i got chastised for that. again, i think, for me, like i said, it's all about accountability. we have to standup and be accountable in all facets. again, like my thing, like, the district attorney's office. at some point, there's just some things that you can't do. killing kids, mothers, sisters, nobody is on the table. let me just say that, to make that clear, but there was just some unwritten rules on the street where it wasn't a go. kids, elderly, women, off the table, you know what i'm saying? i hit here today, a year later,

still advocating for my son to get the justice that i properly deserve, you know? trying to pick up the pieces for my family and get our new normal because when i say new normal, when it happened, it was right around the time with george floyd, back lives matter, there was a lot going on in the city, a lot going on all over united states. but for me, it's not just about my son. it was live other kids who lost they life on the fourth of july to gun violence all under the age of 15 years old. the youngest, i believe, was four. i never would have thought in a million years that i would be up here, talking about my son and trying to advocate for my son, so like i said, in san

francisco, we have to do better to speak up and standup to whatever that may be. whether or not they are, again, a friend, a relative, a whoever, because it's all intertwined. for me, like, hunters point, it's fucked up. excuse my language, but it's fucked up. i grew up in the city. i can go all over the city. i can still go all over the city. a lot of these kids can't. they scared, they afraid. they don't even want to go to school, and if they do go to school, a lot of them run around with firearms and a whole bunch of other stuff, so, you know, i'm adamant in saying we have to do whatever we can to wrap our hands around the

community, the people that are helping the community. like, everybody can't give many and time, but it's a lot of things that we can do to help and try to nourish our people in our communities in a better life than what we are. [applause] >> accountability. you driving down the street, you see something that don't look right? hold them accountable. that could be your niece, that could be your son, that could be your brother, that could be your daughter. like i said, as san franciscans, we have to be more

involved in that because we have situations like that. jaquan rice, his son was 13. he's now 20. his shooter is the person that these kids in these neighborhoods now listen to that's they big homie, you know? when someone like a dame or a raim, you know, little bruh, oh, you can't call me little bruh. i ain't your big bruh.

they're -- if you're already not holding them accountable at home, and you're not holding them accountable when you go to court, and saying, you know what? your honor, they need help. i need help. my son ain't going to school, they ain't doing this, that's part of what we need to do. we have made too many loopholes and leniency for things. so like i said, just please, man, if you know somebody, see somebody, hold them accountable and make them stand on they actions and they behaviors. thank you. [applause]

. >> hi, everyone. hello. i'm trying to feel everyone in here. i know this lighting is tricky for attention span, so i'm go >> no, it's okay. i know it's monday. i know it's monday at noon. i know stomachs are growling and e-mails are coming in, but director davis and mayor breed have asked that we all prioritize healing in this conversation before we break,

and so if folks can power through, i'm going to actually ask if folks can put their phones down. i promise you won't miss anything in the next 15, 20 minutes. we have some guests who have been waiting on the line who are here to chat, so everybody repeat after me. let's do a little calling-in response. everybody say healing. a little louder, healing. we're going to talk about healing justice, healing centered practices. a dear friend of mine always tells me that trauma that is not transformed then becomes transferred. all right? have we heard that before? trauma that is not transformed becomes transferred, so i'm going to ask the panelists in a moment to pivot and really direct the conversations to those of us that are in this

space. i know we're going to talk about macrolevel healing, but i know a lot of us experience vicarious trauma if not trauma ourselves. i know this is a violence prevention summit, but many of us have also been on the receiving end or have witnessed violence in our own minds as well as our community. so i'm hoping as when our expert panelists chat with us about healing that we actually take some and save some for ourselves, if that makes sense, so we can then give to our people and our community and our constituents. so i am aria said, and i am the president and cofounder of the transgender district, all the way from the tenderloin, just around the corner.

