[000:00:00;00] you have a whole one, and that is, there is no breakfast , it turns out, no, it just takes a lot of time, imagine , gathering 40 people, praying together, then sitting down, then reading the saints’ letters, guys, we need to cook the porridge again, in my opinion , and what ’s wrong with her, because she went, as they say, well, take a sniff. maybe at 10 or 11 o’clock, i worked as a freelancer , that is, i could get up at whatever time i wanted, don’t give up on the sandwich, that’s how i cut it, now i have to cut the cheese, when i lived in moscow, i could just some kind of sandwich with cheese and coffee, i always drank turkish coffee in the morning, sometimes i cooked some oatmeal for myself, i don’t see

anything bad in porridge. 15 minutes before breakfast, oh-oh-oh, len, what will happen if we don’t make it in time, they’re eating us, but no, well, they’ll eat sandwiches, it’s okay, we have force majeure, you can say, i’ll explain that we have porridge disappeared, we hoped for it, they will forgive me, but i insist, the porridge is normal, that’s all. after all, if you ate alone, that’s one thing, but if 20 people ate and went to work, that’s, i agree, i agree, it’s completely different responsibility, someone teaches, but there are girls who have never cooked breakfast in their lives, i haven’t cooked so many soups before, i have any soup, at home there was soup, some kind of cream, and then there’s borscht and cabbage soup , and fish soup, fish, i never

cooked so much in the monastery before. they don’t eat meat anymore, we eat fish, len, and you get up at the alarm clock, yes, at three, at three the alarm clock, yeah, and as long as you stand, i stand at two, that’s how i usually stand, with roosters, throw it here , we bring everything and it’s ready. good morning, we helped, enjoy appetite, len, tell me what will happen now, now i will play the rise on the violins, the rise usually rings the bell in

monasteries, they wake up and i will play, i have been doing this for a very long time, the pilgrims are rejoicing, the sisters are also rejoicing, this is the courtyard monastery, here it is very similar to a well, here you can hear everything in all corners of the yard, even if you whisper, so when i play the violin, the sound scatters, immediately flies into the cells, and you check your watch to make sure it’s right, yes. you have an accurate watch, accurate, accurate, 4 more minutes, what tunes do you play? well, for example, i transfer some of the hymns that we sing, the jesus prayer, to the violin , there is a hymn dedicated to the mother of god, i can play rachmaninov, of course, but this rarely happens, listen, a philistine question, and you’re

here every morning on a script, and even in winter? is it possible to have an instrument here in the winter at all on the street, then we actually have a lot of what’s possible and what’s not allowed somewhere in the monastery, i actually saw violins playing under, that’s why it ’s surprising, it’s her eyes that i remember, some kind of strange dress, a little unusual, when they met, the bachuka also found out that lena had an education, that she studied. to play the violin and blessed her to continue her studies so that she would not lose this skill, i had such a scenario-based childhood , that is, childhood, with applause, with such

fame, i... was going to try to enter the berlin conservatory, my friends told me everything , that it was in germany, in europe, especially in germany, that the best musicians gathered there, the most. composer there too such a field of activity, well, it was very inspiring, now what’s more important to me is probably inner peace, sometimes my parents come, they are musicians, they give a concert at least once a year, and do you remember how you told them about the monastery? yes, my mother is a believer, so it was easier for her to accept it, but they didn’t just accept it, not just, but like giving away your child, just in the prime of life, yes, you thought that you would have grandchildren, i’m making

plans for myself there, well, what kind of life did you want for your child, it didn’t happen, but you want him to be happy, well, of course her lost, but her girlfriends and friends lost her, young people who really hoped that she would have a blessed decision, in terms of a marriage proposal, but in fact, i also secretly hoped that maybe it wouldn’t be the monastery that would win, but the family after all , the father also fully hopes that maybe she will change her decision , of course, she wants grandchildren and... like any mother, naturally, we no longer expect anything from her, if she has already left our family, she will live in that family and will live by the rules of that

