a woman wrote a gut-wrenching call for help saying i'm adam lanz's mother. and she found herself in the middle of a passionate debate of mental illness. she wrote a book called "the price of say lens": a mom's perspective on mental illness." >> when new town happened you were one of millions of parents who thought, oh my god, could that have been my child there by the grace of god go i. just three days before your son lashed out violently. there had been other incidents in the past with him. he's only 13 years old at that point. >> right. >> why did you feel compelled to write? >> it's interesting to me, antonio, you said there are millions of other families who felt that way. i thought i was the only measure in the world who was feeling what i felt. and in many senses when i wrote those words. when i wrote "i'm adam lanza's mother" i was sending a message to myself. i was admitting for the first time i don't know what to do. i don't know how to get help for my son. i love this child, but i'm afraid. and i'm afraid of what the future holds for him, for my ot