and learned the verdict today along with the rest of us watching from home and i'm pleased that adrianne watches us now. and i was thinking about you and the others that heard the verdict and when you first heard it what did you think? >> gosh anderson i thought i would be happy, i thought i would be incredibly joyful and it was extremely somber. my thought immediately went to the families and to those that really felt strongly in the other direction. i'm prodeath penalty and i'm certainly happy with the verdict but my thought is with the entire survivor community and we can say what we believe but it is up to the very capable jury and i'm pleased with the result. >> do you feel like this is justice for what this person did to -- or these two people did to you, to your husband, to so many others? >> i do. i feel like this is justice. i feel like we have the justice system for a reason and this is the exact reason you know. it is the -- the ultimate justice that you pay. and i have a very difficult time believing that when these acts were committed that they didn't have that in the back o