family, we go out on stage to play the concert was vivaly, and lina had red hair, it was of course strong. i couldn’t even tell her anything, because, well, well, you know where you’re going, well, in the end, then the hair began to shorten, shorten, then it completely disappeared, and this look, here it is too she says a lot, well, she’s already cut her hair, what to do next, how to change it, how to find the answer to the question, how to live, when she found out. prolbert i was nearby at 7:00 pm i was driving home from work and i called: how are you? says mom, something is wrong with me i got sick, i think something’s wrong with me, suddenly they call her, this blur jumps up and says: mom, albert is dead,

she’s trying to talk on the phone, she ’s trying to understand what happened, they fell, they fell, and he flew to the ground, already dead, because he had a weak heart, his heart broke, she breaks down, runs to one floor, to another, tells everyone about what happened, she, she completely forgot that she was sick, she realized that no one really knows when your last day is passionately she went to optina, in fact there she had her first confession, a general confession, now i understand that all her childhood talked about what she was looking for, she was looking for, she was looking for a monastery where she would live, she always had it inside her. there were no questions, that's all. god said, i love you, she could not

refuse. we have now approached the cave temple of st. nicholas the wonderworker. this temple goes deep into the mountain, it was partially dug by hand, that is, not by hand, with shovels, this is an icon of our workshop, it is made with an interesting technique, it is plastic, the top is covered with gilded paints , aged, such an interesting image of st. nicholas, it seems that in the cathedral of christ the savior there is exactly the same image. look how deep it is, it goes 15 meters deep into the mountain. there is low lighting, so mysterious, for all my friends, i pray, for

the living, for the dead, i pray for the friend who died, also without fail, i remember him every day, liturgy here, everywhere. streams of tears, so that he would give, so that he would give peace to the soul, so that he would give. he and i could talk very little at all, but we listened to music together, we watched a movie, yes, we could be silent, but in fact he also felt bad , he also had constant dissatisfaction with life and he went to look at moscow at night and fell from the fire escape, constantly... he said, i want to find

a feeling flight, although he fell in love, last month, unrequited love , like a child in general, there was such a stupid moment that i later remembered 10,000 times when he was sitting with me, drinking tea, or what? and then he says: that’s it, i’ll go, let’s go for a walk, yagur, or something, suddenly with you, let’s go for a walk, i say, wait, wait, wait, i wanted to read something to you there, i wanted to read the gospel for the first time in my life, and he says, oh well, later, and i could return it, but i got angry and said, oh well , go, no, i didn't say.

i thought, okay, then, then, then, then, and then they call 2 days later and say that, well, i blamed myself, yes, for this moment, but why is that, it makes sense, everything is as it is, right? yes, it seems to me that he was generally looking for god, if i had stopped him in time, then when he went to that roof, he would have maybe he became a monk, his family is still suffering now, the fact that he is gone is very

strong, dad, mom. well, tell me, here’s how we can help, that is, pruning or already eating, this is a great help, the harvest will be in a week, it’s already the end of november, we want the sisters to come and pick grapes, we can give them work, you’ll be there now help me collect the leaves, they will fall off the leaves, of course, over time, but we can help the grapes, we are not doing anything terrible now, we just pick off the leaves, don’t throw them under grapes, because grapes don’t like themselves, that is, others need to mulch them, we throw it on the path, and then we take it to a comfortable hole, and we tear off any leaves.

all the leaves can be torn off so that there is one berry, and where, where, where to pluck , that is, here, or, here is the main branch, the eyes, yes, and you open, they easily break off, just like that, that is, it opens berry, and now we’ll see how many berries this bush produced this year, now let’s try it, it’s good, it glows right sun, right? lena, if you could turn back time, you are in the center of moscow, and the nightlife, this bohemian lifestyle, and someone tells you, you will be standing as a novice in a monastery of chicken coops, so could you imagine that, no, only in a terrible dream, probably a terrible one with him, yes, well, this is some kind of madness, i had this in my head... these are the ideas of orthodoxy that

