that ascot estates home■ç?he prosecution made it out to be. >> me and tammy got along fine. we put our kids before everything. i know that's why i could never go to her and ask for separation, because it would just destroy our kids. >> and he explained his initial reticence to tell police about his affairs and reveal his own massive gambling debts had nothing to do with the murders. >> when they asked me about the affair, and i admitted it to them the next day, and as far as the gambling goes -- if you know bookmakers, it's not something you just talk about. >> then, struggling to keep ■çh emotions in check, he recounted the day of the shooting. >> brian was standing there with a gun pointed at me. and he told me to go -- go to the -- safe. i mean, i didn't know what was going on. i was panicked. i kept asking, why? what are you doing? and as we walked by, the office, i could see -- i could see tammy's feet sticking out of the bathroom. and then i knew something was wrong. that he had probably shot her.■ >> whe