[000:00:00;00] they carried candles, they carried medicine, they took someone out, october 3, a demonstration of many thousands is going to the white house, the blockade was broken, the barbed wire was broken , the mayor's office was taken, calls to go kostankin, to go on air , i remember that warm evening, i was eager to get there in the thick of events , but mom locked the door and hid the key. vacationing together for the first time in 25 years, lyosha didn’t meet us, and on the fourth we found out that he had died, we abandoned kostankin, it was completely unclear what to do there, but they

were abandoned and basically shot, lyosha, natasha. i always wanted only one child boy, the most beloved, the most desired, he studied well, he was a primary school teacher, he had the most terrible punishment, when i took the book from him, and he began to read under the blanket with a flashlight, he was such a really gentle guy, it will rain , puddle, mud. there’s a bug there, he’ll pick a leaf, he’ll bring this bug to a safe place, i give him a cutlet, i take him out into the street and feed the homeless cats that we had in the basement, and the stray dogs, so i’m teaching lessons, i’ll turn to the teacher, i’ll wipe away my tears,

because i look out the window, and there we have they went skiing on a huge territory, and serozha was tall, he went first , i move my hands, i watch how my son walks in a circle, my heart rejoices, in one school we think, after he issued a decree, 400, it was a decree against the law, against the constitution, and serozha began to go to the rally, but he said, mom , i will soon be 18 years old, i myself want to participate in the life of my country, i want to figure everything out myself, i go, listen to both sides, a time of collapse, humiliation, impoverishment, criminal division, huge

pieces of property. countries. the dissolution of parliament was perceived by many as the rule of law, the opportunity for any citizen to influence politics and destiny , as a stinging blow of injustice. then he told me, at the barricade, on october 3, he deceived me already, i didn’t go there, but he and the people went to the station, he promised me

to come at 4 o’clock in the afternoon, he’s not there, i’ve already started. worry, then i started watching on tv, these terrible chronicles, everyone said that nothing would happen, it would work out, they wouldn’t dare shoot, not only children thought so, adults of the ninety-third also in many ways they were children, naive, straightforward, or confused, then understanding in a deafening new reality , he came home, completely disheveled, terrified, mom, what’s happening, i don’t understand anything, people are being killed there, everything is burning there, i told him, i said that this was a deliberately created provocation, listen to me, zhenya, don’t go, no, i have to go, i have to figure out

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knew how to sit in one place, when he grew up and began to go on hikes, he wrote a note: mom, i went on a hike, don’t worry, i kiss you, well, for the whole three days, you can’t find a place for yourself, then he appears, and he is in his entourage, he was a leader, he loved to read, and the most interesting thing, he loved to read the plays of shakespeare, chekhov, bernard shaw, he loved his brother, he looked after him very much, protected him very much, then when i became very seriously ill, i was sick for several months, and i was literally between life and death, he sat next to me for 10 nights, and he came out. for me, he pulled me out of the other world, as a result he didn’t have to go through flight tests tests in the club, the instructor offered him for next year, there was no next year. october 4, early in the morning, the assault

on the white house begins, the first to die are the barricade workers, sleeping in tents, crushed and shot armored personnel carriers. tanks hit the building and snipers join in. we lived nearby at the time, i... woke up to the sound of the windows ringing in the apartment, what was happening , i asked, they told me, and my heart sank , i didn’t let him in, i begged, i... cried, i hit him on the cheek, i said, don’t go, don’t go, no, especially now i’ll go, but i have the little one is sleeping behind the wall, who should i choose, and i stayed, he left, he was in crisis, there was a crisis on tv all night, i didn’t leave the tv all night, i felt it, i felt it in a second. i said: “zhenya, no, zhenya

died.” i waited for him all day, i hope that maybe he will come after all. by evening, i already understood what i had to look for, i called my friends , said, guys, help me, i arrived in my car on the 5th, drove in from the park, but didn’t get there all the way. stopped somewhere, walked on foot, there on the right there was some kind of kiosk on the side, there were a lot of corpses, and without belts, for some reason, everything was lifted up, thrown off, in fact, i was looking for my daughter, you know, so in particular , so to speak, i just looked, they were standing ambulance, there were military guys standing in a cordon, i went up and said, guys , let me in, my son was here, they silently let me through , i went, i walked between the dead people, i found a nurse who was sitting in a completely

