amanda howard's addiction started with a prescription to percocet for back pain. she later switched to her away because it was cheaper and easier to get. when you were on heroin and just had brody what was it really like ok like i would await your ears all day make my money and instead of going to whole i would go get my fix then go home and he'd already be in bed so i just wasn't there for him like i didn't give him. the extra he needed i didn't spend much time playing with him which he was really really young. but. it makes me sad you know every milestone like these to me make because they don't like me and i missed out on so much of him . you don't know reality your reality is gone. eventually the cycle kills you if you don't get out i'm lucky you know because i seen that wake up call i got out i know it's there many people have died he didn't get that call. so i had you know i'm just sitting in the passenger seat my husband comes out of the store and i am completely collapse over he goes to pull me out of the car on purple one like boy you like i had a deed he