even though i shared with them, i allowedtime, myself. it is great that you took the time to appreciate it. there are so many different lessons here. there is also a lesson on friendship, how to be a friend on both sides, had to accept friendship and extend friendship. and i think that is something faith, family and friends have carried me through the most difficult times in my life. tavis: give me a sense of what this has done for your worldview. -- thisnot one of those is one of the best things that ever happened to me. i would have loved to learn the lessons i have learned another way, not this painful way. but this is the way he wanted me to learn certain lessons. you've known me a long time. the person i am has not changed at all. it has brought out in -- it has been brought out a little bit more. i take in more the moments now. i feel a depth to me that i haven't before. it's hard to explain. it's not like my sister, when i got out of the hospital, we are writing home and she says are you looking at the trees? and you do kind of loo