me as a -- as a person who has been repeatedly bullied not only for being what i call, you know, asperger, but a person who stutters but i don't take it lying down because i have to keep calm and stutter on my shirt. my question is when was the one moment when you realized that people are actually listening to me and they are not going through -- they're not going through the motions? >> it depends on what day because i definitely have days where it definitely feel like that's the case still. but i mean, that's the thing. you're still a person, who you are even though all of this stuff happens so if you're not neurotypical, what i call trash brain informally and scientifically. having that externalized and shouted back to you by people for years, makes it hard to believe in yourself and makes hard that anybody cares what you say. i do have ptsd and i have been in therapy for several years and they have index from 1 to 100 and i scored an 89, i think, initially, up there with combat veterans. it's not like -- there's no p in my ptsd because it's constant and it's ongoing. having -- i'm dow