i was talking, it’s very hard, it’s as if my brother died, don’t you always take part of the pain on yourself? when you come into contact with such situations, cases, with such people , and this is also a mission, this is also your calling now in a sense, as i understand it, i understood what the word service is, you can serve in the army, and at the same time break your contract, but in my case it’s so stuck that it’s probably impossible, among the participants in the project of wives and heroes there are women, wives who will no longer wait for their husbands, unfortunately, let’s we'll see.

story about them, it was september 1, when we entered the kazan federal university , they lined us all up on the line, there was a young guy standing with a sign, it was adele, and my friend said to me like that, albina, look what a handsome guy, can you imagine , he says, you will marry him, and after 7 months it turned out that adele came up to me for streaming lectures, so he invited me to take a walk after the lecture and we went with him, and he holds my hand and does not let go of it, well, he just doesn’t ... i felt that next to me there is a real man who just took me by the hand and led me, then on that day i realized that this is the person i want to be. since childhood, adel shemgunov dreamed of becoming a military man, so he deliberately failed his first session at fisfak and joined the ranks of the special forces. they got married to albina and soon had a daughter. in february 2022 , adele was, as it seemed, another one.

while on duty in belgorod, when we had already watched the news, i couldn’t get out of bed, but my parents fed me, because i understood that he was there and i understood that he would not back down, he would be there until the bitter end, on march 25th he called me, literally for 30 seconds, he said, i love you more than life itself, and on march 26th, when i i woke up, i already realized that he was gone, i felt this. we had a very strong connection with him, i really felt it very strongly, and i began to look for connections with his comrades, asked for information about him, unfortunately no one could write me anything, so on april 5 they called the intercom and said, that the military and that's it, i opened the door and fell.

they came to tell me that he had died, and then they sedated me, i don’t remember anything, i only remember that they told me that they would bring him to me on april 9, his birthday, adel shemgunov died during the battle, saving wounded from the shelling, he shielded them with himself from the shell; for his feat, adele was presented with the order of courage, posthumously. aminka didn’t go to kindergarten at home today, she’s growing up already, she says she’ll be a doctor, she really wants to follow in your footsteps, why does she want to? doctors? i don’t know where she got it from, she says that she will save people, i often tell her about you so that she doesn’t forget.

will never forget, promising you this, i love you, i love you more than life itself, in our studio albina shamgunova, widow of senior sergeant adel shemgunov, accept our condolences, what helped you not to break, how did you withstand all this ? love and gratitude for the fact that i had the opportunity to be the woman of a real man, you know, during the funeral, looking at adele, i always heard a voice, some voice that i constantly repeated thank you, thank you, blessing, i remember how i then attached my last letter to his heart, i lived all this time with bye. what was in this letter? i

wrote to him about how much i love him, you know, me. i was taught this by a child, because the child accepted loss more than anyone else, after the funeral, when we brought a large portrait , took him home, and minochka came up to him , kissed the portrait, raised her eyes, looked at me, asked one single question, mom, dad more won't come, i'm very i’m grateful to him for not leaving his continuation, and how many i am now, four. does she even remember dad? yes, she, she talks about him in kindergarten, but what does she say? you know, such moments when fathers bring their children to satik, when i come with her, it’s like this is this cry

of the soul that is accumulating in her, she’s just her, but my dad is a hero, this one, you know , justify his absence. this costs a lot, in fact, this is also a burden that the child needs to bear with dignity, who is with you nearby now? my parents, my parents, my spouse, with whom i have an excellent relationship, my parents, who sold their house and came to my city, oh, this is invaluable support, but how did you two meet? you know, after..." after the death of the hotel, as soon as i started to recover from the tranquilizers, i went out, we had a place in the black lake park with a dress, i went out for a walk, i was sitting in the park, and i cried, and i just understood, the fact that people do not realize