were imposed, that there were some obscurantists there, that something was happening there scary and all so dense and never go there at all, but then even this expression of the orthodoxy of the brain was for the youth, and then you come, uh, and see that this is absolutely not the way it was presented to you, we now have the opportunity to feed you. chickens, let's better feed the chickens, and i'm sorry, they will eat from your hand, well, they will peck you, probably your hand, and you before you came to the monastery? you saw chickens, alive, well, yes, and in general i grew up in the countryside, and well, in fact, yes, we were the only family that had neither chickens nor cows, we bought eggs from everyone and milk, then we moved to the city, let's go, i personally know people in moscow who have never seen a chicken there, a cow, they don't know where

the eggs and milk come from, poor people, but it happens that we run away, no, who are the chickens, i won't catch it later. well, they walk around later, tanya catches them, in general, they all need to be done often, well, it’s bad not to collect them, we take them all off, well, the bad ones , we leave them, yes, the fleet verified them, they are like lanterns, yes, like lanterns, red, we then wrap them up, yes to paper. yes, yes, we keep them throughout the winter, we eat them in the winter, there are also apples, grapes, apricots, apricots here , cherries, pears, pears, but apricots are resting with us this year, yes, and i have an area that i looked after in the summer, i

watered the lawns, there on new territory, it’s very good, you can also breathe the air, you don’t even have to go for a walk, to find peace for your soul, to find peace for your soul, let’s go away , little cuckoo, little girl, where are you flying, little girl, now there’s a short pause, right after we’ll continue to tell the incredible story live the story of elena who disappeared 6 years ago artamonova. you are good, kind, bright, there are no people like you now, so something

got into your eye, let me look, so were you watching us? i thought you would tell me, your number was released this morning, he left alone, i was afraid to talk to you about bogdan, and if he looks for you, and if he calls, you will answer, my beloved premiere, on saturday on rtr, there are places that fascinate because they are part of the cultural code, because they have power, beauty and history. conquer, the squad is ready, explore, nature, dear mother, just incredible beauty, you already understand what the vietnamese’s favorite means of transportation is, there are 10 million moped

drivers here, try it, oh, your eyes run wide, how delicious everything is, as my mother says, it’s mind blowing, this world is worth seeing, smyth casters are the oldest profession in india, they say that a correctly made bukhara knife became a real amulet for its owner, a secret to the whole world, on saturday on rtr. so, did you get enough sleep? gentlemen, just a minute, attention, today is a big day, big holiday, dashing, we haven’t seen each other for a long time, czech , well, you know, for every cool fighter he’ll find an even cooler one,

you fell in love with them, yes, who are they, your wife or your boys, don’t ask stupid questions now, they are still loved por. you are responsible for your words, i am always responsible for my words, heroes of my time, beauty, rapping, the whole team, only on the platform we watch, i am famous, for you you can just tolcha, tolcha kabanov, but i recognized you immediately, she got into a fight with a mannequin , because he was wearing the same blouse as her. home, you see, wife

dejected, don’t be lazy, blow your nose into the curtain, that’s it, the issue is resolved, parade of humor, premiere on saturday on rt, this is the russia tv channel, live broadcast, we lived for 3 days in the city of orsk, in the iversky convent, where we found elena artamunova, who 6 years ago, she gave up her idle life in the center of moscow, and settled forever in a monastery cell. do not cry, my soul. do not be discouraged, do not be discouraged, my soul. trust, trust in the lord. fall, fall on the lord. i said father, i really wanted, uh, i would like to carve

some kind of wood, well, i initially thought that i would work with some kind of utensils, i love this ceramics, utensils, so i say, maybe the carpenters have some knives there, i’ll take them, he says, okay, he gives me, that means knives, cutters and then he says: you know, i need to cut out a cross, i say, okay, what kind, he says, 2 m, this is the sketch he shows, well, that is, a photograph of a cross from the 16th century, and when the priest suggests something and you dare, say, you will be blessed , then miracles happen, that’s actually true. that is, initially, of course, here i am on such things, well, it’s not finished, of course, it needs to be brought

to mind, i thought, what will come of me , i made some sketches, and then i took the face and began to sketch out such a sketch, it is still i didn’t finish it, i’m very ashamed of it , i scribbled it, i also communicate with my dad, he’s also happy. in this matter, the issue of sampling, although of course, he initially said, well, you should have a family, you should have a job, why are you bothering with nonsense here, well, everyone thought that i would play around and leave it, because such a creative person, there here, him carries, everyone said, oh well, let's see what will happen to you in a year or two , of course, i had options to get married,

