when we talked to you before the broadcast, i remembered hmm how, uh, alexander vasilievich pyatigorsky , our great uh, humanitarian researcher of buddhism, philosopher, uh, presented his book, no longer young. he said, so, i came here and i see. uh, two ladies talking. one speaks. oh, how difficult it is to live, and the other answers her. and you be philosophical, don't think wonderful definitions brilliant considering that he is also an imamardashvili. both separately and together , they repeatedly wrote about the enormous labor of thinking, that it is very difficult to keep a thought, that the process of thinking itself is very difficult, regardless of the topic. and we don't even realize it. yes , because we often think about what exactly we think, yes, what's on the topic that's how it is by the way, a very difficult process is going on in us. i tried to somehow engage in such interaction and think about how i think it's almost impossible. can i have things from tolstoy, which we will talk about today? i hope u in the story. uh, boyhood is a genius piece. i remember him almost fro