i could hear my father's voice and my youngnger brother andnd sistster. i i didn't want t to open my eys because it felt like a dream. i was afraid i w would wake up from the dream i if i opened m eyes. >> nothing compares to the pain of leaving your child behind. when we arrived here, people would invite us to big korean feaststs. but we c couldn't enjoy them because e our daughter wasn't wh us. even when i went to sleep, i was restless and i'd get lost in nightmares. >> at first it wasn't easy for chanyang to find her bearings in her new surroundings. >> when i started going to the gigantic supermarkets here, i didn't know how to use the trolleys, so people would look at me strangely. i learned how to use the subway cards from my younger siblings. now i can scan my bag like you saw me do today. >> chanyang has since become quite well-known in her new home of south korea. >> are you nervous? >> a little bit exciting. >> she often appears on television, to tell her story. and in doing so, she has one aim, above all. >> w when i was in north koreaei risksk