i'm so proud to represent both the transgender district and the tenderloin in this conversation, and we have some incredible experts that i will just name for now. we have lynn westry. we have reverend norman fong, former executive director of chinatown community organization, [inaudible], and then, we have two lovely guests who are going to start speaking on the zoom in just a second. and so we have dr. joyce, who's the cofounder and director of ucsf healthy environments and response to trauma in schools, and dr. michelle, associate provesor, department of

psychiatry and behavioral sciences at the ucsf [inaudible] for behavioral sciences. so i'm going to start off with the guiding question, and thank you, sarah and dr. harrison for sending them to me. okay. so what does healing mean to you, and where do you see a need for healing in, let's say for ourselves? and dr. joyce and dr. michelle, take it away on the zoom. >> hi, everybody. can you hear me? okay. just wondering if i should -- all right. great. i'm not sure if you can see me,

but i am joyce durado. i am a clinical professor at ucsf department of clinical psychiatry and behavioral sciences. thank you for the opportunity to speak with you all. i know that everybody in this room is all about healing justice, and as our moderator has said, the fact is that, you know, most, if not all of us are going to experience trauma at some point in our lives, and with the pandemic, that just adds to that and experiencing the trauma-inducing nature of things like structural racism and xenophobia is so impactful to all of us, so, so important to pay attention to healing, both the healing of ourselves

as well as the other. fundamentally, healing involves helping people feel safe, heard, cared for, respected, and valued. and of course, therapists can provide this type of healing, but also can friends, loved ones, teachers, clergy, and other caring others. and our keynote speaker emphasized how central relationships are. also, a include in healing from trauma is, at the heart, preventing violence.

it's that looming and all too often immediate threat that one person's safety or life is not as important as another person's, due to the lottery of our skin, our birth, and research tells us this kind of what we call socio cultural trauma has the same impact on our brain and on our bodies as other kinds of trauma. so just as another sort of framing thing that i think about healing, the rising youth center, they say that trauma is historical, generational, political, interpersonal, and embodied, so then must be our

healing. so we here have the honor to see healing in communities and in schools, and in our young people who are standing up to injustice. i think i'm going to say a little bit here. we were asked, since we're on the zoom, to say most of what we want to say, and then turn it over to our esteemed panelists. i can talk a little bit more about our program. we aim to promote healing in school and resilient success by collaborating with school systems to create more trauma informed safe, supportive, and equitable environments that create safe, supportive spaces for students and staff alike. we've been doing it since 2008 here in the bay area and across the country to help educators

understand how trauma can affect any of us as human beings, and that anybody, regardless of their role, whether they're a teacher or lunch lady or community partner can implement. we promote healing and resilience not only for the young people but for the adults who serve and care for them, and this is a really important point because caring for our staff in our systems is crucial to this because overworked and over stressed individuals can actually become trauma reactive organizations that cause harm, right? and that's because despite our best efforts, hurt people hurt

people. so we're looking to promote this in our workforce, as well, and that being said, in the work we do with schools and other systems, we encourage our schools to deeply listen to the communities we serve and engage their active participation and partnership so that we can really better understand what they're up against, what's working for them in terms overcoming adversity. just a quick word with our corvetting -- about our core vetting principles. we have these six principles that are grounded in core healing and resilience. our first is understanding trauma and stress. it's really -- it's helpful to understand how trauma and

chronic stress can affect us, and when we understand a little bit about what's happening for folks when they get triggered into sort of a fear and survival response, a fight, flight, or freeze, this helps us understand that behavior better, and when we understand that behavior and where it's coming from, it then helps us to have a response that instead of being punitive and harmful, it's helpful and healing. so really using our principles in this sort of lens to understand is what i'm doing or about to implement a practice or a policy trauma inducing or trauma reducing. i know i'm running out of time here, but i want to mention our second principle, and just as everyone has been saying all morning, we believe that attending to racial justice and equity has to be central to any

sort of trauma informed or healing center approach. what we're trying to do, we really want to make sure that we understand that, for example, things like structural racism is not something that we're post. it's not a posttraumatic stress disorder, it's something that people are up against right here and right now, and the stuff that people are so striving to over come the adversities that have been thrown against them, we need to amplify this and tap into. i think i'll end with that. i think the last thing i want to say that relationships, that those sort of compassionate interdependable relationships,

being able to facilitate their empowerment and their voice is all really key factors to really trying to provide healing in our communities and ourselves, so thanks so much for the opportunity. i'll stay in and stand by. [applause] >> hello. i'm michelle porsche, and i'm the director of psychology and behavioral sciences at ucsf. and again, i'll go through the same questions and try and add a little bit to what dr. dorado has presented. when i think about healing from a psychological perspective, you know, i think about not that the hurt and loss and trauma are not forgotten or gone away, but we're better able to live our lives and find