insane state and smoking, here i was squatting, i tell you, help me find, my son must be here somewhere, maybe you saw him, maybe he is wounded, maybe among the dead, she says, you know, there are so many guys here, wounded, dead, young, i can’t help you, you go better in morks lifosovsky, yes, i was in the shklif, well, imagine this gurney, on which, yes, that means, five corpses lying on top of each other, like this , and this is not in one place and not on one trolley , so i walk along them, so to speak, they show me, here is a woman, here is a woman, here woman, all this was cared for in these events, all this was killed in these events, but in my opinion , i deprived about four or five morgues, i wouldn’t have seen natalya, so to speak, i don’t know what

pushed me, when.. .. in the description, a 45-year-old woman in overalls with boots means with gray hair, in the fifth department, when i arrived, they knocked her out to me alone, i saw her, the line was diagonal, well, the field of the head with the ring ones, how did you find out about the death of your son ? they called us and said that he was wounded in the hospital, it almost affected him from there from the battlefield, teri dunkin, an american student, carried him out, he carried him and, in my opinion, six or seven other people, an ambulance, someone bring an ambulance here, guys, and you with the heavy ones.

they brought him to botkinskaya, he died in botkinskaya, he was still alive, but i broke into the morgue and i saw shelves like this and bodies lying on top of each other, but they pushed me out right there, zhenya vinovonov brought people out from under the fire, saved them life, a witness told his mother how he died, one of the saved wives, there were 11 of them, he led them everywhere, they didn’t crawl, went out and went out onto this street, on the other side of this street there was a cordon, they managed to enter one of the entrances, then they decided that one of them would take a white scarf and go to the uncoupling, and zhenya came up and said, please help us, now we are absolutely not involved, we are unarmed, the officer looked and said, guys, one by one quickly across the field and they gradually all ran one by one, zhenya was

the last, at that moment an armored personnel carrier drove out from around the corner near a standing building, from there he climbed out into drebodan drunk the mayor started the line, so the life of my son, an eighteen-year-old boy, has ended, a boy who probably could have done a lot in life, but who was a worthy person, well , how could i... i couldn’t find him in any way, here it is monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday , backing away, we are still crying, we are still looking for how many there were, parents who were running around moscow these days in search of their children. it was impossible to wrap my head around what happened, soon my dad the priest went to the black building, at the stadium, where there were still traces of blood, the first

memorial service. i remember funeral pancakes and a woman sobbing in the cold who held them out to everyone. we arrived at the institute from krefozor, then at one end there was crying, then at the other end a woman who was working, she came up, hugged, said, brace yourself, we ’ll beat him now, he’ll know you, it was seryozha on his face, such horror. his eyes are half open, i wrote down his wounds, these are seven wounds from a heavy machine gun, he says

, brace yourself, you need to save him. natasha died at ninety-three on october 3, and dad passed away in january ninety fourth year, my father loved natasha very much, he just obviously didn’t survive her death, well , how he coped, purely like a woman. sometimes howled openly, i’ll tell you now, because it was complete darkness, they kept it in my dress, we had nothing, we were beggars in the ninety-third year, and we erected monuments, maybe yura told you, with

the money raised from the sale of potatoes and honey, himself in blame something, of course. it was necessary to know more about her, but you understand, so to speak, the freedom of a child is one of the components of his formation, well, yes, this sounds like its own justification, but it’s true, you can’t caulk it up, so to speak, and not let anything grow out of it, girl, you know, this is a very independent person, depriving her of freedom, well, i don’t know, it’s the same kill. when the cold comes in the dawn, burn out the fire, you have an unbearable heart, and be sure that it is stored in you, it will save others in bad years,

it will save others in bad years, the most sincere and honest guys, well, that’s where they get this despair, for justice, well, in their minds, to protect the weak, that’s

protected. this is my son's gine grapes at the time of his death, this big one. a warm sweater, this is the back, pierced through, pierced through, here is a bullet , an ordinary bullet, here is an ordinary hole, then a bullet is an ordinary hole, here everything is disassembled, torn to pieces, this is a field with a displaced center of gravity, in a different way, others poly, they don’t tear it apart, here are traces of his blood, i don’t touch anything and they won’t... they will touch it, there is no concept of late in terms of crimes against humanity, so i hope that all this will be useful. we are children terrible years of russia, unable to forget anything, these lines of alexander blok

