been in the accident and i had just had a c-section and they come in with this needle to give me ativanbout you, kaitlyn, and everything's going to be okay. >> i'll tell you something really shameful about myself. the first time i shot up, i looked at myself in the mirror with a big grin. something was missing in me, whether it was a self-image situation, whether it was a character flaw. i came up with a stable family in the suburbs, i had a lot of advantages. there was some dark genie inside me that i very much hesitate to call a disease that led me to dope. i didn't have anyone else who could have talked me out of what i was doing. an intervention wouldn't have worked. i didn't have a child. i have a 7-year-old daughter now who i never would have had. i never would have thought. i looked in a mirror, and i saw somebody worth saving, or at least that i wanted to try real hard to save. anybody can find themself very easily in this situation. and, you know, i look back on that, and i think about my daughter. what i'll tell my daughter. you know, that was daddy. ain't no doubt about it. b