we proposed several times, at some point i told the person that you know, i would really like to want a family, to live like everyone else, but in the world, having children, there he even suggested to me, let’s go to the countryside, build a house, make a farm, maybe a farm, so we can live peacefully , and i say, i would really like to, but i don’t want to, i can’t deceive myself and somehow redo it, you need to choose what your heart tells you, so this is my choice, i felt that there was a lot of suffering in the world. that people are unhappy and i didn’t understand why i was looking for an answer to this unconsciously, i could

turn to some unfamiliar people, come up and ask, this is the meaning of life, tell me, who would answer me, of course, everyone was mumbling something... then, because why did he even have this question, dumb, at the venerable seraphim... rovsky, in the forest , when he was waking up in the hut, a tame bear came to him, well, that is, he became tame, because that he was not afraid of him, the saints, and the animals often came to visit, they fed from his hands, because when a person approaches god, he approaches the state of adam, who lived in peace with all of nature, we

are now in the hut, seraphim of sorov, such a prototype of a hut, which spent many years, a russian saint, st. seraphim of soros, in the hut you can... see how people lived 100 years ago, 200 years ago, trestle bed, stove, wooden hips, rocker arms, knapsack, birch bark and so on , and things, that’s what you took with you from the world, what you can bring things, i took a minimum of things with me from the world, because i didn’t think that i would need any equipment, well, for work, in principle, you don’t need much here. because they even sew clothes for you, well, you wear your clothes for a while, but a working woman does not immediately become a novice, she also tests herself, that before becoming a novice, she thinks some more, then submits a petition, i was in europe, in holland and talked with students of the academy of arts, i was going to go there too, i was thinking about

this, they sort of casually... said , well, in a conversation with each other: oh, let 's go on a retreat this weekend or not, and i realized that this is something they mean by saying that we'll go to the dacha and relax there , we went on a retreat, that is, buddhism has become embedded in european culture, because they have lost christian spirituality. post-truth happens to those who are internally ready for this, and when the confessor sees that the person is ready, he can offer him tonsure, before which the person can live in a monastery for 10 years, 15 years, this can take a very long time, it depends on the person’s internal readiness, you will never

be ready for the plan, completely , because a person always has... but when a person gets married, he also has doubts, but he chooses it, we now have courses , theology for monastics, therefore , until i complete these courses, i will not be able to take monastic vows, that is , promises of voluntary nothingness. you have nothing of your own, everything that is here on me, now, is all monastic, uh, obedience, cutting off one's will, evil wisdom, that is, not getting married, well, there is also a very beautiful tradition there, since monks are like

children who are born into tonsure, those who are tonsured, they put on white shirts, like children, long and the symbol of repentance is like this, that they crawl straight on like this, and to the altar, like uh, yes, a symbol of repentance, a symbol of the spiritual path, very difficult, sisters, it’s time for us to go, yes, we want to tell you a huge thank you for meeting me, sheltering me, telling me everything, showing me everything, it’s my first time in the monastery, sit down on the path, god grant you more of the most important treasures in life - these are good people , god bless you, guardian angels, we are waiting for you to visit, 7 years

ago, i lived a life about which... many of my peers read, gave , i lived in the center of moscow, was engaged in creativity, went to exhibitions, from the outside it seems that this is a life that, well, many young people dream about, but when what happened to me happened, that is, when i went to god came, it turned out to be all unnecessary to me, and somehow naturally fell away by itself, like scales. for me, the monastery is my family, where i live, it’s the people, first of all, of course , it’s very beautiful here, and i love this place, and as they say, i’ve done the monastery, from here only to the kingdom of heaven, we carried it for her, oh,

they brought out for her, oh, they brought out for her, a hood with mattia, oh, they brought out for her a hood with mattiya, geta here is my, this is mine, oh, this is mine, served by god, oh, this is mine, god narrowed mine, having seen in the monastery there are amazingly bright and sincere people, and you and i, anton, have become a little different, i completely agree with you, but today is the time our program has come to an end, but in exactly a week in this studio we will continue to discuss what worries everyone,