, about those who grew up too early, about dreamers, russian boys and girls who are the first to rush into the fire and burn, without their flight, we cannot understand our entire history. and then we suddenly found out that there were red-brown ones. alcoholics and drug addicts, they created some kind of disgrace, our alyosha was among them, until now many of those who were horrified by subsequent episodes of violence and lawlessness believe that then in october they suppressed the extremist bastard, the brutal lumpins, they don’t know and don’t want to know about the dead people, about who they were. various people , both very simple and a lot of intelligentsia , natasha’s father is a university professor,

still teaching, alyosha is the grandson of a writer, seryozha is the son of a teacher, his wife’s mother is an editor of scientific literature. civil war, you said, what kind of civil war is there? it was a mass execution, old age does not wait quietly for them. their path lies in other worlds, even though they are sinners and not saints, only god takes them from us and their souls are probably tossed here among the bursting clouds, looking at us. yak their hearts are already tormented by your law. it is good for me, for you have measured me, together you are bright, together.

every sin in peace let us pray to the lord to this memorial from 905 there was an annual procession with portraits of those who were officially recognized as dead, and there are those who disappeared, how many actually died then, i would also like to know. my work on the commission to investigate the events of '93 did not give me clear answers. i just raised new questions. historian valery shevchenko is looking for the missing, resurrecting the unknown names of the victims. but in particular, we managed to reach missing person. kostya barinov. in 1980, he came back from the army and said: “mamedi alekseevna, well, these are generally mysterious words: “mom, i lived.” 33 years old , in july 9 of his year he turns 33

years old and on september 26 he goes to the house of soviets mom didn’t see him again. it wasn’t until march 1994 that at least barov was officially declared missing . andrei yurievich golikov, he was 28 years old then, he was disabled due to an industrial injury, i served, that means in afghanistan before that, and 3 october last once he called his mother, well, that means he said, mom, don’t worry, we are at the white house, interesting events are happening here, and this was their last conversation, she never saw him again, either alive or dead,

well , here ...like there is no body, no case, yes, events that are so not really understood and not investigated. the most important lesson of october for me is that in any clash, the first to suffer are people with pure and high souls, the bravest and most honest ones died only according to official data, 158 people, 348 people were injured, especially many young people, mostly young and died. how i wish the children of the new years of russia were alive, so that we would have the strength to remember the tragedies, taking history seriously, passing it through our hearts. what awaits us around the next corner? how to protect yourself from

unrest and schism, lawlessness and inhumanity. it was important for me to show and remember those who are not shown or remembered, because memory makes a people a people, and a person a person. when i began to think about what they had in common, the word “sacrifice” came to mind. none of them were looking for benefits. natasha petukhova and alexey shumsky delivered medicines with candles through the darkness. schoolboy seryozha kuzmin, trying to understand where the truth was, brought food to the besieged and was horrified by the beating of demonstrators. zhenya grapes led the unarmed out from under

fire. who is my neighbor? they answered this question. then throw it into your fire, but preserving the snow through the years, give it to others, you are a flame, a little of yours is down, your path is difficult , and man’s age flows quickly, and

man’s century flows quickly. i’ve been working towards this all my life, we expect to do it in 10 days, it will be a record, chop it up, on the verge of possibilities, we are all with him, because he is the only one, at the maximum height

, don’t rise higher, you’ll just fall like a stone , this is a super cyclone, a killer cyclone, it ’s like he’s chasing you, what do you want, master of the wind. we watch to learn about the world, educational programs and documentaries, we watch,

we watch, in the application or on the website. our broadcast will continue with the author's program nikita mikhalkova besagon. i welcome you, dear friends, to our next release of the author's program. sorry, i think you you will understand why we named our program that way, but as usual, first i want to report to you that our previous program, which was called the reflection of an occupier, was broadcast on