my agency suggested that i get an a, aborttion. i had the abortion, then they dropped me from the contract. ? >> 4 years ago i got a call she was so drunk, urinating all over herself, she decided to get in the car and she drove and got into a car accident. it was .... the worst moment of my life! but, it woke me up. and i realized that, if i didn't get help i was gonna end up like my mom, i was gonna die. ? ? >> dr. travis: nickie joins us, seems like you have been through so much from a young age. at what moment you hit rock bottom and what did you do? >> it was when my mom died. as an addict and a person who had eating disorders and alcoholism and drug addiction, i had a lot of rock bottoms i would say. you know? but when she died i had to make that step. i didn't want to hurt myself anymore, i didn't want to drink anymore. i didn't want to binge and purge anymore. [ applause ] >> dr. travis: we know that, and -- that's such a commendable thing. we know eating disorders and can go hand in hand. >> absolutely. >> dr. travis: obvio