitting civilians in a sophisticated manner; one of the hospital buildings was completely destroyed; the gynecology department was hit by hymers, part of a demolished wall. already

restored. when new shelling begins , the squad goes down to the shelter. there's a children's department there. here it was in gynecology. nine was nearby, zaporozhye region borders donetsk but from ukrainian screens television told about the valiant warriors from lvov who came to liberate the donbass about how lvov nationalists destroyed the population of donbass, they didn’t tell the ukrainians , they raised a generation of children who did not understand what was happening at all, that is, it was normal to go and earn extra money in the ato. what about earning extra money? it was connected with human lives people. they just didn’t think about it, the children had no future, no one had a future, medicine was gradually sliding into the abyss, the former minister. ulyana suprun demanded subordinates follow the slogan money follows the patient. if the patients did not have money, they were not treated

, they paid for syringes or medicines, when russia came to the rozov hospital. the drugs were delivered for the first time. this event, of course, is an event, because we didn’t have such a thing that we were so provided with medicines, all for a fee, if you were admitted to the hospital, you wrote a list and went to the pharmacy i bought more soviet equipment in the physiotherapy room, the year of manufacture was seventy-eight , younger than only the eightieth and fresh ukrainian heritage. just a hole in glass that left the aidar battalion to say goodbye to us, even a bullet was broken through the window. here they were military, well, ukrainian in march, 22 aidarovites. they took over the hospital. he broke down the doors, they set up positions on the second floor, tatyana’s ponytail came into the building, it was scary on the blood-stained floor, the wounded were lying against the wall, there were machine guns, when they retreated they took away everything that was in the offices,

and then they hit the hospital with rockets and fired at the pink building on june 19th of this in the same year , a hammers missile also landed in one of the hospital buildings. this is what's left of the building that was here x-ray room at the moment of the hit, the nurse was taking a picture of one of the patients; a simple villager was wounded. well, we survived, the hospital no longer operates as a 24-hour hospital because of the shelling, the patient is afraid to stay overnight in the morning, they come for injections in the afternoon, they go home to those who cannot come, the paramedic himself goes out. in fact, it was easier for me because of the spiritual verochka yes, irina began working in the evening in the village of azov , the ninety-first in 30 years. she experienced the collapse of the country twice. first ukraine became independent. now ukraine has disappeared, along with visa-free travel and european values, the average pension was 2,000

hryvnia, then for coal it was 14. well, we had 12,000 hryvnia last year and this year people. i mean, pensioners began to heat their houses, because people over 80 give them free coal, people have never seen this before. in ukraine, the chief doctor in the hospital offers to drink coffee with kiev cake. this is not nostalgia for ukraine, do not change the name, if the country has changed, its former colleagues, what we chose europe, took off our white coats, who's at the bar? who's the waiter there? who is where, here they were doctors, and there they are, well, what can you do, they are considered patriots. well, what about the motherland? and you and we are collaborators, what’s on their minds. and we remained on our land. we stayed in our homeland, looking for a hospital , and there weren’t enough doctors left: a physician, a therapist, and a dentist. specialists from other russian cities, such as

melitopol and st. petersburg, are welcome here. the child psychiatrist moved before such a doctor. there was no psychologist from ryazan here, a big country. your regions will not be left in trouble elena erofeeva vitaly kaydanovich natalya panchina oleg dubinin vesti nedelensky district of chechnya the ministry of emergency situations is carrying out mine clearance work in the lands to discuss the details ramzan kadyrov , during a business trip to moscow, met with the head of the minister of emergency situations alexander kurenkov. chechnya noted that this work is very important for the residents of chechnya and emphasized the importance of training local employees. alexander kurenkov promised to monitor the issues personally. earth, i think security. shalinsky district will established.

the question is everywhere, kostroma has found its main shrine. the epiphany cathedral of the kostroma kremlin, the cathedral was destroyed by the bolsheviks in the thirties of the last century, but now restored this morning, the patriarch of moscow of all russia kirill illuminated the recreated epiphany cathedral and held the first divine liturgy there. from kostroma dmitry casting. the first divine liturgy of the revived and illuminated epiphany cathedral sounds 90 years later, confirm it until the end of the century, unshakable and glorified in you, the service was headed by the patriarch set new tasks for ourselves and inspire people to solve these problems. therefore, we need to move them

