us from kim also a medical center in beirut well with me here in the studio now is my colleague amandeep from our u.w. arabic a desk a so good to have you with us here and i cannot imagine you are lebanese the anxiety that you must have been experiencing 1st of all how are your relatives how are your loved ones how is everybody back home thank god everybody i know is fine and safe and survived the blast lucky my parents live in also in north lebanon and not in beirut and they were able to survive this but it has been a very very tough 24 hours for me and everyone who lives abroad we're old worried about our loved ones. they're still searching rescue operations ongoing to find those who are still missing it's been a very very tough time and the least i can say is that we're all traumatized from that despite having lived wars and several catastrophes and levon on this scene. to be on a just different level what are your friends workers your family telling you the day after they're still in shock that's for sure everyone a sudden chalk i hear different stories from friends and family member