what is happening on the front line, they are simply blind, that is, they decided some of their own everyday problems, where to drink coffee, where to go. but people like my husband were dying there and i thought to myself that something needs to be done, well, i need to continue, i need to not lose heart, not remain in a state of victimhood, but to continue what adele was doing. in the fall , i learned about the project launched by ekaterina, zhon heroes, this project was picked up by our activist in the republic of tatarstan, oksana’s borodina. and the first of those invited was me, one of the first, when i got there, you know, it was so very scary, in fact, because i was the only widow, who came to the first photo project, to the first photo session, and i realized that

it is much more difficult for girls who are wives of active military personnel now, because they live in the unknown, afraid of these calls and, no matter how terrible it sounds, to face loss and surviving it or the unknown, these are two different things , in fact, and i realized that i want to continue working with these girls, we also formed an asset to collect humanitarian aid for the special forces soldiers in which my husband served began to help, among us there are wonderful mothers who go to donbass, bring humanitarian aid to their sons, this project... thousands of women, it gave me a lot of strength, albina writes incredible texts, what she writes gives strength to many, just complex ones, we just reading, i’m so grateful to you for your strength, she lost her husband, but she takes pity on us

, those whose husbands are alive, it seems to me that only a russian woman is capable of this, i believe that our husbands did not die so that we gave up on their lives, did not die so that we can live a peaceful life and take our children to school, precisely for this, ekaterina said that pity is impermissible, have you ever encountered a manifestation of self-pity? in fact, when i came to the john heroes project for the first photo shoot, i was afraid of the look of the active john of the military, who could look at me with pity, i didn’t want that, i didn’t want to be in the position of a victim, this is absolutely not my role, and when i realized that it’s hard for girls just like me, they they understand my loss, they support me,

but they have their own pain, each of us has been given enough of this pain from above, has your husband, spouse, adele accomplished a feat? at the cost of his own life, he saved others, when and how did you learn about the details of this act of his? march 25, and he called me for the last time, it was literally a call for 30 seconds with the words: i love you more than life itself, please tell my parents that i’m okay, he always hid his business trips from his parents because that his parents were elderly and he was afraid that this information would harm them, and i hid it from them, so we hid syria for six months, we also hid ours, and on march 26 i already realized that he was no longer in the world , i just woke up. with tears in my eyes, i didn’t remember what i was dreaming about, i just woke up with tears in my eyes, and

my first desire was to go to the unit to start beating rapids, find out information about him, we had these chats that the wives collected military personnel, i started writing there, i started calling the unit commander, the detachment commander, i arrived at the detachment, i brought humanitarian aid, these were the looks of the guys who were in the detachment, constantly running away from my question: elusive glances and then i realized that most likely they would come to me with bad news, that’s what happened on april 5, they rang the doorbell, the intercom, they told me the unit number, that’s all, i’m actually very grateful to the detachment for not informing me in any other way, but telling me exactly the way they did did because they organized, logical

help, they organized medical assistance, the entire commanding staff of adel arrived, you distracted them from them, you found out how everything happened, and on april 9 we buried adel on the day of his thirtieth birthday, albina, tell me, in general, how can i console you? women who have lost their husbands as widows, what words need to be found for support, we need to understand that our men are watching us now, they really want to see happy wives, they really want our children to grow up with dignity, we need to look at the child, because that no one needs a child except you , yes, that’s true, ekaterina, what do we have to fight when defending the interests of the wives of widows, our heroes, what can’t we come to terms with, the injustice that we are fighting? together with ekaterina we have a whole team

, we provide legal assistance, social, psychological, injustice as expressed, someone, someone lives their life as if nothing is happening, there are many of them, unfortunately, and we really want so that they wake up, but i don’t know what to do for this, probably from my own experience. how mom, first get up, get up, get up, then you can pour some water on it, make your voice louder, but you need to be alert, and we will have to do it, for your concern, sincerity, responsiveness, one person who will now enter the studio wants to thank you , evgeniy, please come in.