forward and upward and do everything without fail. this is the only correct vector of the spiritual, if you want the cultural and even political development of russia , alexander nevsky’s brother, prince, is on the kremlin hill. vasily founded the stone assumption cathedral with the altar not to the east, as according to the canon, but in the direction where the great shrine of russia fedorovskaya icon was revealed , all spiritual life around this image in kostroma necessarily occurs saints, not fedorov's greatest icon. the ruin was kept in the assumption cathedral, which was the cathedral of the entire diocese. in july 2015, patriarch kirill illuminated the foundation stone at the foundation of the restored temple, according to the surviving drawings and measurements, specialists revived the architectural pearl. for 8 years , a computer model of the destroyed kostroma kremlin was created, work with the blessing of the patriarch. many

kremlins were built at the expense of the orthodox benefactor viktor tyryshkin. our country is destroyed. and this one is destroyed; it is no longer there, nowhere else even in guidebooks and we decided to take a risk and explore the possibility of restoration. they decided to start with the most complex bell tower of the self-taught architect, stepan vorotilov and the epiphany cathedral , the tomb of the kostroma bishops, they tried to restore the cathedral. eh, that's the way it was. here it is, for example, it was not painted. and here, too , there are few paintings, only the dome has painted sails. but there is a lot of stucco and gilding here, lower one. the temple of the cathedral was dedicated to the wars of bone-swords who fell in defense of the fatherland, 28 slabs were installed in it, on which were inscribed with the names of 262 heroes of the soviet union and the full st. george knights of the kostroma region. so far we have reached the number of 33 regiments. i haven’t seen it since

the 18th century. that is, these are those who took part in the war of 812 in the crimean wars. and within the walls of the cathedral they opened a museum dedicated to the military clergy. here, as in the ancient assumption cathedral, the military shrines of the banner militia regiments and units that were formed in kostroma for many centuries are kept. the kostroma region became famous in the fight against foreign invaders. it is called the land of kings of heroes such as alexander ponomar, artilleryman of the 1065th kostroma airborne regiment in the zone of a special military operation. he received two wounds, and after the second he lost his leg. now i am forced to move around on a prosthesis about how to cultivate the quality of a warrior in myself. he tells the schoolchildren. lessons in courage. a protector is that person who protects you from all of you. here, what is this, what in my understanding is this, this means this is the kind of person who is ready, as it were, to sacrifice himself for the sake of society. this is who the defender of assistance

to the front is on kostroma land and at the level of regional authorities and from grassroots self-organization in family kitchens food packages are prepared for the soldiers, ready-made soups that we are preparing for shipment. which in small workshops sews warm clothes and tactical medical items, to a certain extent, has been united in the task of providing assistance for the sake of victory. and this is not visible today, i am grateful and grateful to our ordinary fellow countrymen to the kostroma business, which today does a lot of work in the isupovskaya swamp in the kostroma region, too, defended the fatherland , here ivan susanin accomplished his feat , and it was there that susanin led the polish detachment, at

the end of february at the beginning of march 1613. there they found their death and arrive. the name susaninsky chronicle preserved footage of the square and the kremlin itself. during the visit to the city of nicholas ii, the autocrat came here for the three-hundredth anniversary of the romanov dynasty and took part in the laying of the monument to the dynasty. after the revolution , a figure of lenin was installed on the imperial pedestal , pointing with his hand towards the bell tower blown up by the bolsheviks, the bell tower is 64 m, restored and illuminated today. just like the pre-revolutionary one, just like before the explosion of thirty-four, there are three platforms, 10 20 and 30 m, and at 20 m and 30 m there are bells. on the lower tier there are three

bells of 16 tons, 8 tons and 4 tons. this is such a bass chord as the basis, in general, of the whole ringing. the bells were cast in tutaev exactly as historically the bell ringing of which spread along the volga all the way to yaroslavl , now the bell tower itself over the volga and its ringing again became part of the historical landscape on the elevator and how much we get, it rings, and there are two elevators and one for the disabled. i will work as an observation deck for tourists, both before the revolution and today, the highest point of the city is from here, all of kostroma and the volga spills are in full view. and over there further, this is the ipatiev monastery, there in 1613, from the foundation of the belfry, the delegation of the zemsky sobor went with the fedorov icon of the mother of god to ask for the reign of mikhail fedorovich romanov from this most important point in history

a new era will begin in the fate of the country; its rapid expansion from the kingdom of moscow to a great empire between three oceans , and therefore responsibility for the country is in the blood of kostroma residents. this construction must touch the people's heart. that is, people should feel the beauty of the lost mother russia, feel and desire this beauty. anton kosimovich egor vorobyov tatyana koroleva natalya yusupova vesti nedeli, kostroma region it is in the traditions of russian theater to respond to what is happening at the very beginning of the last century with a powerful response to the meaninglessness of a certain part of our intelligentsia became maxim gorky's play summer residents. this is when we don’t know what we want, when it’s unknown what we live for, when