meaning in our experiences. we really need to think about systems when we're thinking about healing. healing requires that our schools, our health centers, our government institutions are caring for individuals who have been hurt and require healing. my particular research has been focused on aces, adverse childhood experiences that include community violence,

community violence abuse, separation, and loss, so when i see a need for healing in the community and myself, i think about how those experiences impact mental health and how they impact educational outcomes for our children. in my arch, i found people with these high levels of adverse childhood experiences are at higher risk for behavioral problems. they act out in anger or they use substances for numbing, and those things are more likely to have educational consequences. children having to repeat a grade or -- or dropping out of school, so i see a real need for education, how trauma and violence affect children, helping educators and help

children, especially as this pandemic rages on. a few months ago, an estimation was 40% of children will have lost a caregiver to covid. i'm sure that's greater now. [please stand by]

. . . . to the self and others and a them versus us mentality to focus on justice and to break the cycle of violence. thank you, i'll stop there. >> thank you, dr. joy. thank you, dr. shall. so we have about six minutes left. and we're going to -- you know what? there have been amazing speeches and moments that have happened

in five or 10 minutes. so anyway, i do have a guiding question for those of us in this space right here. a quick show of hands, how many people feel like they are stressed on the daily? just raise your hand. okay. and how many people feel like they're anxious today? i see a lot of people picked back up those phones. i'm going to try to be as entertaining as i can because director davis gave me strict orders that y'all get a nugget, a message of healing for yourselves before you go over to the asian art museum. is that where it is? okay. and so i have a guiding question for us. thank you, all, so much. so how do we as advocates develop a healing practice of our own? and i'll give some context. i have been working in this work for over 15 years. i started as a teenager and i

hear the words healing justice and restorative justice and trauma informed care. and i have no idea what those mean today. i just nod my head because in movement spaces we always do mmm, mmm-hmm, and we pretend like we know what's being said but we really don't know o kay? so how do we develop a healing practice of our own? let's focus on the front line as folks on the front line navigating violence prevention in our own community? reverend? >> a first, i want to say in all fairness to the two panelists that were on the video because i was on that email. so they were given five to serve minutes and that is full. so that is the lens so that for

all of us to hold systems accountable because i don't have a long time. this is to hold systems accountable in the communities and continue to do on a daily basis to hold the department heads that are making rules and decisions that are in their offices that touch us on the ground. and with the community awareness which is a nonprofit that my husband started this and the

other person faded into the background, but my husband donald greene has been in the trenches doing this work day in and day out. and when you give funding and take it away without warning, that is systems causing harm to our community. we are that or the ground are given bits and crumbs to do this work. and funding organizations and yet we continue to do this work on an everyday basis because we care. i live in petreo hill and i always acknowledged that i live in public house. why do you say that? i am not ashamed to live in public housing.

you can come from no matter where you come fru, but it is what you do with your life. and we as adults have to show and continue showing your young people that there is another outlet. and there used to be rules to the game. there were street rules an as a lot of us have been saying and somebody didn't teach the young people the street rules. the street rules went out the door because you weren't supposed to do things with imwith, children, seniors and disabled. those were rules. you walked up to the person you shot them, and i am not advocating for this, but there were rules to the game, and the rules have been lost. and our young people feel there is no ending and no light at the end of the tunnel for them. i ran for supervisor district 10. i didn't run to win. i ran to show your young people

no matter where you come from and no matter what you have -- i'm an ex-dope and have been in recovery. ex--prostitute. used to live on the streets and everything else. you have to give your past and tell the young people and show people the future. healing to me? hold systems accountable and it's us grown ass adults that forget what we were doing that age. we just didn't get caught or we had somebody to lift back and miss hattie would say, girl, i'm telling your mamma. so i can go on and on. and it's just that we have to back the ones that are doing the jobs. director davis and my hats off to you. all the other black women and

men and samoan brothers and sisters, asian brothers and sister, pacific islander, all the people of color in the trenches, we have to start recognizing and you really have to start giving money to the ones that are doing the work and quit playing. >> reverend, healing -- okay. god sees and god knows all things. reverend, how do we as advocates develop a healing practice of our own? >> i'm going to start off needing understanding. when i got beat up as a kid, i didn't understand it. i think it impacted my life and i got into violence. i started my own gang just to fight