we’re not responsible for anything and it’s unknown what it’s like in the brezhnev era. stagnation, the summer residents walked with a powerful implication, since the phenomenon of the imaginary avant-garde turned out to be typical during a change of system. but gentlemen must be different, we are the children of laundresses and cooks. children of working people, we must be different. never before in our country have there been intelligentsia who would be connected with the people, by blood, but this is a blood relationship. it should have ignited a desire to expand, illuminate, and rebuild the lives of people close to us, who are just working, suffocating from eight in the mud. they sent us ahead to find a way for them to a better life. we left and got lost. we ourselves have created this loneliness, full of anxious bustle and internal division. this is our drama, lord, but we ourselves created it; we

deserve everything that torments us. an old song lives when it is sung in modern okay, so the summer residents in the new production of the moscow theater on malaya bronnaya have undergone a complete reboot. konstantin bogomolov wrote a completely new play based on gorky, retaining only the names of the characters, and transferred the theme of meaninglessness to the action on the distant indonesian island of bali, where palm trees and the eternal summer of bali are one of the favorite vacation spots of russians, and in the last year and a half, a gathering point for those who sublimely call themselves relaxants, those who are frightened? one of them once became popular, whose singer russian guests the rich owner is called among themselves bg in comparison with the prototype of the play bg is a new character, but a legendary singer for the older generation, and now a fugitive foreign agent

is introduced as the highest symbol of meaninglessness. the once cult turns out to be empty, like a drum, and all the meaningfulness that bg once sounded turned out to be exaggerated. but what about the golden city, here is the golden city with transparent gates and a star . yes, the animals of beauty are filled with golden eyes. he is someone's heavenly flower in the zone

who forgets. yes, he didn’t write this text at all, and music too, but even in bali our compatriots. here's something else, although it's sluggish, but they've been waiting for the last year and a half. i haven’t been writing at all for the last year, to be honest, it’s strange, it seemed to me that in such fatal moments the artist, on the contrary, somehow begins to create vigorously. i don’t know, maybe someone does, and i don’t. you can output text like this. it should sort of levitate , you know, like a ufo hanging like something in the sky , alarmingly, incomprehensibly. and now there’s such an alarming, incomprehensible thing in the sky that they’re not composing a text at all. well, what is he composing? well, here i am i will teach you to love your homeland. i must forgive tryndets, my dear one. well, if you just

sincerely write what you feel about confusion, you don’t have to issue manifestos. yes, i went out into the street to perform in front of someone before leaving. well, i pulled the cay mask out, wrapped myself in a scarf and walked down the street. i see some people with very special physiognomies and eyes. i look at their feelings and they won’t. they listen to me not an interesting idea. i don’t understand who doesn’t care, they need it, who doesn’t love me, i’m curious. canon i want to go home to the snowdrifts for the new year, and the owner of the house also has her mother hanging a star on the tree right now, fell from

a stepladder and broke her neck, hips, a performance, although they look like merciless people there are still called sympathy, after all, they are alive, and many in the hall they even recognize themselves and their so normal feelings, and that’s all. there's sheer vulgarity there. there is also such an important game in this performance that gorky is such a time and such a time. it's kind of hot, stuffy , a little bit like chekhov's, look. chekhov's the plays keep flowing. these are, as it were , plays by people who seem to have recovered for some

time, as if they are in some kind of swamp, a swamp of relationships in such a viscous space. they all pass in the summer, here the summer has clearly dragged on for everyone, as has idleness, as has loss. at least bg speaks directly about this in some sense and i really want to go back and forth that we dreamed of returning everything. don’t understand, unhappiness is vulgar, childhood, no. to return to myself, the one who was afraid of people , embarrassed, ashamed, space, thought of the universe , read books. didn't know how to communicate or manipulate. i don’t know the one who didn’t know, i just didn’t know.

then, walking along the streets, i didn’t think about the passing women with words in a line and in this they felt joy and meaning and pleasure, i was i, you understand. and suddenly i took it and left myself somewhere far behind on the side of the road. for what? why? there is no answer, the past is lost and it doesn’t matter now. it’s important that now it’s not me, it’s him. i left him, you know? or not, it's too simple. and he abandoned this boy like one abandons a dog. i just left the car somewhere and drove off. and he watched me i'm leaving.